Monday, May 30, 2011

A comparison.

In 2004, I did a personality disorder test and this is the result.



I did it again few days ago (to my surprise the web still exists), and I got this.

DisorderRating
Paranoid:Low
Schizoid:Low
Schizotypal:Low
Antisocial:Low
Borderline:Low
Histrionic:Low
Narcissistic:Moderate
Avoidant:Low
Dependent:Low
Obsessive-Compulsive:Low

-- Personality Disorder Test --
-- Personality Disorder Information --



I guess I am dealing with less stress now heh? I was confident the result would be worse.

Maybe my heart is happier now since someone painted it with beautiful colours. :)


Wanna know whether you have some kind of problems with yourself? Give it a try, then.




 



Wednesday, May 25, 2011

It's there.

A colleague from other department called..

Him : Hello. May I speak to Tun, please? (seperti biase dengan aku forever poyo nak speaking)
Me : Mmm. I'm sorry. He's having a discussion with En Azhar and a vendor. (buat accent British tergeliat)
Him : Oh okay. Nevermind. I'll call back, okay?
Me : Yahh sure. You can call back later.
Him : Okay thank you. I love you.
Me : Haha. Ya love you too.

Three seconds later.

Me : Hello.
Him : I forgot to tell you something.
Me : What is it?
Him : Love is there.
Me : HAHAHAHAHA... Okay.
Him : And another one.
Me : Yes?
Him : Truth is out there.
Me : Hahahaha. Okay thank you.
Him : Okay.

Sengal punye mamat. Takde keje.






Tuesday, May 24, 2011

Short vacay, super long story.


Ok a long update is coming.

Hari tu cuti Wesak on Tuesday so I decided to take leave on Monday (biase le tu kan) cause suddenly I came up with an idea to go for a short vacation with my friend, Eva. It's been a while since I last went to Singapore. Dulu selalu pergi sebab outstation ke sana.. since then tak pernah pergi dah so I kinda missed to go there again. Lucky enough Eva liked my idea and agreed to accompany me.

Sebenarnya dah plan-plan tu, hampir nak cancel sebab ada masalah accommodation kat Singapore. Biase la kitorang ni kan kalau boleh nak cut cost seboleh yang mungkin. We thought of going backpackers je since we're single tapi yang best semua dah full. (al-kisah planning last minute kan)

Akhirnye we decided to crash at our friend's place. Then a friend in Singapore contacted Eva and he came out with even more brilliant idea. He suggested to stay only two nights in Singapore then go to Tioman for another two nights along with his friends. 

Selalu last minute planning ni lah yang selalu menjadi kan?

So on Friday, aku amik half day leave. Tengahari balik rumah, amik beg, lunch then tidur jap. HAHA. Pastu Abah hantar gi stesyen keretapi. I took ETS train to KL to meet Eva. Kalau boleh aku nak amik shuttle bus terus ke LCCT tapi Eva tak bagi, nak suruh gak dinner kat rumah dia dulu. So aku pun turun lah dekat stesyen ketapi lama KL. Pergh aku tak ingat bila last aku pergi stesyen tu. Definitely when I was a little kid.

ETS


Eva fetched me then we headed to her house. Dekat Maghrib sampai rumah dia. Lepas solat, it was already late but her mom insisted us to take dinner first since our flight was at 10. Sepantas kilat kitorang makan mee kari mak dia then Eva drove us to ERL Putrajaya. Mak and bibik dia ikut sebab pastu mak dia akan drive kereta tu balik rumah.

Unfortunately we missed the train by five seconds or so! Berlari gi beli tiket. Kakak counter lembab nak mampus bagi balance. Kitorang pecut turun tangga.. dah nak sampai tu, train bergerak tinggalkan kitorang. Huwaaa~

We were really stuck, didn't know what to decide. Stood there looking puzzled. We couldn't decide whether to wait for the next train which was another half an hour (we were already late!), take a cab, or drive ourselves to LCCT. Eva called her mother and lucky enough mak dia still ada kat ERL station tu so Eva decided to drive to LCCT.

But we three argued in the car which route to take. Eva berkeras nak ikut Dengkil. I know it's the shortest but no one in the car was sure about the route. Aku serius tak ingat la sebab dah bertahun tak drive ikut Dengkil. Pernah sekali je pun, itu pun sesat barat mase nak balik. HAHA. Both she and her mom were not sure about their own route so I urged them to follow mine. I know it's a bit far compared to Dengkil route but really who dared to take such risk of getting lost when you were late to catch your flight?

