Monday, July 27, 2009


Hari ni tak best sangat...

First, sebab hari ni hari Isnin. Susah nak bangun. Pusing kiri, snooze. Pusing kanan, snooze. Pusing depan, stop terus. Terlena empat minit.. Pup! Terduduk. Dah terlambat. Banyak kali snooze.

Lepas mandi, masuk bilik. Alarm bunyi lagi. Bongok. Cek alarm. Oh alarm back-up. Alarm kedua. Takut terlajak. Aku yang bongok rupanya.

Baru perasan. Ada tiga panggilan terlepas (missed calls). Padan muka aku tak jawab. Dah cakap dah nak tidur. Degil. Nak call jugak. Ha pergi borak dengan voice mail.

Keluar rumah, rasa macam kenapa lain macam je hari ni. Terik tapi hati rasa mendung. Oh puitisnya. Jalan tak jem pulak. Alhamdulillah. Semua emergency leave agaknya. Biasalah, Isnin.

Sampai office, masuk parking. Nak parking dekat tempat colleague dekat basement. Dia cuti bersalin. Parking aku kat luar. Panas. Tapi bayar murah sikit. Tak pernah bayar pun sebenarnya. Invoice zero je. Ha ha. Masa nak masuk parking, bertembung dengan kereta ofismet. Dia nak parking sebelah parking aku..

So, aku stop. Bagi dia masuk dulu. Tapi alignment aku dah lari. Takleh masuk depan, nak masuk bontot dulu. Tapi ada satu lagi kereta colleague aku baru sampai. Dia stop dekat sangat dengan kereta aku. Aku belum habis pusing lagi. Entah camne, aku blur. Aku undur sikit, bagi dia pintas aku. Dia pintas. Tapi aku rasa tak sedap hati. Aku toleh kiri.

Baik punya gesel. Sikit je. Aku tergesel kereta membe aku yang baru masuk parking tadi. Aku terus parking dan keluar kereta. Mintak maaf lah apa lagi. Tapi kereta dia kena ciput je. Aku punye zrass.. melekat cat kereta dia kaler merah Gen 2.

Aduh.. sakitnya hati. Kenapa blur sangat ni. First time langgar kereta orang. Oh rekod tercalar. Aku ada rekod jenayah kini.

Mujur membe aku ok. Dia kata sikit je, polish je dah ok. Dah lah dia baru first day masuk ofis lepas kena denggi. Dia cakap, "Kesian you, Ayu. Kalau I tak masuk kerja arini, takde lah you langgar kereta orang."

Lepas minta maaf dekat dia, aku mintak maaf dekat kereta. Kesan orang langgar dulu pun tak repair lagi. Haih..

Pagi tu aku tak bercakap sangat dengan orang lain. Tapi aku happy membe aku tu dah sembuh dari denggi. Borak-borak dengan dia. Kami banyak share cerita. Aku cerita pasal hal aku. Dia terkejut sampai terjerit, "Haa!" Lepas tu dada dia berdebar-debar. Aduh, terus aku rasa bersalah. Aku lupa blood pressure dia bebaru ni tinggi.

Minta maaf lagi. Tapi dia marah, buat apa nak minta maaf.

Hari ni aku rasa pening-pening je. Rasa melayang pun ada. Cabut spek. Lega sikit, walaupun tak nampak orang. Teringat doktor tanya pasal ni hari tu, tapi aku cakap aku ok.

Pergi lunch bertiga. Balik lunch, duduk sepuluh minit depan pc. Rasa pening balik. Bangun, bergegas pergi bilik air. Habis RM6 lunch aku.

Then rasa ok tapi aku still pening-pening. Entah-entah gula aku yang tinggi tak? Hmm.. nanti kena cek. Just in case. Dulu dah pernah jadi. Ingat tinggi, rupanya low sangat. :P

Lepas kerja, gi Alamanda. Beli barang, kemudian nak tengok wayang sorang-sorang. Lupakan masalah jap. Tapi kekawan nak join beli barang sekali. Lepas beli barang, aku balik. Rasa penat sangat. Tak jadi tengok wayang.

