Wednesday, October 27, 2010

Syarat Taubat.

Rasulullah Saw telah bersabda: “Setiap anak Adam (manusia) mempunyai salah (dosa), dan sebaik-baik orang yang bersalah adalah mereka yang bertaubat.” [HR. at-Tirmidzi dan Ibnu Majah]

Syarat-syarat untuk bertaubat:

1. Ikhlas.

2. Berhenti melakukan maksiat tersebut.

3. Menyesali dosa yang telah dilakukan.

4. Berazam untuk tidak mengulangi lagi.

5. Istighfar. (Mohon ampun kepada Allah)

6. Memenuhi hak bagi orang-orang yang berhak atau mereka melepaskan hak tersebut. Khusus untuk perbuatan dosa sesama manusia, jika berupa hutang yang belum dilunaskan, harus segera dilunaskan. Jika mengambil harta orang, wajib dikembalikan kepadanya. Jika berupa tuduhan atau mengumpat (ghibah), wajib minta maaf atau minta dihalalkan.

7. Taubat dilakukan pada masa diterimanya taubat. Masa diterimanya taubat:
- Sebelum saat sakarotul maut.
- Sebelum Matahari terbit dari barat (tanda hari kiamat).

Sabda Nabi Shallallaahu alaihi wa Sallam :

“Sesungguhnya Allah akan menerima taubat seorang hambaNya selama belum tercabut nyawanya.” (HR. At-Tirmidzi).

Credit  : deholicc, tazkirah.

Monday, October 25, 2010

From here to there.

Gi cilok meme ni kat blog cik Mimi atas cubaan membanyakkan entry untuk bulan ni.

A - AVAILABLE : I'm single. But not available. No further questions.
B - BIRTHDAY : 26th August.
C - CRUSHING ON : Ryan Reynolds!
D - DRINK YOU LAST HAD : Chocolate flavoured milk for breakfast.
F - FAVORITE SONG AT THE MOMENT : Baraka Allahu Lakuma - Maher Zain
G - GREATEST RIVAL : I don't have any.
J - JUGGLE : to complete my Master with piling up workloads.
L - LONGEST CAR RIDE : 12 hours. I felt like almost losing my mind.
M - MILKSHAKE FLAVOR : Choc I guess.
O - ONE WISH : Mati dalam iman.
P - PERSON YOU CALLED LAST : My aunt but she din pick up.
R - REASON TO SMILE : Rezeki yang telah Allah beri.
S - SONG YOU LAST HEARD : Have You Ever Really Loved A Woman? by Bryan Adams.
T - TIME YOU WOKE UP : 6.17 am
U - UNDERWEAR COLOR : Certainly not transparent. Duh.
V - VEGETABLE(S) : Lady fingers, brinjals, tomato.
W - WORST HABIT : Lazy to drink.
X-RAYS YOU'VE HAD MOST RECENTLY : My lungs. Somewhere in July.
Y - YOYOS ARE : outdated.


Your favorite number : I don't have any but if I were to pick it's a combination of 721.
What color do you wear most : Purple.
Least favorite color : Yellow and blue.
What are you listening to : Super Woman by Karyn White.
Are you happy with your life right now : InsyaAllah. I don't have a perfect life but I'm thankful with what I have and what I don't.
What is your favorite class in school : English.
Who are your best friends : A few.
Are you outgoing : I believe yes.
Favorite pair of shoes : Flat shoes I'm wearing right now.
Can you dance : Trust me, I can.
Can you whistle : I can but I hate whistling.
Cross your eyes : Yes definitely.
Do you believe there is life on other planets : Ada.
Do you believe in miracles : Tukar miracles kepada ketentuan Tuhan, boleh? Then it's a yes.
Do you believe in magic : Ermm.. how about Harry Potter? :P
Love at first sight : I don't.
Do you believe in Santa : Not at all.
Do you know how to swim : Yeah.. but only two styles. Breast stroke and free style.
Do you like roller coasters : Oh definitely yes.
Do you think you could handle the stuff they eat on those reality shows : I'm not stupid.
Have you ever been on a plane : Yeah.
Have you ever asked someone out : Ya only with my guy bestfriends.
Have you ever been to the ocean : Yes. I love ocean.
Have you ever painted your nails : I have but rarely. Malas nak bersihkan.