At least I'm confident with my route sebab dulu balik Terengganu aku selalu pecut pergi KLIA ikut highway tu. Cyberjaya to KLIA within twenty minutes provided you maintain your speed up to 140km/hr. Nak buat camne kan.. Eva pun jenis speed so dengan ajaibnye, kami sampai awal dari yang dijangkakan. Hahahaha.

So, sampai Singapore dalam kul 11.30 malam. Our friend advised to take cab, takut tak sempat nak kejar last MRT train. Sampai-sampai terus pengsan le kan.

Singapore Zoo





Esoknye lepas breakfast, kitorang ambil MRT gi Ang Mo Kio. Then ambil bus pergi ke Singapore Zoo! Hehehehe. My friend got free passes to go there so rugi lah tak pergi kan, masuk free. Four hours we were there yet we couldn't tour the whole area. Luas sangat, kaki masing-masing dah sakit. Should have worn sneakers I know. Jalan je lah, habiskan satu pusingan.





Tired. We were supposed to head to Sentosa after that tapi aku rasa macam dah malas nak pergi. Haha. So akhirnya pergi window shopping dekat City Hall and Orchard. Sempat lah aku beli Dragon Ball T-shirt and a pair of sandals at Uniqlo! Haha. Mengong. Balik rumah dalam pukul 10 malam kot. Letih woo.. non stop berjalan seharian. I managed to get myself Garret popcorns. Yeay!



Esoknye seawal jam 6.40 pagi kitorang dah ambil train ke Woodlands. Ambil bas ke Larkin, siap kena tinggal bas kat immigration. Sungguh kong ajau. Terpaksa tunggu the next bus. Dah lah kitorang nak kejar ferry kul 11.30. Memang cam cacing kepanasan le kan. Di stesyen bas Larkin, kitorang try cari bas ke Mersing yang paling awal. Masa tu pukul 8.50 pagi. Bas yang ada kul 9.30. In two hours to reach Mersing? That's quite impossible.Cari-cari bas yang pergi Mersing, at last dapat bas ke Kota Bharu, Kelantan pukul 9 pagi. Tapi bus driver tu cakap lalu Mersing.

Sungguh tidak adilnya diorang charge kitorang harga pergi KB! But Eva was really good at bargaining. Entah camne dia boleh dapat a good price so naik lah bas itu. But still risau jugak lah kan. Tapi dalam pada risau tu, aku bantai tidooooooooooooo.. Sungguh lena ye.

Kitorang sampai kul 11.15 pagi kat Mersing. The bus driver just dropped us near a roundabout and we had to walk around 1.5km. Aaaahhh... another hell of walking. Tapi senang berjalan dengan orang laki ni. Boleh tolong angkat beg. Hiahahaha.

So akhirnye kitorang sempat lah beli tiket feri. I was not worried about missing the ferry sebab aku dah baca review about ferry to Tioman ni. They are super late! Yang kawan kitorang ni terbaik gile la kan, SGD dia tak convert lagi. Aku cam nak luku kepala dia lapan belas kali pun ada. He only had a few Ringgits. Bengong tul. Then we had to think on solutions cemane nak cover expenses dia ni since we were going to stay in Salang. ATM kat Tioman tu cuma ada di Tekek. Si Eva pulak entah macamana tak bawak ATM card to cash some money. Money changer nearby pulak tutup sebab Ahad kan. Boleh convert duit dekat ferry ticket counter but the conversion rate was really really bad. Aku nak pergi withdraw my money for him memang tak ler kan.. Tak sanggup aku kelam kabut nak pergi cari ATM mase tu. I was already too tired.

Dekat kul 1pm baru ferry muncul. Pergh panas hati je tunggu. Journey from Mersing to Tioman was about 1.5 hours. So sekali lagi aku bantai tidur ye. :P

Agak-agak nak sampai first jetty kat Tioman, aku pun terjaga. Weheiii... eksaited plis.


Salang Jetty


Our jetty was the last one. Fourth one aku rase. Siap kena transit satu ferry. Jap aku tunjuk peta kat mana kitorang tinggal. (tak pernah kot rajin tahap begini)


So kalau korang tengok, Tekek and Salang agak jauh ye. Kitorang decide nak stay kat Salang because they said Salang has the nicest beach. Tekek tu kira small town dia la.. so facilities banyak kat situ. Kubur pun kat situ jugak. :P

Setelah banyak buat booking resort sana sini, akhirnya diorang ni decide nak stay kat Salang Pusaka because resort ni je yang available di saat-saat akhir dekat Salang. Gwa pun akur je la kan walaupun bagai nak rak deal dengan Tioman Paya resort. Dapat pulak special offer, kaw tim baik punye dengan staf kat situ.

