Sunday, December 14, 2008

I eat danger for my breakfast!

Yesterday I went out to watch Bolt. Memang kelakar.. aku asyik gelak je. Lawak Disney lain sket.. so don't expect you'll hear the same jokes like Madagascar.

The only thing that bothered me was Miley Cirus's voice. I loathe her so it got kind of distracting.

And I also bought a new bedsheet. I already chose a green bedsheet and the receipt was already written until when I was lingering around kids bedsheet, suddenly something came into my mind and I asked Sha whether they have Transformers bedsheet. Instead, look at what I had found.. Harry Potter! (I'm a HUGE fan of HP in case you have no idea)

I straight away asked the promoter to cancel my receipt and write a new one for my Harry Potter bedsheet. Hehee. Takde kejer. Terasa macam cari untuk anak ok..

My bed in Cyberjaya.

How was your Raya Haji? Raya aku ok la.. biasa je. Ibu masak Nasi Beriyani. Meratah je kerja aku. Then Mak Long entah apa mimpi, tiba-tiba teringin nak buat lauk pengantin! Sambil tolong dia decorate ayam bulat tu, dia membebel kat dapur rumah aku, "Ayu, kamu makan ni. Biar cepat sikit sampai jodoh!"


"Terima kasih, Mak Long."

Hasil tangan mak long (dan aku sesikit hahah)

Then Pak Ndak ada buat kenduri korban. Ee.. setiap kali pergi rumah dia, mesti terasa semacam. Bukan apa, dulu masa aku kecik, Mak Long duduk depan rumah dia dan setiap kali balik Ipoh, keluarga aku akan stay rumah dia since time tu family aku takde rumah lagi kat Ipoh. Lagipun arwah Opah duduk dengan Mak Long. So, bila pergi rumah Pak Ndak, memori nakal mesti lah timbul balik. Kes jatuh longkang, main mercun tangan melecur, main kejar-kejar, main tulis-tulis surat.. main mak-mak bawah pokok jambu air.. semua kat situ.

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From left: Mak Ngah, Ibu, my sis - Iena, me and Mak Long.

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With my siblings and cousins. Kami sangat rapat.

Dan situ jugak bermula kisah pupply love pertama aku. Mak-mak sedara aku cerita, dulu masa aku kecik, aku gila bayang kat sorang mamat ni. Jenuh aku recall, tapi aku tak boleh ingat langsung. Baru tahun ni aku dapat tahu (setelah hampir dua puluh tahun berlalu), diorang hanya buat-buat cerita je sebab nak kenakan aku! Ya Allah.. punya lah real cerita diorang.. semua sedara-mara aku tahu aku gilakan mamat tu. I was the last person to know it's not true!! Oh. My. God.

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Me and my cousin, Farah.

Next, bulan lepas cousin aku telah selamat mendirikan rumahtangga. Tahniah, Farah. Ni sepupu sebelah ayah aku. Diorang ni berderet tunggu turn nak kenduri kahwin. Baya-baya aku je pulak tu. Apa lagi.. bila pergi kenduri dia hari tu, kena psycho lah. Adoi..

"Bila kami nak merasa nasi minyak anak Pak Long (ayah aku)?" tanya ibu-ibu saudara.

"Takkan takde calon lagi?" tanya Pak Tam.

"Betul tak ada," aku jawab.

"Haa.. kalau Uncle nampak kamu dating kat KL ni, haa siap laa!" warning pulak Uncle aku. Adoi.

Kadang-kadang kesian aku tengok parents aku. Saudara-mara semua suka usik aku depan diorang. Haih..


p/s: Ibu, since you already know my blog, kindly ignore this entry. Cayang ibu. Muaks muaks!

Friday, December 12, 2008

Let this day be the worst day of my life.

No, it was not a good week for me. (refer : my last sentence of my second previous entry)

I took the normal train departs at 6.55am (more or less) everyday so I did not expect anything bad. Everything I planned went well. I was not late. Sempat lah periksa kereta yang ditinggalkan di ERL, lock gear, tarik wiper ape semua.

By 7.10am (more or less), I reached KLIA on time, of course. My flight was at 8am. I always checked in around that time, this is my fifth trip. When I went to the 3rd floor to check in, I found the queue was unbelievably long I didn’t even know where it started and where it ended. After a few minutes trying to solve the human maze, I gave up and just stood in the middle of nowhere (and even some idiots queued up behind me.)

I waited a few seconds.. for a.. miracle. No, for some last minute announcement.

“Attention to flight passengers for MH601 to Singapore, please kindly proceed to counter C14 and C15 for immediate check-in.”


While queuing up, I realized I was not fully recovered from my fever which I was having since Sunday as I started to feel lightheaded. But luckily the queue was not that long.. lebih kurang 20 minit. Then terus pegi Immigration. Pastu masa scan dekat Customs, the guy felt something suspicious with my handbag.

Oh shit. I forgot to remove it. Ok, I always forgot to take it out tapi tak tau kenapa selalu lepas je. Haha.

“Scan lagi sekali ye,” he said.

I just nodded.

After examining it for a while, he asked, “Ada bawak gunting ke?”

I nodded again, “Ada.” and passed him the scissors.

“Ni tak boleh bawak ye?” he said politely and threw it into a translucent box.

I nodded silently for the third time and walked to the Aerotrain. There goes my loyal companion. You know, the scissors I always kept in my handbag just in case I had to stab someone?