What is the temperature outside : Not so hot. So so.
What radio station do you listen to : Red FM. Good song choices.
What was the last restaurant you ate at : Uh.. tak ingat lah.. Hmmm..
What was the last thing you bought : My breakfast just now. Kuih karipap, pau goreng dan kuih gelang tapi tak habis.
What was the last thing on TV you watched : Buletin Pagi at tv3.


Who was the last person you took a picture of : Myself with no face.
Who was the last person you said I love you to : My colleague.. Hahaha. I was just joking.


Ever really cried your heart out :
Of course.

Ever cried yourself to sleep :
Yup. Biasa lah takde siapa nak pujuk..

Ever cried on your friend's shoulder :
Pernah jugak. The other way around pun pernah.

Ever cried over the opposite sex :

Do you cry when you get an injury :
Seldom but there were a few times I cried when the pain was unbearable.

Do certain songs make you cry :


Are you a happy person :
I think so.. They said I always look happy as if I don't have any problem. Only God knows..


What is your current hair color :
Original colour.


Favorite eye color : Grey boleh? haha.
Short or long hair : Short..
Height : Must be taller than me.


Been to jail : Nope.
Thought about suicide : Tak pernah. Kita ada agama. Berdosa tau! :P
Laughed so hard you cried : Yeah definitely.
Thrown out in a store : Nah tak pernah.
Wanted to be a model : Tak sesuai.
Seen a dead body : Yeah.
Been on drugs : Legal drugs, yes.


Pepsi or Coke : either one doesn't really matter.
McDonald's or Burger King : BK.
Single or Group Dates : Mmm..
Chocolate or Vanilla : Chocolate.
Strawberries or Blueberries : Any.
Meat or Veggies : Meat.
TV or Movie : Movie. I don't watch TV that much.
Guitar or Drums : Used to prefer drums but I think now I prefer guitar.
Adidas or Nike : Nike.
Chinese or Mexican : As for food.. both. :P

Sunday, October 24, 2010

I only have one heart, with many pieces.

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Eeeepp.. bulan ni macam tak banyak update kan?

I'm so sorry.. Bulan ni agak chaos sikit. (macam ada peminat pulak eh.)

I've a long story to share. Baru cerita half way.. Tapi terbantut pulak. Nanti-nanti aku sambung ye. Hehe.

This coming Saturday will be my last class for my second semester. Pejam celik je sebenarnya kan.. Next semester will be my last semester to attend classes then I'll be doing my dissertation for another two semesters. I'm still in dilemma whether to do dissertation or IT project. If I am to choose IT project, I have another two semesters to attend clasess as IT project will take up only one semester. I need to put this into consideration cause I'm living 200km away from UiTM. But my coordinator said, if we have a plan to be a lecturer, we should be doing dissertation. I do have actually but I'm still not sure.

Ow God.. Decision, decision..

Lagi dua minggu Along nak bertunang. Hantaran dah buat 6.. ada lagi 3 tak siap, termasuk sireh junjung dan bekas cincin. Itu kena tunggu sehari sebelum hari pertunangan sebab pakai fresh flowers. I dun have so many experiences decorating hantaran, so mintak tolong encik Google je lah. Haha.

Maher Zain sekarang tengah famous kat Malaysia ni kan? But really lah dia ada aura yang sangat berkesan dalam hati ni. Suara dia.. wajah bersih dia.. Mesej yang dia cuba sampaikan dalam lagu-lagu dia tu... semua memberi kesan.