See. Ada hero hindustan angkutkan beg. Bertuah kan saye? :P


After check in around 3pm, kami kelaparan tahap gigilan kuasa kuda. Terus pergi lunch dekat Salang Indah. Dengan bestnya tiba-tiba blackout.Dah la panassss time ni. Hadooo~ Habis lunch dalam pukul 4 petang. Hari tu takde activity apa-apa since we were still waiting for another two friends to come. Diorang gerak lambat, ambil ferry kul 4.30 petang.



So lepas lunch, aku bantai tido lagi. Yezaaa.. HAHAHA. Malam tu baru aku join diorang gi dinner dan budak dua orang tu pun dah sampai. So we decided to have BBQ for dinner. Untuk lima orang, kitorang order vege grill and chicken grill.. Aku dah memang kenyang sebab lunch lambat. Tak habis pun my portion. Vege grill diorang ni order boleh tahan banyak. Total cost adalah RM89.50. (see, I'm quite good at remembering figures. Maybe cause it involves $$$. Haha)

Where we had our BBQ.

Salang Pusaka restaurant.



(eh dah panjang siot entry ni)

Then bebudak ni main truth or dare. Aku cam, damn lemaunye. Yang paling unggul tu, aku pulak yang banyak terkena. Denda dia aku malas nak cerita la kan.. Ada yang suruh kemas meja customers lain la. Ada yang suruh kiss Eva on the mouth la. Ada yang suruh pakai toilet roll kat seluar la. Tapi aku sanggup makan dua bijik potato grill je (ingat ye, gwa kenyang gile dah time ni). Lepas makan, diorang pergi jejalan kat beach. Aku malas nak join sebab diorang ni minum so aku balik ke bilik. (non Muslims ye by the way)

Esok paginya kitorang pergi sea outing to 6 places with a very good deal, RM75 per head. Eva ni memang superb la dalam negotiation. Time tu paling murah pun RM100 seorang, pergi 4 tempat je. Aku taktau la mana dia belajar negotiation skills ni. Tabik spring woh. So first place kitorang pergi adalah.. errr... Tulai Island kot.. Or also known as Coral Island.

Sebelum terjun tu, aku tanya la abang bot tu (umur dia 6 tahun muda daripada aku sebenarnye HAHA), "Bang, berapa dalam ni?"

"Mmm.. lebih kurang 10 meter kot. Takpun lebih."

*gulp*

First place dah kasik terjun tempat dalam. Dalam bot tu, yang betul-betul boleh swim cuma aku dengan Eva je. Bebudak tige ekor ni, lepak dalam bot ada la dalam 15-20 minit. Duk fikir nak terjun ke tak nak. Eva orang first terjun, yang aku baru terkocoh-kocoh nak cabut t-shirt dengan seluar. (saye pakai full swimsuit)

"Terjun le," abang bot tu cakap.

"Nak terjun cemane ni?" aku blank. Duk termenung lagi tengok air.Last aku snorkeling ade la dalam 3-4 tahun sudah kot. Tu pun snorkeling tepi laut je.

"Cuba awak terjun terbalik. Terjun landing kat belakang badan."

"Macam diver tu? Ishh!! Gile taknak le!"

"Ha terjun je la macamana pun," orang tu dah gelak-gelak.

Aku pun terjun lah ala-ala sopan ye. Kaki masuk dulu. Haha. Pastu berlagak taknak pakai fin ni. Rimas. Pastu budak bertiga tu bertekak lagi atas bot. Taknak terjun.

Saye dan Eva pun start le snorkeling. Wah sungguh indahnye. Coral sebesar rumah. Haha.

Then Eva terpakse jerit paksa bebudak tu terjun. "Woii. Jump now!" Aku malas nak amik port kan.. korang jantan kot. Pandai-pandai le kan. Haha. Last-last diorang terjun. Yang sorang ni menggigil satu badan!! Terpaksa la pegang tangan aku. Aku pun "Hey are you ok?" Jadi motivator tak bertauliah. Mata dia dah merah gila. Satu badan gigil.

Yang dia pulak non-stop cakap "I'm sorry. I'm sorry." sebab terpaksa pegang kan. Lepas tu si Eva pergi handle lagi dua orang tu. Then lama-lama diorang okay. Maka aku pun bai bai la kan.. gi snorkel sesorang. Hahaha.