Orang yang call malam-malam buta tu call lagi. "Ni kenapa senyap je?" dia tanya penuh rasa tidak puas hati. Ada unsur-unsur rajukan dan kebengangan. Aku jawab dengan jahatnya, "Suka hati saya la saya nak senyap pun."

Balik rumah, mandi. Lepas mandi, belek muka kat cermin. Ya Allah, buruknya. Pucat lesi. Dark circle dah makin jelas. Aduh. Patut lah tak kahwin-kahwin.

Memang hari yang menghampakan.

Sunday, July 26, 2009

Gimme B, gimme U, gimme S, gimme T.. gimme- hold on, stop it right there.

I got busted.

I tweeted something sounds a little sexist if you look at the wrong way..

I completely forgot that my tweets will update my facebook status! And some of the guys were not very keen to it. Lol.

Plus, the guy who I addressed to in the tweet is in my friend's list and... he checks my profile quite regularly I guess.

Well let's hope he's not that smart though. :P

To be frank, I hate it when guys came to me to become my friends but ended up twisting their own words and promises.

Come on!

It can't be that soon, can it?

But it happened so many times and I got so fed-up already.

Go find some other girls if you think I'm that easy! Syuhh!

Saturday, July 25, 2009

A bear, a lion and a pig.

A bear, a lion and a pig meet.

Bear says: "If I roar in the forest, the entire forest is shivering with fear."

Lion says: "If I roar in the jungle, the entire jungle is afraid of me."

Pig says: "Big deal.... I only have to cough, and the entire planet lives in fear."

Friday, July 24, 2009

Pip! Pip!

Tonight I'd like to share with you guys some of Harry Potter casts. You may compare the real them and how different they are in the movies.

Quite interesting though. :)

Let's start with the trio, shall we?

Daniel Radcliffe as Harry Potter

He looks so much matured in his real life. Pretty hot. But nah, skinny guys aren't my type.

Emma Watson as Hermione Granger

Oh how she grew up beautifully. But sometimes Watson didn't really know how to choose a suitable dress for her. Sometimes she looks way too older than her real age.

Rupert Grint as Ron Weasley

Funny bloke, he is.

Bonnie Wright as Ginny Weasley

Trust me, she has everything to be a model.

Alan Rickman as Severus Snape

He looks much much better without those black robes and greasy black hair!

Evanna Lynch as Luna Lovegood

I love her, totally. She's adorable in her own way.

Matthew Lewis as Neville Longbottom

OMG. He looks hot! But he looks like a geek in the movies.

Maggie Smith as Minerva McGonagall

She's a beautiful lovely woman, don't you think? :)

Helena Bonham Carter as Bellatrix Lestrange

She looks way too nice compared to her character in HP. I hate Bellatrix so much I wanted to kill her badly.

David Thewlis as Remus Lupin @ Moony

Oh crap! That hairstyle is completely a crappp!!!

Chris Rankin as Percy Weasley

Remember Percy, Ron's older brother? Oh dear, he looks like a Hobbit!

Dave Legeno as Fenrir Greyback

Well urm.. I didn't know a werewolf can be this hot..

Harry Melling as Dudley Dursley

Hahaha.. that's just hilarious.

James Phelps as Fred Weasley

He looks funny. Haha.

Ralph Fiennes as Tom Riddle @ Voldemort

Never thought Voldemort could be this handsome, didn't you?

Timothy Spall as Peter Pettigrew @ Wormtail

Mmm.. you tell me. I can't really find the difference...

Tom Felton as Draco Malfoy

Oh dear... *fainting* Stalk him @ Twitter and you'll know how nice he is.

Robert Pattinson as Cedric Diggory

Forgot that he used to be in HP movie? He's dead and turned into a dazzling hot vampire.

Sir Michael Gambon as Albus Dumbledore

Hmmm.. he doesn't look that old, does he? Dumbledore, I miss you!!

Ok enough for now.. it's too many already. Hahaha.. Sorry can't help.

Wednesday, July 22, 2009

Let the foul mind eats you alive.

My second appointment at the hospital didn't go so well as the blood test showed no improvement and my file went missing. Yet my third appointment was worse.