I do not like the Aerotrain. It makes me feel sick. Whenever my boarding pass says my gate is C something.. I immediately feel like it has just spoilt my day.

Right after I found my seat, I intended to ask for a cushion and a blanket. But the flight attendant seemed to read my mind. Then I took out my immigration card to fill up and hurm.. I had no pen in my handbag. It was so bizarre. I used to have at least three! Come on! Luckily the guy sitting behind me was friendly enough so without hesitation I asked him for his pen. Twice. Because I forgot to tick my gender. Oh please, don’t tell me you can’t tell if I didn’t tick it.

The journey to Singapore is always too short. I could never take a nap. After passing the immigration (I took the always-unnoticed counter because it’s a little hidden so it had the shortest queue), I went to carousel number 33 to get my luggage.

After 15 minutes waiting, I started to feel uneasy because you don’t have to wait too long for your luggage when you’re in Changi Airport. Tak macam KLIA. Siap boleh pergi berak dan bersiar-siar dulu.

Half an hour passed, I still didn’t see my luggage coming out. But I already lost my count on how many times the same bags had passed in front of my face. A few more people waiting just like me, looking anxious.

We all just stood there, wishing and praying hard, our luggage would come out from that stupid hole. I felt so woozy at that moment, carrying my heavy backpack plus my fever was getting worse. After 45 minutes standing like a big fat lady monument, I gave up and found myself a seat.

Just in about three minutes sitting, someone called us out to queue in Lost and Found office.

I was like, ‘oly shite.

This is another hell of a story. We had to queue up and I was like number seven in the queue but the service was *mind the bad language* freaking fucking damn slow. I had to queue another half an hour when I was feeling like fainting already.

All we had to do was just describe how our luggage looks like, and provide them address so they could deliver the bag to us. There were like four to five available counters. What made them so fucking slow, man? I just don’t get it! Urgh! I was like screaming in my head, “Has anyone of you ever thought that one of your passengers could have been sick and need to stand this long?! Come on! It’s me! Think of me!”

As if they heard me.

By 11.10am only I reached my office. Normally I could reach there before 10am. I usually had a nice talk with the cab driver but that day, I had no mood at all and I could see the cab driver could sense it. Bagus.

I asked him to drop me at my apartment since my office is only a five minutes walking distance. I was feeling dreadful at this time, I couldn’t even count my coins properly so that I could pay the driver at the exact amount.

I think he knew I was in such a bad condition so he said nevermind, just give what I have on my palm.

So yeah, it wasn’t enough but he was very kind. God bless ya.

I went straight to my apartment which is the same as my previous week. And guess what, I went to the wrong level, which was 9th. My room was at 7th floor. The reason I punched no 9 in the lift was because my house at Cyberia apartment is at level 9 so I’m like so used to hitting number 9 (eventhough sometimes I am already at the 9th floor). I only realized I was at the wrong floor after I reached right in front of the door I thought was my apartment.

“Ya Allah…” Itu je lah yang mampu aku ucapkan.

So I headed back to the lift which I felt like hundreds steps away. Waiting for the lift is another painful memory to bear.

Finally after I got into my apartment, I collapsed on the bed (I was still conscious), trying to take deep breaths and motivate myself, “I can do this. I can do this.” Memang buduh sekali.

Then I got up and went straight to the office. The CSC consultant, Jo who sat next to me turned to look at me, I guess she could sense something was not right.

So I just said, “I lost my luggage in the airport.”

The whole cubical was looking at me.

“And I am having a really bad fever right now..” I sighed.

“Why did you even come here? You shouldn’t fly you know.”

“I know. I guess.. I’m just.. too kind?”

“I can see that,” she replied.

Jo urged me to go down to the clinic but I had to tell my UAT Manager first. After I told him and he said, “Please go now”, I went down to see the doctor. Luckily they have a clinic in the building.

The doctor was kind and the assistants were like so delighted to hear I’m from KL. Duh. What? KL people can’t get sick, meh? :P

I don’t know why I was being polite by asking a silly question with a shaky voice, “Can I get an MC for today?” And the doctor was like, “OF COURSE! Why not? I’m giving you two days MC.”

So there you go. I went back to the office at 5th storey to e-mail my team lead and my UAT manager about my medical leave and headed back to my apartment. This time I ensured I hit the right floor.

I took a good longgg rest as my body temperature already reached 39.7 degree Celsius. (Luckily I brought my digital thermometer along.)

Around 2 pm, someone from the airport gave a call saying my luggage will be delivered around 3-4pm. Great, I really need my stuff in it. I need to change my clothes! Before 4, a front desk officer called me, so with a really dizzy head, I managed to go down to the lobby and dragged my luggage.

The next day, I was feeling slightly better. The problem is, when I get rest, I tend to feel sicker. So besides sleeping and just laying down on the sofa watching TV, I wore my sweater and decided to jog around the apartment. I did, just to make myself sweating.

It worked. It was hard but yes, it worked. By late evening, I felt fit enough to go to office on the next day.

In those two suffering days, I only ate two slices of toast with cheese. I completely lost my appetite. Thus on the third day, I lost half of my energy and a couple of kilos. Cool.