I thought I was the only one in my family enjoying his songs so much. Rupa-rupanya Abah pun hari-hari kena dengar lagu Maher.

My favourite ones would be Baraka Allahu Lakuma, For The Rest Of My Life and Insha Allah.

Harapnya lebih ramai penyanyi macam Maher ni akan keluar dan beri inspirasi baru dalam cara dakwah sebegini. Video-video dia pun punya mesej yang sangat jelas dan mendalam. Sangat suka tengok.

Maybe I will get his original CD soon.

This afternoon I was carrying my lappy and some stuff in my hands, wanting to bring it downstairs. Masa nak turun tu, tiba-tiba Abah panggil kuat gila "Ayuuu!" because normally when I'm in my room I can't hear people calling up for my name. Kena jerit dari tangga, baru dengar. But then I was already at the door. So bila Abah jerit macam tu, I was so shocked and my notebook dropped hard onto the floor.

Tergamam aku. Tak pernah aku jatuhkan notebook macam tu. It took a while for me to try turning it on.. cuak gila kalau-kalau rosak harddisk ke, motherboard ke apa..

Alhamdulillah tak rosak. In fact, I'm using it now. Tapii... ada crack. :(

Aku memang tak boleh terkejut sangat kalau tengah pegang barang. Kekadang boleh tercampak. Aku ingat lagi masa jawab soalan Add Maths masa SPM dulu. I sat at the front since my name starts with A so I was at the second row. I knew time was running out at that time and I was still doing some final calculation.

And then suddenly the invigilator announced using a microphone, "Masa tinggal 10 minit..."

Aku punya terkejut, terus terpelanting pen aku keluar dari kelas.

Yeahaha. So jangan memain. Hahah. Kisah pen terpelanting ni memang dah biasa jadi sebenarnya. :P

Oh tahun ni ada tarikh special yang disebut-sebut kebanyakan orang, 10.10.10. I did not have any intention to make it special for myself but somehow I did.

I broke my office chair. In front of all colleagues and two visitors from KL.

No details will be provided. Thankyouverymuch.

Oh just for the record, no I didn't fell down. But they really had a good time laughing like mad. Including my boss, yes.

Just as soon as the crack sound filled the air, my staff went "PATAHHHHH!!!"

Sunday, October 17, 2010

You're so sweet you give me cavities.

Kali ni saya nak cerita pasal ibu pulak.

Saya hanya ada seorang ibu kandung. Dan ibu jari.

Saya rasa saya agak manja masa kecik. Lima tahun selepas kelahiran saya, adik saya lahir. Masa tu saya tak boleh berpisah dengan ibu walaupun sehari. Tiba-tiba ibu kena masuk hospital. Tapi saya tak tahu pun itu hospital. Saya tanya ibu, “Ibu, kenapa ibu tinggal sini?”

Saya masih ingat lagi, ibu jawab, “Ibu sakit perut.”

Terus saya senyap. Kecut perut. Kalau sakit perut, kena masuk hospital. Takutnya. Saya balik dari hospital, malam tu saya rindu sangat kat ibu. Tapi mak saudara saya pandai pujuk. Dia masak terung masak kicap. Kecik-kecik saya dah pandai makan terung tau. Then ibu called. Terus saya cakap “Ibu, nanti masak terung masak kicap!”

Ibu terkejut, “Hah? Terung masak kicap??”

Kemudian saya cerita lah Mak Yang masak. Ibu terus ketawa.

Ketika saya sedang sibuk bermain seorang diri, Abah datang dan duduk dekat saya. Ada sekeping kertas dia letak depan saya. Masa tu of course saya buta huruf lagi. Abah cakap, pilih lah satu nama untuk adik. Saya tunjuk satu barisan perkataan, “Ni!”

Abah baca kan. Tapi saya cakap, “Tak sedap.”

Saya tunjuk lagi. “Ni!” Abah baca lagi.