On my previous follow up, I had to run a few more blood tests so they took four containers of my blood. I was supposed to hear the result today. I had waited three months for this as I was hoping to ask the haematologist to close my case because I feel perfectly normal and I was trying to clear my medical history as I wanted to apply a life insurance yet I was stuck because of this.

But guess what, now they lost the result.

"Hmm.. they didn't update your result in the system," said the haematologist.

My brain went numb. Was it what I was supposed to hear? No result? I waited for three freaking months for this!!! *pulling off hair*

"Previously, my file went missing. Now my result!" I said in disbelief, feeling so annoyed but the doctor was not the one to blame. What kind of hospital is this? How could they take this kind of things for granted?

For each appointment, I have to run a normal blood test which is not a detailed one. So yeah, my appointment today was no fun at all. The doctor had to advise based on the regular blood test. Yet somehow it was enough for the doctor to deliver more and more bad news.

Declining all the bad news, I said confidently, "Can we ... close this case? I mean, I feel fine.. You see, I want to apply insurance."

The doctor threw a faint smile, "You don't feel anything wrong? No dizzy?"

I thought for a while. "I do.. sometimes, but it's because of the sinus," I answered as if I was the one who was wearing the white coat. "Well, you know.." I sniffed a little giving a proof.

He smiled again. "Let me explain your condition here, alright..."

After a detailed explanation, I didn't know what to feel anymore.

"Can you..." I paused, thinking this would sound ridiculous but I continued, "prepare a medical report saying I'm fine since I do feel fine because I need to apply insurance and I'm afraid they might exclude this y'know.."

The doctor thought for a moment. Perhaps thinking of the right way to get my head clear.

"First, you need a formal request. And based on this, I can't really say on anything because we don't have your missing results and.." he stopped for a while, looking away from my eyes, "I think they will still exclude this."

"K," I muttered, finally giving up. There goes my insurance, certainly they will pull off all the coverage related to the blood.. liver, spleen, kidneys..wherever the blood flows. Perhaps only skin left to be covered. I'm not J.Lo...

"I'll try to trace back the missing results so you don't have to come here so frequent.."

I feel slightly delighted. I didn't want to come to the stupid hospital with a stupid system anymore.

"But, if I couldn't find it, you've to come back and re-do the tests alright?"

I heaved a sigh with a slight nod, still trying to curve a smile.

"Then we'll see again for next follow up.. I'll set a date for you."

I let out another sigh, staring blankly at the floor, making a pity face. "I thought this would be my last appointment."

He smiled again very widely. "You've to be monitored," he reminded me.

Then I followed him to the counter. I felt like ripping off the nurses's heads. They could be the cause of my missing results. Seriously don't you think this is a bit too much? Missing patient's files and lab results. It's just too much! Even there could be possibilities where they could swap the results accidentally for having such a foul unmanageable system!

"Your next appointment is on October," said the guy.

"October..?" Wow that sounded so far..

"After raya!" he said, laughing when I was not able to think straight.


"The doctor has set an appointment for your ultrasound. You may go to Radiology."

Duh.. where the heck is that? I didn't know why my mind refused to work for me. "Ha?" I asked blankly.

"Do you know where's Radiology at?"

I shook my head stiffly.

He took out a blank paper and started to sketch a brief map. I couldn't understand at all. He explained three times and I was like, where the fuck is this? I didn't notice there's a balcony on this floor.

"Why don't I draw and show you the way I understand?" I suggested.

He passed me the pen and paper and I started drawing.. "This is the small counter.. this is the Mini Mart, Hospi Mart, whatever you called it.. this is the main entrance... The entrance is facing the McD across the road.." Finally I drew a square as McD.

"Laa.. Kenapa akak keluar??" he asked shockingly.

Sounded very funny though, I laughed really hard. "No.. I'm just showing you. I'm not saying I'm going out!" In fact, I was still there, standing in front of him.

A nurse who heard us simply said, "Banyak signboard tengok je la.."

Finally I understood and realized all I had to do was to come out from the speciallist unit and turn left. I was being a complete idiot.