On Thursday, Jo decided to bring me to an Indonesian restaurant. Geng dia ni memang suka gila masakan Minang. As for me, I think Minang style and Malay dishes don’t have such a big difference. But I did find the rendang was very delicious. But still a little too spicy for me. Duh.

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Anyway it was when I finally took a heavy meal that week.

I went back to KL on the same day and I did feel a little regret for not having the chance to loiter around Orchard Rd to see the Christmas preparation. (pictures below were taken during my earlier trip)

Anyway, I’ll be flying again to Singapore next week and will be staying there until Christmas!

Ow hell.. shopping time!!!

Oh yes, when I went back to KL, I left my Medical Chit and S$53 receipt behind. Along with a cable for my newly bought rice cooker.


Monday, December 08, 2008

No matter how perfect the day is, it always has to end.

"And so the lion fell in love with the lamb..." he murmured. I looked away, hiding my eyes as I thrilled to the word.
"What a stupid lamb," I sighed.
"What a sick, masochistic lion."

Supermassive Black Hole - Muse

Oh baby dont you know I suffer?
Oh baby can you hear me moan?
You caught me under false pretenses
How long before you let me go?

You set my soul alight
You set my soul alight

(You set my soul alight)
Glaciers melting in the dead of night
And the superstars sucked into the supermassive

(You set my soul alight)
Glaciers melting in the dead of night
And the superstars sucked into the 'supermassive'

I thought I was a fool for no-one
Oh baby I'm a fool for you
You're the queen of the superficial
And how long before you tell the truth

You set my soul alight
You set my soul alight

(You set my soul alight)
Glaciers melting in the dead of night
And the superstars sucked into the supermassive

(You set my soul alight)
Glaciers melting in the dead of night
And the superstars sucked into the 'supermassive'

Supermassive black hole
Supermassive black hole
Supermassive black hole

Glaciers melting in the dead of night
And the superstars sucked into the supermassive

Glaciers melting in the dead of night
And the superstars sucked into the supermassive

(You set my soul alight)
Glaciers melting in the dead of night
And the superstars sucked into the supermassive

(You set my soul alight)
Glaciers melting in the dead of night
And the superstars sucked into the supermassive

Supermassive black hole
Supermassive black hole
Supermassive black hole

Sunday, November 30, 2008

I need everything but you.

Al-kisah hari-hari lalu yang lesu.

Pagi-pagi bangun. Alarm bunyi dua kali. Yang pertama, snooze dulu. Itu wajib. Sebab tu set awal sikit. Ini mindset yang tidak dapat ditukar memikirkan ia tidak mendatangkan mudarat (so far).

Dah siap, turun bawah, pergi parking lot. Belek lampu kereta, teringat hari tu nampak macam dah longgar. Ah kau..time ni la pun. Goyang-goyang dia sikit. Dah macam gigi yang nak tercabut.

Dia punya pasal, pemanduan agak berhati-hati. Terlanggar lubang sikit, “oh shit.”

Adjust-adjust aircond. Apsal tak sejuk ni.. tido lagi ke? “Bangun, bangun.” Sambil jari ketuk-ketuk sikit lubang aircond tu.

Tetahu dah sampai office. Kata tujuh minit perjalanan je. Itu pun ikut jalan jauh. Dah kunci kereta, naik ke office. Kekok sikit dua tiga menjak ni sejak coder-coder dari China dating sini. Aih..

Balik tengahari, bapak panas siot. Setiap kali masuk kereta ketika hari terik, mesti kesukaran untuk bernafas berlaku. Tercungap-cungap cari oksigen. Tingkap dah turun habis dah. Dah lama sikit, baru ok.

Tapi aircond tak sejuk-sejuk. Demmit. Sah rosak. Cooling coil ke ni? Baru refill gas bulan lepas. Memang sah lah rosak ni.

Takde masa nak repair. Isnin dah nak pergi Singapore lagi.

Kereta bagi Ratno pinjam. Terima kasih, Ratno. Hantarkan aku ke ERL. Pukul 6 pagi telefon dia. Takut-takut dia tak bangun lagi. Wah, bukan main segar lagi bunyi suara dia. Alhamdulillah. Lega.

Tetahu dah sampai Changi. Dah 4 kali aku datang sini. Naik jelak siot. Check-in apartment dulu.. tengok jam pukul 10 pagi. Sempat je nak breakfast kat café dia. Hmm..takpelah. Kang nak buang air besar susah pulak, kat office tu tandas takde air ok. Taktau macamana diorang boleh hidup. Ada je orang Islam kerja situ. Seksa ok.

Hari Isnin agak ok. Tiba hari Selasa. Tak menang tangan aku buat kerja. Sana sini orang request. Mana nak fix defects lagi. Mana nak monitor server lagi. User mintak tolong itu ini. Hari Selasa yang tidak selesa. Balik pukul 7.40pm. Tambah-tambah hari awal menstruasi. Balik apartment, terus pergi mandi. Tak duduk rehat dulu. Kalau postpone, alamatnya liat.

Selesai mandi, terus terbaring.

Ya Allah, penatnya hari ni..

Lapar. Tapi nak terus tidur. Perhati jari-jemari. Menggigil. Kalau skip makan je, gigil. Sampai pernah kena sound dengan orang kedai masa beli cincin. Pas bayar, terus halau aku pergi makan. “Dah dah. Jangan pergi tempat lain. Pergi makan dulu!” Boleh pulak camtu. Dua orang pulak tu. Tak saling mengenali pulak tu.