Dan lagi, “Ni!”

Last-last cakap, “Ok. Yang ni.” Tapi masa tu saya main pilih je.

Tiba-tiba satu hari, ibu balik membawa seorang baby. Saya tak rasa dia comel pun masa tu. Oh, kau punya pasal lah ni, ibu sakit perut!

Ibu ada baby baru. Ibu dah tak sayang saya lagi. Sob sob..

Masa saya darjah satu, saya masuk sekolah di tempat ibu mengajar. Satu hari, kami kena ambil satu injection ni. Apa ye? Lupa dah. Rubella ek? Kawan-kawan semua cakap sakit gila. Saya jadi takut sangat. Ada kawan bagitahu cikgu, dia ada klinik sendiri untuk ambil suntikan tu. So, bila cikgu tanya saya, saya cakap saya pun ada klinik sendiri. Tapi cikgu tak sebaya dengan saya, dia lagi tua. Dia senyap je, kemudian dia hilang entah ke mana.

Kawan-kawan semua beratur nak pergi ambil suntikan di blok satu lagi. Saya tak pergi. Saya duduk dalam kelas. Tiba-tiba ibu muncul.

Eh ibu, apa ibu buat kat sini? Pura-pura terkejut.

Then ibu dukung saya. Saya terus panik. Saya tahu ibu nak bawa saya pergi mana. Terus saya menangis sekuat hati. Saya tolak-tolak ibu, mintak dia lepaskan saya.. Saya cakar tengkuk ibu saya. Kasihan ibu. Ibu begitu tega sekali, sikit pun dia tak lepaskan saya sampai lah kami tiba di bilik yang dipenuhi perempuan-perempuan berbaju putih. Secara otomatik, saya senyap. Berhenti menangis. Malu lah. Sebab semua orang tengok saya. Saya pun beratur sekali. Potong queue. Ibu standby je sebelah saya. Takut saya lari.

Saya tengok budak depan saya kena suntik. Tapi kenapa dia tak nangis pun? Diorang cakap sakit gila! Sakit. Gila!

Tiba giliran saya. Nurse tu cakap, “Kenapa nak nangis? Bukannya sakit pun… Ok dah. Sakit tak? Tak sakit kan?”

Hah? Bila masa kena cucuk ni? Bila masa???

Tiba-tiba saya rasa malu yang meluap-luap. Eeee.. sungguh membazir air mata dan tenaga. Habis cair make-up saya! (Konon-konon). Terus saya peluk ibu. Tapi saya terlalu kecil masa tu, tak pandai nak minta maaf. I’m sorry, Ibu..

Sejak itu, saya tak pernah takut akan injection. Nasib baik jugak, sebab ditakdirkan pula saya ni seorang manusia yang selalu terlibat dengan suntikan jarum. Dan tiada masalah untuk menjadi penderma darah sebanyak 7 kali sehinggalah akhirnya mendapat tahu saya tidak dibenarkan lagi menderma.

Masa saya kecik, ibu pernah masak sup perut. Ish teramat lah saya suka sup perut ini sehinggalah lah sekarang. Jadi saya agak hairan bila kawan-kawan ramai yang tak pernah makan atau tak suka sup perut. Lagi satu, ibu suka belikan dadih kalau pergi pasar malam. Saya ini tidak pandai meminta, kalau teringin, saya diam saja. Jadi bila ibu beli, saya lah manusia paling happy masa tu.

Ketika saya berumur tujuh belas tahun, ibu mengandung. Bila Along beritahu berita tu ketika dia menjemput saya pulang dari sekolah, saya rasa nak turunkan cermin kereta sambil menjerit “Saya nak dapat adik!!!” Susah nak gambarkan perasaan saya sampai saya tak boleh nak berhenti senyum. Bila nampak ibu, saya sengih je. Tak boleh stop.