The signboards were not helpful at all. Me and shinizzle were fighting what Radiology really means in Bahasa.

"Pengimejan...X-Ray.. Wei ape ni? Betul ke ni? Apsal takde Radiologi ke.." I nagged. Seriously the translation was freaking long.

Luckily it was the right place. I negotiated with the nurse which date I wanted, "Lepas Raya la.. tapi jangan awal sangat.."

Then she found the right date for me and I agreed. I walked away leaving the Radiology with shinizzle.

"Abis la ultrasound aku penuh dengan lemang je."

Monday, July 20, 2009

Which one would you like to taste : Cruciatus Curse? Imperius Curse? Or the Killing Curse?

On second thought, perhaps Harry Potter and the Half Blood Prince isn't that bad at all.

I went to watch it again for the second time with my buddies, shinizzle and padfoot. I felt like I did enjoy the movie. Very much. With all the humours, I think HBP is a great movie. Perhaps I already had my expectation and I already knew what to expect, so yeah, it didn't dissapoint me as it did when I first watched it.

I really like Tom Felton (sorry, padfoot). His acting is quite brilliant. Unfortunately there are not many scenes on him. I'm still not satisfied with Dan Radcliffe. He should do something with his acting skills. Still need to brush up a bit more. Sometimes it's pretty dull. I'm so not satisfied with the scenes where he casts Sectumsempra upon Draco. Scream, Dan. You should scream out of your lungs, honey. SECTUMSEMPRA! Not, Sectumsempra! and Draco would be like, "I beg your pardon?"

Do you think JK wrote it in capital letters because she accidentally hit the Caps Lock button?

*patting forehead*

And do you know how bad Sectumsempra is?

"Blood spurted from Malfoy's face and chest as though he had been slashed with an invisible sword. He staggered backward and collapsed onto the waterlogged floor with a great splash, his wand falling from his limp right hand. "No —" gasped Harry. Slipping and staggering, Harry got to his feet and plunged toward Malfoy, whose face was now shining scarlet, his white hands scrabbling at his blood-soaked chest." - HBP.

It's more than what it shows in the movies. There should be long deep cuts everywhere on the body. At least the shirt should be torn you know.. so erm..we could see the cuts...

Something like this!

The thing I hate the most about this movie is how David Yates turned this movie into some kind of teenager's love story? It's so immature. I know the book shows that their hormones have gone wild but no, that's not the motive of the book, okay? You should be focusing more on Dumbledore's death, my dear Yates! I didn't cry at all! Mind you, I cried like a rainstorm when I read the book! I was so broken hearted, I was so furious with JK, it was just unbelievable how I could break into tears just by reading a children book.

There's no such plot where Harry and Ginny ends up kissing in the Room of Requirement. Their first kiss happens when they win the Quidditch cup when Harry is not allowed to play (is he? I can't remember, I haven't read the book over a year). It happens in the common room at Gryffindor Tower, when Ginny marches towards him to give a hug instead Harry kisses her.

Oh don't make me start.

The Potion book which belongs to Half Blood Prince (how can they translate it into SEPARA DARAH??!) remains with Harry even after he is asked to return the book. He just switches the book cover so everyone thinks he has bought a new one.

The scenes where the Burrow being attacked by the Death Eaters do not exist in the book. Yates might have reasons why he prefer to add up those scenes and left out some of the plots from the books instead. But I realized some of the scenes are brought in to alert about the upcoming final movies (yep, the last book will be separated into two movies and yep, the gap is one year between each movie). I kinda like the scenes though, they made me anxious. I was really hoping to see Ginny would cast the Body Bind curse, it's what she's best at but sadly Yates couldn't read my mind. Oh well, he always disspoints me. I'm used to it already.

Just for additional info for those who don't read the books, Half Blood means one of the parents is a Muggle and another is a wizard like Voldemort himself (is this considered as a spoiler? Oh well nevermind that). Pure blood means both parents are wizards, like Draco (yummy.. I mean, wow..). As for the ones whose parents are Muggles, they're called Mudblood. Like Hermione. Hahaha. No, they're Muggle-borns.