Nak tak nak, pergi ke dapur. Masak nasi, masak lauk. Lauk beli yang dalam tin je. Kari Ayam yang ada muka Chef Wan tu. Sedap jugak. Nak beli kat Singapore tu, tak menepati selera. Mahal pulak tu. Lunch je beli. Dinner masak sendiri.

Officemate yang duduk serumah tegur. “Why you look so tired?”

Aku jawab, “Do I really have to explain?”

Tapi dalam hati je.

Pas makan, try online jap. Ahhh.. apsal tak sampai wireless ni. Dulu sampai je. Demmit.

Badan dah penat. Dapat online jap. Takde mood dah. Masuk tidur.

Tiba-tiba dapat satu mesej dari sahabat yang teramat-amat-amat disayangi dan dirindui. Tiba-tiba berpesan, “Kita boleh sedih, nangis tapi jangan sesekali kita putus asa. Kerana putus asa bukanlah sifar orang mukmin.....”

Tersentak. Lama tak update cerita. Ada apa-apa yang dia tahu? Mana dia tahu?

Sahabat, it means everything to me. Terima kasih sangat.

Hari Rabu best sikit. Kerja tak banyak macam Selasa. Dapat balik awal. Keluar office, balik apartment, angkut laptop, keluar balik.

Officemate tanya, “You’re going out?”





“Don’t know yet.”

See how far I can go, aku cakap dalam hati lagi.

Keluar.. jalan terus pergi McD kat Orchard Point. Adoi..sesak gila. Takde satu meja pun yang kosong. Terus keluar. Sambil jalan, sambil fikir. Kat mana lagi ada McD..

Jalan dan terus jalan.. Yes, dah tau. Laju sikit jalan. Terus masuk Lucky Plaza. Cun lah, ada port baik punya. Tengok set Happy Meal. Eh tak sama dengan Malaysia. Takde Madagascar. Orang Kota Singa tak layan movie ke? Dalam Madagascar ada banyak singa tau.

Dah beli, gi amik sos tomato. Then pergi ke meja kecil yang kosong dan ada privasi. Terus tarik keluar laptop. Check connection. Nice lah. Online. Hantar e-mail jap. Forward msg jap. Chatting banyak. Emo sikit. Ada orang buat aku emo. Aku jejauh ni pun nak kasik aku panas.

Sabar. Terpaksa. Sebab dekat McD.

Lepas online, bungkus laptop. Gi jalan-jalan. Lawanya Christmas decoration. Tepi-tepi jalan penuh lampu dan pokok krismas. Siap pusing-pusing. Entrance shopping complex pun penuh glitter. Lawa. Ambil gambar sikit. Bateri dah nak habis.

Tiba-tiba ada orang tegur. “Hi.” A couple. Chinese kot. Tapi laki tu definitely bukan Singaporean. Perempuan tu tunjuk kamera dia. Nak cakap something tapi aku terus faham. Amboi mentang-mentang aku lone ranger. Tapi takpe. “Do you want me to take pictures for you?” Diorang angguk sungguh-sungguh. “Oh sure, no problem,” aku jawab lagi. Ambil dua snap sebab aku pulak yang tak puas hati.

Dah sudah, masuk Wheelock. My favourite sebab ada kedai buku. Aku kalau masuk kedai buku macam Kinokuniya tu boleh lost in my own world. Rasa bahagia. Taktau kenapa.

Ingat nak beli Harry Potter merchandise. Golden Snitch. Hari tu nak beli, tak beli. Ni datang lagi konon confirm nak beli. Sekali dah habis. Oh tidak. Yang tinggal Sorting Hat je. Tak mau lah.

Balik dengan penuh hampa. Dah jauh aku berjalan. Bahu dah sakit kendong laptop. Lalu Lucky Plaza, terus pergi bus stop depan tu. Nice, ada bas 123. Terus loncat masuk. Ahh.. lega.. takyah jalan jauh nak balik.

Dah swap Ezy Link, loncat keluar bila dah sampai depan John Little. Then masuk Orchard Point lagi. Ada sesuatu yang dicari, yang perlu dibeli. Tak tahu nak namakan apa benda alah tu. Senang cerita, kalau takde, handphone tak boleh charge. Handphone dah nak mati pulak tu.

Dah tau electrical goods kat mana. Terus naik eskalator, pergi tingkat atas sekali, tingkat 4. Mundar mandir cari benda alah tu.

Bingo! Cek price dia, $1.60. Cun. Ambil satu. Eh, plastik sedikit berlubang. Tukar, tukar. Jalan tengok-tengok barang letrik. Diorang cakap sini murah, betul ke? Hurmm.. nak compare, taktau pulak normally harga berapa kat Malaysia. Hahaha. Tiba-tiba jumpa mini rice cooker. Comel. Warna putih-merah jambu. 30 plus. Hmm.. macam murah..

Round-round lagi. Dude, $29.60 je rice cooker ni? Keluar kan handphone. Nasib baik hidup lagi. 29.60 kali 2.4. Lebih kurang RM71. Ok sekarang list out sebab-sebab kenapa kena beli rice cooker.

1. Apartment takde rice cooker.
2. Dapur elektrik menyebabkan sedikit kesukaran untuk menanak nasik.
3. Minggu depan duduk apartment yang sama.
4. Rice cooker di rumah di Cyberia sememangnya dah tak elok.
5. Takde salah pun nak beli, hari-hari kot makan nasik.
6. Mini Rice cooker memang comel.