Nak dijadikan cerita, masuk minggu ketiga, ibu keguguran. Aih masa ni saya tersentak.. susah nak terima kenyataan. Ibu tenang je. Ni bukan keguguran dia yang pertama. Ibu masuk hospital. Saya insist nak bermalam di situ. Teman ibu. Saya tak nampak pun kesedihan di wajah ibu. Ibu rileks je. Tapi saya yang sedih terlebih-lebih. Cuba lah nak cover, masa tu saya termenangis tapi saya pura-pura tidur. Ibu panggil dengan suara yang lemah je. Saya susah nak menyahut sebab tengah sebak. Last-last nurse yang tepuk bahu saya. Maka kantoi lah di situ. Saya terus terkam ibu atas katil, sambil menangis. Terkejut ibu. Saya pun tak tahu kenapa saya sedih sangat. Samada saya frust tak dapat adik satu lagi, ataupun sebab saya tak boleh tengok ibu dalam kesakitan.

Ibu ada kelebihan dalam pengacaraan majlis. Tak kira lah kami berpindah ke mana pun, ibu mesti terpilih jadi pengacara majlis yang formal. Tiada seorang pun anak dia yang mewarisi bakat ibu. Haha. Piala-piala di rumah juga majoriti milik ibu. Hampir kesemuanya milik ibu, sebab ibu aktif sukan. Lebih-lebih lagi badminton. Dan sekali lagi, tiada seorang pun anak dia yang mewarisi kelebihan ibu. Hahaha.

I’m lucky to have a sporting mom. You can talk almost anything with her. But sometimes bahaya juga. Sometimes I like to keep things to myself. You know, that thing we call ‘privacy’? Kalau saya senyap je tak cerita apa-apa, ibu mesti datang ke bilik.. baring-baring sebelah saya.. Slow-slow dia tanya.. random things.. pasal kerja.. pasal kawan.. pasal seseorang..

Saya faham ibu ambil berat tentang anak-anak dia. Tapi kadang-kadang mulut saya terkunci. Tak tahu nak cerita apa. I know she always has expectations on me. Ibu mana yang tak mahu tengok anak dia bahagia kan? Tapi belum masa lagi untuk saya bahagia. I haven’t found my happiness yet. Maybe one day. Wallahualam.

I hope I will find that happiness one day so that she can finally be happy for me.

Still looking, Mom. Belum jumpa lagi. Don’t give up on me yet. :)

Saya ada satu virus sejak kecil. Masa saya kecil, sejak kehadiran adik perempuan saya itu, saya suka tanya ibu, "Ibu, Ibu sayang Ayu tak?" I just wanted to make sure she still loved me. Just checking, you know. Kot-kot dia lupa dia ada seorang lagi anak perempuan. Tapi, soalan ini menjadi favourite sehingga lah ke hari ini. :P Tapi, ibu tak pernah fedup nak jawab tau. Saya tahu jawapan dia, saya kan dah 26 tahun. Tapi... saya tetap nak tanya jugak. Just for confirmation, you know. Wekk! Sukati aku lah nak tanye! Ahahaha.

Seperkara lagi, saya masih tidur dengan ibu saya. Bukan lah setiap malam.  Nanti Abah mogok tak nak pergi pasar, susah pulak. But dalam seminggu mesti at least sekali dua. Manja ke? Bagi saya, biasa je. Tapi tak tahu lah kalau orang lain. Saya cuma tak nak menyesal di kemudian hari je. :)

Semalam birthday ibu saya tau. Tapi saya terlupa nak wish dia Subuh tu sebelum saya berangkat ke Shah Alam untuk kelas Master. On the way, Abah ingatkan. So wish through phone call saja. Petang tu Along call, tanya nak beli kek apa. Saya pun tak tahu nak suggest apa. Sampai rumah ketika Maghrib.. Lepas Isya’ baru lah keluarkan kek. Haha.. Lambat betul kami sambut.