The humour I like the most is when Professor Horace Slughorn is trying to steal the *Tentacula's leaves, when he says, "Harrryy~" and Harry who looks like sort of 'drunk' by Felix Felicis answers, "Sirrr~~?"

It was hilarious by how Harry reacts.

So what are you favourites?

The moment Ron falls of the sofa at Professor Slughorn's office?

Or the awkward moment when Ron comes and sits between Harry and Ginny at the Burrow?

Or the moment when Lav-Lav (Lavender Brown) goes mad with Won-Won especially at the hospital wing?

Or the moment when Harry and Ron are having their leisure time loitering at the hallway and get noticed by Prof Mcgonagall?

They're all my favourites actually. =)

In my next entry, I'll be sharing with you something interesting. I'd like to post it now but I'm just too sleepy and my neck is aching.

Oh well I'm sorry if this Harry Potter thing is a bit too much. Can't help.

Tentacula or Venomous Tentacula is a green, spikey, toothsome plant with mobile vines that try to grab living prey. Venomous Tentacula expels venom from its shoots, and its spikes are poisonous. Its bite is highly poisonous.

This dangerous plant is used for student research in Herbology classes at Hogwarts School of Witchcraft and Wizardry. Students are permitted to swear loudly if a Tentacula tries to strangle them during lessons.

Venomous Tentacula seeds are Class C non-tradeable items. Fred and George Weasley purchased Tentacula seeds off Mundungus Fletcher in 1995 for their Weasleys' Wizard Wheezes products. Tentacula seeds emit a faint rattling noise even if they are completely stationary.

During the Battle of Hogwarts, Neville Longbottom and Pomona Sprout used Venomous Tentaculas as a weapon against invading Death Eaters. (in final book)

Credits to HarryMedia and whoever own the photos.

Sunday, July 19, 2009

Kiss me instead.

A lazy Sunday just passed by. It's almost midnight now and tomorrow I've to work. I used to feel great with my work but now I feel lost and bored. I need a new environment. I want to leave Cyberjaya. I want to be somewhere else, be someone different. How I wished I could make it happen by just a tiny flick of a wand...

This is my third week I've been having my flu and cough. My mom started to get worried because she has been calling me almost every day and I still sound like I talk through my nose. I'm already bored answering the same question whenever someone called me, "Are you sick?" My colleague when he first heard my voice, he asked funnily, "Apa pasai you punya suara manyak cantek?" I already finished my antibiotic, there's nothing I could do honestly.

Yesterday, me and shinizzle went to Kinokuniya, KLCC. I bought three books adding up my unread books collection. I'm just too scared to count the total frankly speaking. And then we decided to go to Times Square and I bought another book. Then, we went to Central Market. I was looking for new postcards, a box where I can put all my mails (they're just too many already) and err..something personal. But I only managed to find the postcards. Time was running out as we had to go to Sunway Pyramid because we were going to watch Harry Potter for the second time with padfoot. I was a little worried that I might fall asleep but to my surprise, I felt like the movie was ten times better than my first watch. Isn't it weird?? I think it's because I already knew what to expect. I'll be watching it again for the third time with my sister next weekend.. InsyaAllah.

Found this clip at YouTube by accident. Daniel Radcliffe (who plays Harry Potter) got kissed on a stage by a mannn.. Duh, I think he enjoyed it. Yeah well, perhaps it's nothing to him compared to his role he had to play in Equus (simply the dumbest thing he'd ever done).

Please, Dan.. find something else to do rather than going naked in front of the public. Your body isn't that nice to look at. You're just a boy.

Alright, I'm off to bed. Night, night. Pip! Pip! (says Dumbledore)

Friday, July 17, 2009


I hate to give an early movie review of Harry Potter and the Half Blood Prince, not wanting to be a spoiler to anyone especially the ones who've been waiting to watch it for years.. Someone like me.

Harry Potter movies are different to me. I have this feeling of eager to watch them eventhough they always dissapoint me (except the first one). I had been waiting for Half Blood Prince for two years since they postponed the movie last year due to writer's strike. The reason I was extremely eager to watch it is because it's my favourite book among all the seven series.