Angkutlah. Pergi test. Then bayar. Balik apartment, ofismate tanya shopping apa.

“Rice cooker.”


Aku ulang jawapan. Dia ingat aku akan beli kasut, baju, paling tidak pun beg tangan.

Hari Khamis aku tak sarapan. Walaupun sarapan free. Aku dah bosan sarapan ala-ala Inggeris. Scramble egg, toast, half-boiled eggs.. salad. Duh.

Kerja okay lah. Bila banyak kerja, aku jadi penat. Bila tak berapa ada kerja, aku tak suka. Aku rimas bila takde kerja nak buat. Aku akan fikir habis-habisan apa yang aku boleh jadikan sebagai kerja.

Balik awal lagi hari ini. Tapi fikiran malam tu kusut sekusut-kusutnya. Niat ikhlas nak berbaik. Tapi dapat mesej-mesej macam tu buat aku sakit. Berdebar-debar dada ni menahan marah. Tak pernah seumur hidup aku rasa nak campak henfon. Terpaksa istighfar. Fikir banyak kali, belum mampu nak tukar henfon lagi.

Eee.. kalau lah dapat aku campak henfon.. Sekali jadi lah. Akan aku campak sampai berkecai!

Jumaat. Saya suka Jumaat. Hari terakhir bekerja. Pagi bangun awal sebab sakit perut. Tak pergi sarapan, tapi packing baju-baju. Hari ni balik ke tanahair. Adik-adik tersayang janji nak ambil. Terima kasih, kamu-kamu.

Pukul 5, LA Core frontliner sound aku, “Hey, what are you doing? Why are you still here? Go back lah..” Amboih. Lek la. Flight pukul 8pm. “Still early la,” aku jawab sambil tunjuk jam dinding. “Go go.. you can go shopping.” Amboih. Racun nampak. “Shopping in airport? There’s nothing there,” aku rungut. Kul 5.30pm aku cabut.

Masa ni kepala dah pening. Berdenyut-denyut. Masa dalam flight, tak keruan jugak dibuatnya. Macam nak gila pun ada. Sakit gila. Mujur sebelah aku takde orang. Kalau tak, mesti orang kata aku tak betul. Perjalanan hanya 45 minit dah cukup menyeksa aku.

Kapal terbang berhenti je, aku terus bangun. Dah tak boleh nak duduk. Berpinar-pinar. So, bangun. Kasik blood flow ok sikit. Rasa macam sedikit ok. Tapi masih terseksa. Dah jalan tu feeling much better. Naik pulak Aerotrain yang agresif gila tu. Mujur sekejap je. Kalau tak, aku terjun dah.

Keluar gate, cari kelibat adik-adik. Wah sedapnya mereka layan Burger King. Terus ajak balik. Diorang ada kelas silat. Kasik diorang cokelat-cokelat. Kadang-kadang terlebih acting macam kakak sangat. Kadang-kadang macam mak pun ada.

Sampai MMU, ambil kereta dari Ratno. Ratno punya greeting memang welcoming. “Ayu, esok jom kita pergi workshop.” Rupa-rupanya aku punya lampu dah nak tercabut. Oh lampu ini. Dah loose sebelum aku pergi Singapore. Tapi kali ni siap retak. Bape laju ko bawak daa. Aku bawak 120 pun tak retak. Tapi Ratno isi minyak full (sengaja ke tak sengaja? Haha). Terharu aku. Thanks, bro.

Ingat nak lepak kat kelas silat. Tapi pening dah tak tertanggung. Pandangan dah kabur. Panadol dah telan tapi takde kesan. Balik rumah, terus pengsan.

Semoga minggu akan datang akan jadi lebih baik. Amin.

Tuesday, November 25, 2008

where's the rainbow? i need to glide on it.

Dear God,

I am unbelievably tired.

Kindly assist.

Thank you very much.

Yours truly,
Ayu Fieda.

Sunday, November 23, 2008

Where art thou?

Dah lama aku tak jumpe ko..
Since ko dah bertukar status ni.. aku dah tak berani nak contact ko..
Takut-takut mengganggu..
Takut-takut menimbulkan sesuatu yang tak best.
Mana lah tahu kan..

Dah lama aku tak berborak dengan ko..
Since kita dah tak sama wavelength ni.. aku pun ragu-ragu samada ko masih nak dengar aku membebel.
Dulu selalu jugak aku mengadu kat ko..
Sebab ko pendengar yang baik.. ko kawan yang setia..
Senang cerita, ko tak penah nak lukakan hati aku..
Kita close gila.. ko kenal perangai aku.. ko terima je dengan kekurangan aku..
Aku bising ke.. aku gelak kuat ke.. aku mengamok ke.. ko still neutral.
Semua pasal aku, ko ok je.

Sebab tu aku rindu kat ko..
Sebab tu aku sedih gila bila ko nak melangkah lebih jauh..
Sebab aku tak ready lagi nak hilang ko..
Ko try nak convince aku, aku takkan hilang ko..
Ko cakap, apa pun lepas ni, kita still kawan baik.. ko akan sentiasa menyokong aku..

See.. since your special day, kita tak pernah sms dah.. call ape tah lagi.. jumpa jauh sekali.