Jadi kepada Puan Hanisom Mohamed Ali,

Selamat hari lahir dan semoga dipanjangkan umur, sentiasa di bawah payung lindungan Nya, sentiasa dimurahkan rezeki, dikurniakan kesihatan yang baik serta diperkukuhkan iman dan mendapat keredhaan dari Allah Taala.



Thursday, October 14, 2010

It's not love; It's a strong feeling.

Sorry for the lack of updates!

Ah it's been a chaos at my home. I'll tell that later. But not in this entry I guess.

Anyway my family and I have started doing the hantaran.  So far dah siap 5.. aku pun tak sure ada lagi berapa.. main buat je haha.

Eh agak kontroversi di sini. Hantaran ni bukan untuk saya ye. But for my brother's engagement on 6th November 2010 insyaAllah.

Mohon maaf ye.. hari ni tak berapa ada mood nak cerita panjang.. So here I'd like to share some thoughtful reading for us. Mungkin boleh difikir-fikirkan.. :P


During one of our seminars, a woman asked a common question. She said, "How do I know if I married the right person?" I noticed that there was a large man sitting next to her so I said, "It depends. Is that your husband?" In all seriousness, she answered "How do you know?"

Let me answer this question because the chances are good that it's weighing on your mind.

Here's the answer.
EVERY relationship has a cycle.. In the beginning, you fell in love with your spouse / partner . You anticipated their call, wanted their touch, and liked their idiosyncrasies (unconventional behavior/habit).

Falling in love with your spouse wasn't hard. In fact, it was a completely natural and spontaneous experience.
You didn't have to DO anything. That's why it's called "falling" in love... Because it's happening TO YOU .

People in love sometimes say, "I was swept of my feet." Think about the imagery of that expression. It implies that you were just standing there; doing nothing, and then something came along and happened TO YOU.

Falling in love is easy . It's a passive and spontaneous experience. But after a few years of marriage, the euphoria (excitement) of love fades. It's the natural cycle of EVERY relationship . Slowly but surely, phone calls become a bother (if they come at all), touch is not always welcome (when it happens), and your spouse's idiosyncrasies , instead of being cute, drive you nuts.

The symptoms of this stage vary with every relationship, but if you think about your marriage, you will notice a dramatic difference between the initial stage when you were in love and a much duller or even angry subsequent stage.

At this point, you and/or your spouse might start asking, "Did I marry the right person?"

And as you and your spouse reflect on the euphoria of the love you once had, you may begin to desire that experience with someone else. This is when marriages breakdown . People blame their spouse for their unhappiness and look outside their marriage for fulfillment.

Extramarital fulfillment comes in all shapes and sizes. Infidelity is the most obvious. But sometimes people turn to work, a hobby, a friendship, excessive TV, or abusive substances.

But the answer to this dilemma does NOT lie outside your marriage. It lies within it. I'm not saying that you couldn't fall in love with someone else. You could.

And TEMPORARILY you'd feel better. But you'd be in the same situation a
few years later. Because (listen carefully to this):


SUSTAINING love is not a passive or spontaneous experience. It'll NEVER just happen to you. You can't "find" LASTING love. You have to "make" it day in and day out. That's why we have the expression "the labor of love." Because it takes time, effort, and energy . And most importantly, it takes WISDOM .. You have to know WHAT TO DO to make your marriage work.

Make no mistake about it. Love is NOT a mystery. There are specific things you can do (with or without your spouse) to succeed with your marriage.

Just as there are physical laws of the universe (such as gravity), there are also laws for relationships. Just as the right diet and exercise program makes you physicallystronger, certain habits in your relationship WILL make your marriage stronger. It's a direct cause and effect. If you know and apply the laws, the results are predictable... you can "make"love.

Love in marriage is indeed a "decision"... Not just a feeling.

Remember this always :

"God determines who walks into your life. It is up to you to decide who you let walk away, who you let stay, and who you refuse to let go."