I felt two years were too long for me until I almost missed the movie last night eventhough I was the one who bought the tickets last Tuesday! I went back from work, feeling like preparing my own dinner this time so I took out everything I needed from the fridge to defrost. Then I went inside my bedroom and checked my YM. Luckily I saw a Harry Potter's quote being used by shinizzle for her YM status and I went like, "FARKK."

I'm not going to say anything on the scenes. Not yet until next week so that I won't spoil anyone's mood.

But I am pretty sure some of you have heard the reviews from your friends. How bad is it? You judge.

As for the mean time, all I can say is if you are not a Harry Potter fan or if you don't read the books, please don't waste your ten bucks for this movie. Or else either you'll doze off till the credit starts rolling, or you'll leave the hall feeling sorry for yourself for wasting your money and time.

Oh I know. One can never satisfy anyone or any thing but this one can never satisfy a single living creature.

Perhaps next week you'll be reading a detailed review from me full of loathes and critics.

My bad.

The Unbreakable Vow doesn't work. Nah. Nope.

Eeep..still not working~

Dumbledore : This is where our gay moment ends..
Harry : Yepp. Looks like it. Have you seen Draco?

Harry : So there you are..
Draco : Whatchulookinat?
Harry : Those evil sparkling eyes..
Draco : Did you give me Love Potion?!
Harry : No. Did you?
Draco : No..
Both : So....

Wednesday, July 15, 2009

How can there be so much that you don't know?

Two men, both seriously ill, occupied the same hospital room.

One man was allowed to sit up in his bed for an hour each afternoon to help drain the fluid from his lungs.

His bed was next to the room's only window.

The other man had to spend all his time flat on his back.

The men talked for hours on end.

They spoke of their wives and families, their homes, their jobs, their involvement in the military service, where they had been on vacation..

Every afternoon, when the man in the bed by the window could sit up, he would pass the time by describing to his roommate all the things he could see outside the window.

The man in the other bed began to live for those one hour periods where his world would be broadened and enlivened by all the activity and color of the world outside.

The window overlooked a park with a lovely lake.

Ducks and swans played on the water while children sailed their model boats. Young lovers walked arm in arm amidst flowers of every color and a fine view of the city skyline could be seen in the distance.

As the man by the window described all this in exquisite details, the man on the other side of the room would close his eyes and imagine this picturesque scene.

One warm afternoon, the man by the window described a parade passing by.

Although the other man could not hear the band - he could see it in his mind's eye as the gentleman by the window portrayed it with descriptive words.

Days, weeks and months passed.

One morning, the day nurse arrived to bring water for their baths only to find the lifeless body of the man by the window, who had died peacefully in his sleep.

She was saddened and called the hospital attendants to take the body away.

As soon as it seemed appropriate, the other man asked if he could be moved next to the window.. The nurse was happy to make the switch, and after making sure he was comfortable, she left him alone.

Slowly, painfully, he propped himself up on one elbow to take his first look at the real world outside.

He strained to slowly turn to look out the window besides the bed.

It faced a blank wall.

The man asked the nurse what could have compelled his deceased roommate who had described such wonderful things outside this window.

The nurse responded that the man was blind and could not even see the wall.

She said, 'Perhaps he just wanted to encourage you.'

There is tremendous happiness in making others happy, despite our own situations.

Shared grief is half the sorrow, but happiness when shared, is doubled.

If you want to feel rich, just count all the things you have that money can't buy.

'Today is a gift, that is why it is called The Present.'

Thursday, July 09, 2009

To Mr Cheng.

Betul ke sistem pos ni hanya untuk surat dan parcel?

Here to prove you wrong, Mr Cheng.

Artist Eric Ericson, from Sweden, spent a few years sending all kinds of unwrapped objects through the mail: food, a skeleton, a baby doll, books, vinyl records, a pair of glasses, individual playing cards... you name it.

Agak cool lah.. dan kemungkinan menyebabkan posmen2 keluar asap dari telinga dan hidung dan rongga-rongga badan yang boleh membatalkan puasa jika dimasukkan sesuatu.