Macamana aku tak sedih.. macamana aku nak cakap aku happy tengok ko sekarang..
Yes, aku gembira sebab impian ko tercapai.
Yes, aku bersyukur sebab ko memiliki yang terbaik untuk diri ko.
Yes, aku sentiasa doakan hidup ko akan terus jadi lebih baik dan lebih sempurna.

Tapi aku tak boleh deny aku rindu kat ko..
Ko seorang kawan yang baik.. mestilah aku rase rindu bila lama tak contact ko kan.
Aku tunggu jugak ko contact aku.. yelah, bertanya khabar..
Setiap hari aku tunggu..
Tapi tu lah.. aku pun tatau sampai bila aku mampu tunggu.
Bukan aku tak nak contact.. Tapi tak berani.

Dengan ko je yang aku senang untuk dirikan persahabatan yang macam ini.
Takde salah faham.. kita macam adik-beradik.
Sayang umpama kita berdarah sama.
Tak macam kawan lain.. semua nak jadi lain.
Salah faham sikit, simpul lain.
Kenapa orang lain tak boleh jadi macam kita?

Aku sedih bila aku perlukan ko sekarang ni.. ko takde..
Aku sebak bila aku fikir dulu ko selalu contact aku bila aku tengah ada masalah walaupun aku tak cerita apa-apa pun kat ko.. tapi sekarang ko senyap je..

Gila betul.. aku rindu nak mampos dekat ko.

Thursday, November 20, 2008

The face you can trust.

Hari ni bos aku pindah cubical sebab nak bagi coder aku dari China duduk meja dia, so dekat dengan kitorang. Paling dekat dengan aku, sebelah je. Pagi tadi aku sampai sedikit awal berbanding hari-hari lazim, jadi ketika ketibaan aku, hanya bos aku yang dah sampai (dia boleh lah bajet datang awal hari-hari pasal naik bas). Ketika aku on pc, tiba-tiba dia bangun sambil tangannya membawa barang-barangnya dan seraya menuju ke cubical milik Data Conversion.

Aku tengok dia, kemudian tengok meja dia. Tengok dia balik, tengok meja dia.. eh, kosong. Kemudian setelah coder aku sampai, dia duduk di meja bos aku. Yeeehuuu...

Aku terasa di awang-awangan.. kerana impian aku untuk duduk berjauhan dengannya menjadi kenyataan (walaupun hanya sekejap cuma).

Aku agak rapat dengan salah seorang dari coder aku ni thru Instant Messaging (bkn ym, msn dll, ok). Bila aku marahkan orang atau kecik hati dengan sesiapa, aku biasa lepaskan perasaan pada dia. Sebabbbb.. satu, dia tak kenal aku. kitorang tak pernah berjumpa. dua, dia tak kenal orang-orang yang aku cerita. tiga, aku mati-mati fikir there is no way diorang akan datang Malaysia.

So bila tiba-tiba diorang diminta turun ke sini, apa lagi... gonjeng benar ku rasakan tatkala jemari kami bertaut.... (wut the hell!)

Ofis aku dengan hampesnya telah mem-block blog. Dem. Tertekan jiwa aku rasakan. Ni pun aku send entry pakai email. Bosan punya pasal. Nak buat kerja tak boleh sebab server dah fully occupied. Sejak coder-coder aku datang ni, lagi berebut server lah kitorang.

Tapi takpe, selaku pekerja berhemah, aku kasik can dulu.. Tu pun sebab workload aku paling sikit lah. Hehehehe.. Kes unbalanced workload ni terjadi sejak masing-masing di-assign mengikut focus group. Ada focus group yang banyak defects, ada yang tak berapa nak ado. Masa pilih focus group dulu, aku diberitahu focus group aku paling banyak defects. Yo-yo-o je.

Kadang-kadang naluri keibuan aku ni menjadi jugak. Banyak prediction aku buat.. banyak yang jadi betul-betul. Tapi semuanya yang tak elok. Teammate aku yang paling senior cakap, masuk new cycle untuk UAT, defects akan kurang. Aku cakap, I don't think so. PSG855 and PCCOM2 will be big issues. Wait and see. Sekali betul pulak. Ada sedikit menyesal. Lepas tu aku bet, UAT akan ditambah satu lagi cycle (kitorang panggil season.. season 1, season 2.. macam tv series konon). Betul pulookk. Aku ade satu lagi perkiraan, tapi aku taknak cakap. Nanti kalau jadi betul-betul, pengsan.

Sementelah itu ('by the way' in Malay apa?), aku nak mengajak kamu-kamu yang sudah bekerja tetap untuk menderma ke MAKNA (Majlis Kanser Nasional). Layari laman web dan pergi ke pautan 'Direct Debit Donor Programme'. DDDP adalah salah satu langkah untuk mengumpul dana bagi membiayai pembelian satu err... MAKNA trailer yang bernilai jutaan ringgit. Trailer ni digunakan untuk ekspedisi memerangi kanser. So orang ramai boleh pergi buat medical check-up samada kita ni ada kanser ke tak.. rasanya kanser-kanser yang terlibat adalah kanser payudara, tulang, prostat, kulit dan lain-lain. Keputusan boleh diperolehi dalam masa sejam saja, jadi takde lah sesak jiwa sangat menanti keputusan tersebut.