Kitorang spend kat situ dalam 45 minit then pergi ke Pasir Panjang. Sini tempat santai-santai di atas pasir putih dan mandi-manda. Air biru jernih, memang cantik sangat! Tapi aku bersantai kejap je. Tak tahan panas. Then aku lari lepak dalam bot. Siap ada satu kawasan hutan ni terbakar. Apsal entah. Sebab cuaca panas sangat kot. Yang mat saleh-mat saleh ni pergi sibuk snap gambar biawak. Kejadah le.. berlambak kot kat belakang rumah.

Pasir Panjang


Pastu kitorang pergi another destination for snorkeling. "Gi mana, bang?" aku tanya.

"Batu Malang".

"Takde nama elok sikit ke?" aku cakap sesorang. Terus cuak nak terjun ke tak. Kawasan tu memang batu je. Batu yang besar-besar. Tapi tak boleh panjat le sebab cengkerang-cengkerang kasar tu kan.

Sebelum terjun, aku tanya soalan yang sama "Berapa dalam ni?"

"Dalam 15 meter kot.. Lagi dalam dari yang tadi. Air tengah pasang ni. Jangan hanyut ye."

Boleh kan pesan macam tu? Maka kami pun terjun le. Hui mak ai.. dalamnye. Pening seketika. Haha. Then mamat tu cakap "Saye pun rase nak terjun gak."

"Eh jom le!" gwa mengajak la kan. Ahaks. Lepas tu dia bawak kitorang round keliling batu-batu tu. Tapi aku dengan Eva je follow. Bebudak tiga tu give up sebab kitorang laju sangat. Diorang tak leh follow. Padahal yang pakai fin, diorang. Tapi serius letih le. Yang bestnya, bila mamat tu (sorry la lupa dah nama dia) jumpa terumbu yang boleh diusik ke kan, dia dive la usik benda-benda tu. Nanti ada ikan keluar. Nemo pun ada. Tapi tahap kerabunan saye menyebabkan gwa pura-pura excited. Haha.

Lepas tu space between batu-batu ni ada yang sempit. Jadi kena la hati-hati sikit. Takut terkena kaki dan tangan. Tu lah, gedik tak pakai fin. Padan muka letih nak swim kan. Ada dua kali kitorang berhenti berdiri atas coral. Ye sangat lah besar coral-coral tu sampai kan kami boleh berdiri di atasnya.

Lepas habis snorkel kat situ, kami lunch di Tekek. Then we went to Soyak kot. Al-kisah dah terbiasa dengan kawasan dalam, kat sini aku rasa tak sampai pun 5 meter. Mujur lah abang bot tu pujuk aku pakai fin. Kalau takk..zrasss konfem luka kaki gwa kena coral yang tajam nak mampus. Hohoi sumpah seram dol gwa nak swim kat sini. Camni la pemandangan dia.



Soyak Island

Eva snorkeling.


After dah tersepak dua tige kali coral ni, terus aku cakap kat abang bot, "Bang.. Nak naik le sebelum saye terajang semua coral kat sini."

"Akak jangan berdiri.. Baring landai je."

"Taknak la. Dah tu cemane nak naik atas bot kalau kena baringggg je."

Tapi jahat do abang ni taknak hulur tangga kat aku. Pastu bebudak ni bukan semua turun. Yang dua orang tu tak turun pun. They said they had enough snorkeling. Haha. Dah tu pergi campak cebisan-cebisan roti kat aku. Ape lagi ikan beratus ekor serbu. KO GILE?!

"Ayu, Ayu! Look under!"

"No, I don't want. It's scary!" Ikan melompat-lompat keliling aku. Bengong gile bebudak ni.

Then we headed to the last place, Renggis Island. Okay time ni, sekor pun tak berani terjun.

"Bang, ni macam lagi cetek je..." sayup-sayup suara ku kedengaran memecah keheningan petang yang dingin. Semua diam.

"A'a ni lagi cetek. Tak boleh berdiri."

"Ok takpe. Kitorang tengok dari dalam bot je la. Ish ish lawanye ye.."

Mesti mamat tu rase nak sepuk aku dengan goggle kan. Then Eva tanya, "Apsal kawasan ni takde orang pun?"

"Yang lain semua dah balik. Kita ni last sekali sampai."

"Bawak kitorang tempat lain la, takde ke?" Eva suggest.

"So, taknak terjun la ni?" Semua geleng. Dia pun pecut la bot bawak ke Salang. Tapi ada la jarak dalam 50 meter kot dari pantai.