Aku terpublish post ini di web persatuan. Macam nak pecah dada aku. Hahah. Tapi entry tersebut telah didelete dalam mase sepuluh saat sahaja. Gelabah biawak cirit-birit.

Tuesday, July 07, 2009

"Trouble is a friend, but trouble is a foe, oh oh.."

I may not contact my old friends, asking how they are doing.. what's happening with their lives.. or what their future plannings are.

I may not send my birthday wishes because I can't remember all their birthdays and sometimes when I do, I wished they had a good future ahead eventhough the wishes did not reach them. I still remember my old friends' birthdays yet I may not have the initiatives to go and find ways to wish them. Therefore, I do not mind when they forget mine.

I am a type of friend who does not use my own friends as a medium for me to reach my goals, to achieve something I cannot do on my own, without thinking what they might think, without really value the friendship between us.

I don't go and find my old friends, pretending I miss them, asking how they have been doing but in the end, I am actually asking a big favor from them.

I thank my friends regardless how long I've been knowing them and I do thank them because of how friendly they are still, how warm and nice when they talk to me and how pleasant they treat me.

I truly appreciate when my long lost friends suddenly called me, talking so sweetly I was caught by surprise yet I still greet them as I usually did. In fact, perhaps I am nicer than before. Perhaps the grudges I thought I held were suddenly gone.

But when in the end, the reason they came up to me is not because they remember me or not because they are being honest in our friendship, instead it is because they want something from me. Something valuable, certainly beneficial for them. Something like money?

Do you think I would still smile and say, "Hey, you're my buddy of course I would listen to you." ?

Do you think you could still buy me with your sweetness and humbleness in order for you to persuade me so that you can gain from me?

You better start hoping I am that stupid.

Dear friends, please understand. I may look like I don't value my old friends since I don't contact you that much. I do value each and everyone of you and I certainly do not have any intention to use you as a medium for me to be rich. Please don't come to me after you left me for a long time and suddenly suggest me to spend for you.

And when I say no, do you think you will still stay as my friend? God, no.

I am confident because after all the No-s I had been saying, none of them stayed.

Now, do you still want to be my friend?

Sunday, July 05, 2009

100 Truths.

Aku tengah takde mood sekarang ni. Jadi bagi melupakan hal yang aku tengah takde mood, maka aku menjawab meme di bawah yang telah di-tag oleh Melal entah kurun ke berapanye..

If you find any question with no answer, meaning it's a stupid question which I don't feel like answering.

1. Last beverage: Iced Milo. Uhh..refreshing~
2. Last phone call: Syahide.
3. Last text message: Madina.
4. Last song you listened to: The Day We Find Love - 911
5. Last time you cried: Semalam masa tengok cite CJ7. Padahal dah tengok dah. Bodo taks?

6. Dated someone twice: Tak.
7. Been cheated on: Hmm.. takdek.
8. Kissed someone & regretted it: Tak suke tul la soklan2 cinta ni.
9. Lost someone special: Yes.
10. Been depressed: A few times.
11. Been drunk and threw up: I don't drink.

12. cekelattt.
13. apple green.
14. purple.

15. Made a new friend: Ader..a lot.

16. Fallen out of love: Jatuh cinte pun tidak.

17. Laughed until you cried: Hmm.. ada rasanye.

18. Met someone who changed you: Ade..

19. Found out who your true friends were: Yes.. and I was right.

20. Found out someone was talking about you: Kalau secara kantoi, takde.

21. Kissed anyone on your Facebook friend's list:Oh, ini belum try lagi..

22. How many people on your Facebook friends list do you know in real life: Most of them.

23. How many kids do you want to have: Perancangan, 3-5. Kehendak Tuhan, wallahualam.

24. Do you have any pets: Saye suke kure-kure. Used to have one. Rase nak bela lagi tp entahlah..

25. Do you want to change your name: Tak mau. Dah cukup tersendiri dah. I appreciate what my parents named me.

26. What did you do for your last birthday: Tak lepas lagi ini tahun. Time bulan puase nanti.. huhu.. Kena duk surau lama sikit la. hahah.