Aku rasa usaha ni sangat murni sebab faktor cuaca, persekitaran, cara hidup dan pemakanan zaman kini banyak menyumbang kepada penyakit kanser. Susah kita nak betul-betul nilai apa sebenarnya penyebab sesuatu kanser itu (kecuali rokok yang boleh mengakibatkan banyak kanser, contoh : paru-paru dan tekak). Kita semua berpotensi untuk mendapat kanser.

Jadi bagi aku, usaha macam ni sangat diperlukan sebab kos perubatan kanser bukan seringgit dua dan kebanyakan pesakit kanser tak mampu nak biayai kos tersebut.

DDDP ni actually auto-debit.. samada dia deduct from our savings account atau credit card account. Kalau pakai savings account, ade charge RM1 bagi setiap deduction (bank charges). Donation ni minimum adalah selama setahun. Selepas itu kita boleh cancel kalau kita rasa dah letih beramal. Opss. Donation ada dua nilai yang boleh dipilih, samada RM38 atau RM58 sebulan (dalam web tak update aku rasa). Jadi kalau berminat, dapatkan no telefon MAKNA di web itu (pautan Contact Us) dan tanyalah lebih lanjut. Atau kalau nak nombor telefon orang yang incharge untuk DDDP ni, boleh request dari aku.

Okay lah. Aku nak balik rumah. Kepala pening akibat sakit gigi nak tumbuh gigi bongsu. Dulu dah keluar, pastu dia macam postponed, keluar ciput je. Ni sungguh-sungguh pulak dia nak keluar. Hampes.

Tuesday, November 11, 2008

It's ok, I already forget you.

Sekarang kat Temasek.

Meeting tergempar yang dijangka mengundang nightmare bagi technical team kami turned out to be okay.. Ok la untuk hari ini..esok dengan lusa taktau lah macamana. Esok ada isu besar dan tadi dapat tahu tak solved lagi. Mujur aku tak handle spec-spec tu. Kalau tak, mula lah aku buat-buat pengsan. Sah-sah takde sapa larat angkat kan. Aku print berpuluh-puluh spec (beratus helai jumlah keseluruhan) just to get prepared kalau-kalau user 'attack'. Tapi tadi tak guna pun. Sorry, trees.

Luckily focus group aku ok.. pergh, cuak gak memula.. but ok la since apa yang diorang tanya bukan pelik-pelik, sepelik requirement diorang yang entah apa-apa. Macam orang pergi KFC nak tapau sate minang.

Kali ini duduk apartment lain lagi.. tiga apartment dah aku rase.. Cairnhill was the best. Dah la macam raja, satu apartment tu aku duduk sorang.. Heavennya bile ada privacy. Sekarang duduk dekat Somerset Orchard ni.. tapi bukan sorang-sorang, but nevermind that. Still ok la pasal duduk separate rooms. It's the nearest apartment to my office compared to the other two, senang aku nak balik lunch dan escape gi solat. Tapi still tak leh beat Cairnhill sebab boleh dengar azan ok. Azan kat Singapore.. huhu. Taktau kenapa aku rasa pelik, nak-nak tengah-tengah Orchard Rd ni. You tell me. :P

One thing aku suka about Singaporeans, they are very friendly. Aku rasa Malaysians pun bukan jenis tegur-tegur strangers macam diorang. Ke, diorang excited nak tegur aku je? Mungkin sebab ada iras-iras Jessica Alba ke.. atau satu dunia dah tahu relationship aku dengan Deco? Oh no~

Hujung bulan ni datang sini balik. Letih laaaa selang seminggu je pergi sini. Haih.. travelling is very tiring. Taktau la kenapa.. naik kapal terbang ke.. naik bas ke.. naik train ke (lagi lah).. mesti aku pancit..

Malam ni kalau aku rajin, aku follow membe pegi Bugis Street, tengok boyfren dia perform. Tapi aku pun tak sure EZlink aku tinggal bape sen. Boleh la aku menghabiskan duit yang dah nak habis ni.

Ok la.. nanti rajin-rajin aku update lagi. Daa.

Friday, November 07, 2008

Daun keladi, terima kasih.

Semalam aku kena saman pasal parking kat tepi jalan kat depan ofis tu. Ni kali ketiga sebenarnya aku kena saman parking. Tapi sebab dulu ayah aku belum bersara, dan ketua polis daerah sepang tu penah jadi timbalan ayah aku, so berjayalah disetelkan saman-saman tersebut.

So, tadi aku pun check la kat Rilek e-Services, nak tengok saman tu masuk rekod ke tak. Lain yang aku cari, lain pulak yang aku jumpa.

Aku ada 4 lagi saman rupanya.

Terima kasih! Memang rilek lah aku masuk website ni.

Wednesday, November 05, 2008


aku : along.. pc ayu rosak ni.. apa nak buat ni?
along : apa lagi.. CL la.
aku : CL???
along : campak lombong.

aku : along, ibu mana?
along : ibu tengah jual burger..
aku : *bengang* ni sejenis lawak tropika ke atau lawak borneo?

along : tau ar. t ibu balik.. ape daa..
(hari esoknya)
along :ape daa...
along : blek t bwk yg len arr...
(hari esoknya lagi)
along : tak tau arr.... t along tnye blek.
(akhirnya..kesabaran ku berakhir.)
aku : along suke taip t
aku : t tu ape
along : nanti = nnt = t...
aku : tak boleh blahhh punye short form!!
along : hehe...

that's a little truth about my brother... *sigh*

Tuesday, November 04, 2008

Scream like it's your first word.