"Okay korang terjun kat sini. Terus swim sampai pantai. Boleh?"

"Hah? Macam jauh je.." aku cakap.

"Boleh punya. Pakai la fin."

"Dalam ke ni?"

"Dalam."

"Okey."

Aku orang first terjun. Sekali lagi bebudak tu dalam dilema nak terjun ke tak. Aku terus swim la. Eva jerit suruh tunggu tapi bebudak tu lembab sangat le. Maka aku swim swim swim macam Dory dalam Finding Nemo..
"Keep swimming.. Keep swimming."


Tiba-tiba air makin cetek kan.. Ye lah tetahu aku dah nak sampai pantai. Aku tengok eh ni dah paras pinggang dah air ni tapi ada coral lagi ni.. Nak bangun berdiri ke terus swim je ni? Gile dilema siot sebab aku takut nak berdiri atas coral2 tu. HAHAHA.

Aku tengok orang-orang sekeliling ada yang berdiri.. Maka dengan cuaknya aku berdiri. Dah la pakai fin kan. Nak balance sikit punye susah. Tiba-tiba fin belah kiri tercabut. Hahah. Mujur le dah cetek kan. Kalau hanyut, tak pasal-pasal gwa kena ganti. Lepas tu aku pun berjalan lah tunggu dekat tempat tuan punye bot. Tiba-tiba si Vikas muncul, "Eh? You didn't jump?" sebab aku tengok tshirt putih dia kering je.

"No, I didn't. Your stuffs are all here."

Dia hulur dua plastik besar. Kitorang berborak la dalam 10-15 minit camtu, baru lah si Eva dan dua lagi hero muncul. Eva mengomel cakap Melayu mengutuk bebudak tu penakut nak mampos. Siap bertekak dalam air. Haha. Seb baik aku tak tunggu.

Then kitorang pun balik lah ke bilik masing-masing dan aku dan Eva mandi sambil bergosip. Uh best.

Malam tu dinner awal sikit, kul 8 kot. Esoknya patut kami balik pukul 3pm. Tapi bebudak tu nak amik ferry kul 10.30. Aku agree sebab aku punya journey paling jauh le. Nak balik Ipoh kan.

Bagi makan tuna sandwich. Sungguh melanggar hukum alam. Haha.

Senja di Salang.


Esoknya lepas breakfast nasi lemak ayam, kami tunggu ferry sampai kul 11.30. Masuk je ferry, hujannnn. Sampai Mersing sejam setengah lepas tu. Kami terus kejar cari bas ke KL. Just nice kitorang dapat bas yang dah nak bergerak. Tak sempat lunch. Dah la lapar gile kan. Seb baik bas berhenti half way, aku pun tapau lah nasi ayam yang berharga RM7.30. Eeee. Mahalnye.

Turun dekat Sungai Besi. Eva's friend fetched us and sent me to KL Sentral. Time ni aku dah sakit kepala tahap cipanzi mengandung kembar lima. Elok pulak dapat ETS train ke Ipoh yang nak bergerak dalam 25 minit lagi. Dalam train, aku tidur jap la. Sampai Ipoh kul 9.35 malam. Mak ai whole day travelling, I was so tired and my whole body was aching in pain sebab lenguh snorkeling bagai nak rak. Terus amik leave esoknya sebab tak mampu nak bangun dah. Haha.

So okay, panjang entry ni. Kalau untuk karangan SPM, konfem terlebih perkataan. Jika anda berjaya baca sehingga ke perenggan ini, terima kasih di atas perjuangan anda.

Anyway, overall I was happy with my vacation eventhough it was really tiring. But I blamed on myself for that cause it's me who is not fit enough. Berat macam seladang.

So next? Ada tiga ajakan untuk bercuti di bulan Jun.

1. Perhentian Island
2. Kota Kinabalu
3. Singapore (USS)

Tapi aku terasa macam tak boleh join semua ni. It's too soon. Kang amik cuti je, pening boss aku nanti. Lagipun I've been to Singapore like eight times and I've been to KK too. Perhentian je belum but aku baru balik bercuti di Tioman. So macam agak letih mendengarnye hahaha.

So maybe a trip on July. Before fasting month. InsyaAllah. Tengok pada rezeki.

Aku teringin nak pergi Korea la. Jom? :P






Friday, May 06, 2011

A journey to complete each other.



Perfect is subjective. Perfect doesn't mean it has everything. Perfect does not necessarily have to be perfect. Perfect may mean it has something that it offers that can eliminate all the imperfections.


- Ayu. (060511-0110)