27. What time did you wake up today: Kul bape yer.. tak tengok jam pulak.

28. What were you doing at midnight last night: Ermmm.. tidow~

29. Name something you CANNOT wait for: Pay day.

30. Last time you saw your Mother: Petang tadi before my parents went back to Ipoh.

31. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life: My education background.

32. What are you listening to right now: My Immortal by Evanescence.

33. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: Tak penahh.

34. What's getting on your nerves right now: Selfish friends.

35. Most visited webpage: Blogs, Berita Harian, Yahoo Mail.

36. Whats your real name: Ayu N*r*f*da binti Ayob

37. Nicknames: Ayu, Nora, *****, N***.

38. Relationship Status: Single. Takde mase nak pikir lagi.

39. Zodiac sign: Virgo

40. Male or female : Jap cek.. oo.. female la.

41. Pre-school : Tadika Methodist.

42. Middle School : Banyak la.. ade tiga.

43. High school/college : Ade tiga jugakk.

44. Hair colour: Hitam.

45. Long or short: Aku baru potongggg. I wished to have pixie cut tapi aku rase kene pelangkung dgn parents aku nanti hehee. Tapi aku rase satu hari aku nak try.

46. Height: 155cm je ok.

47. Do you have a crush on someone : Ade, tapi dia ni muda dua tahun dari aku. Kalau tak, mau aku ngorat dah. Hahaha.

48. What do you like about yourself : Cukup sifat. Alhamdulillah.

49. Piercings: Ears.

51. Righty or lefty: lefty

52. First surgery: Tak penah lagi, Alhamdulillah.

53. First piercing: Lapan tahun rasanye mase tu.

54. First best friend: Suhaila.

55. First sport you joined: Netball, but I don't like it.

56. First vacation: Tak tau la..Dalam perut lagi dah dibawak berjalan.

58. First pair of trainers: Entah laa.. mane nak ingatt. BATA KOT?? HAHA.

59. Eating : Tengah takde mood, mana la rase nak mengunyah. Jap gi nak makan bubur durian, housmet suh makan.

60. Drinking: Iced Milo.

61. I'm about to: Explode? Nah, I was.

62. Listening to: Tadi bukan dah tanyeee keeee.. Jonas Brothers - Out of This World.

"She was on her way to mars
When she ran into a star
And she fell into my arms
Thank you gravity..."

Tak ke pelik tu?

63. Waiting on: Mood untuk menggosok baju.

64. Want kids : InsyaAllah.
65. Get Married : Soklan-soklan lame macam ni, aku tak suke.
66. Career : Ade business kerana minat.

67. Lips or eyes: eyes.
68. Hugs or kisses: Tengok orang. :P
69. Shorter or taller:
70. Older or Younger:
71. Romantic or spontaneous:
72. Nice stomach or nice arms:
73. Sensitive or loud:
74. Hook-up or relationship:
75. Trouble maker or hesitant:

76. Kissed a stranger:
77. Drank hard liquor:
78. Lost glasses/contacts: Yes, many times.
79. Sex on first date:
80. Broken someone's heart: Yes. Itu lumrah.
82. Been arrested: Tak.
83. Turned someone down: Ini juga lumrah.
84. Cried when someone died: Yes.
85. Fallen for a friend : Tak pernah.

86. Yourself : I have to.
88. Love at first sight: TAK.
89. Heaven: Yes.
90. Santa Claus: Penipu besar macam perot dia.
91. Kiss on the first date: 
92. Angels: Yerp.

94. Had more than 1 girlfriend/boyfriend at a time: Tak.

95. Did you sing today?: Ade, mase anta adik aku balik Shah Alam.. Sebelum kete gerak nak balik, aku nyanyi lagu Akademi Fantasia, "Percayaa pada diri.." bagi menimbulkan sebak di dadanye. Hahahah..

96. Ever cheated on somebody : Pernah.

97. If you could go back in time, how far would you go: Tahun 2000.

98. If you could pick a day from last year and relive it, what would it be : Adoi.. takde kot.

99. Are you afraid of falling in love : Tak.

100. Posting this as 100 truths : Fine, whatever.