Got tagged by cik Eita.

1. The rules of the game get posted at the beginning
2. Each player answers the questions about themselves
3. At the end of the post the player then tags 5 people and posts their names, then goes to their blogs and leaves a comment, letting them know they got tagged and to ask them to play and read your blog

Starting time : 9.27pm (aku tipu je ni.. taktau bile stat)
Name : ayu
Sisters : One
Brothers : One
Shoe size : 6-7
Height : Alamak..soklan ni tak bes. 154cm.
Where do you live : Right now I live in Cyberjaya.

Have you ever been on a plane : Mm-hmm.
Swam in the ocean : Ou yea.
Fallen asleep at school : Yes and I was shocked by myself cause I’m not that easy to fall asleep.

Broken someone’s heart : Ow. Well.. I believe I have.
Fell off your chair : Uh-huh, a few times. The worst one was during this one farewell dinner for my father held by PDRM since he was transferred to somewhere else. So you could imagine how embarrassed I was when I fell off from my chair at the VIP table. The whole hall was staring at me. God..
Sat by the phone all night waiting for someone to call : Mm..yes, it was excruciatinggg.
Saved e-mails : Yerp.. to certain folders as I need to keep track of some of my emails. For instance, when I need to trace back any of my account registration for some webs. I’ve like tons of accounts. And sometimes I saved all the inspiring and motivational emails. It’s good to read them back once in a while.

What is your room like : My bedroom in Ipoh is errr...if it has six walls, what do we call it? pentagon octagon hexagon shaped. More or less like this :-

Sorry I'm just too lazy to draw the rest of my furnitures. Haha.

What’s right beside you: Nothing.
What is the last thing you ate : Maggie perisa itik!
Ever had...
Chicken pox : Yeah.
Sore throat : Of course.
Stitches : Thank God, no.
Broken nose : Nopee.

Do you...
Believe in love at first sight : Absolutely hundred percent NO.

Who was/were...
The last person you danced with : Errr.. can’t recall.
Last made you smile : Kak Raina.
You last yelled at : A grocery boy. I was so mad since I had to wait for two days for them to deliver my gas tank.

Today did you...
Talk to someone you like : No. I don’t have anyone I like at the moment.
Kissed anyone : No.
Get sick : No
Talk to an ex : No
Miss someone : Someone who I knew during my Alpha year. We lost contact after I moved to Cyberjaya.

Who do you really hate: Nobody particularly.
Do you like your hand-writing : I don't like my handwriting at all.
Are your toe nails painted : No.

Whose bed other than yours would you rather sleep in : Deco’s? Haha. I always like my own bed.
What color shirt are you wearing now : Dark blue.
Are you a friendly person : I guess so. But sometimes I can be very quiet.

Do you have any pets : Nope.
Do you sleep with the TV on: Sometimes. When I was in Singapore recently, I had to sleep with the TV on since I was alone in the apartment.
What are you doing right now : Watching the stupid drama on TV3 while doing this survey.
Can you handle the truth : Yes. It’s always better than lies.

Are you closer to your mother or father : Ibu.

Do you eat healthy : Not at all.
Do you still have pictures of you & your ex : Tettttt~ takde.

If you’re having a bad day, who are you most likely to go to :
Watching movie alone like I did last Saturday. High School Musical 3 is plain stupid. I watched it because I had no choice.
Are you loud or quiet most of the time : Quiet except when I’m with my close friends.

Are you confident : Sometimes.

5 things I was doing 10 years ago:
Adoi susahnye nak recall..
[1] I was Assistant Class Monitor but I fought with the seniors a lot. Until now, I still think they were the most immature creatures in the world.
[2] I cheated in exam by referring to my notes.
[3] I was the best in English subject. Bluergh.. sekolah kampong bole la.
[4] I had pen pals more than 15 people.
[5] I was a hugeeeeeeeee fan of Backstreet Boys (am still their fan).

5 things I would do if I were a billionaire:
[1] Make money work for me instead of I work for the money.
[2] Build my own sports club with badminton court, bowling, dance studio, futsal, swimming pool, tennis court, volleyball etc.
[3] Build my dream house.
[4] Buy an island and make it as the best place for vacation for my family and friends (for free of course).
[5] Help the poor just like the way Oprah Winfrey did.

5 of my bad habits:
[1] Addicted to caffeine.
[2] Inconsistent eating behaviour.
[3] Speeding.
[4] Take late dinners.
[5] Never finished my antibiotics.

5 places I’ve lived/living:
[1] Guar Chempedak, Kedah.
[2] Ampang, Selangor.
[3] Kuala Terengganu, Terengganu.
[4] Kuala Kubu Bharu, Selangor.
[5] Tanjung Malim, Perak.

5 people I tag:
[1] Temi
[2] Chii
[3] Melal
[4] Naema
[5] Che Det nak mampos? Shamam

How do I love thee; Let me count the ways..

[photo removed]

Recently before I went to Singapore, I ordered three self-designed mousepads from my good friend, Bern. It costs me RM22 each as it's imported from oversea. I believe they're from Hong Kong as what appears on the plastic envelope.

I had been dreaming to have my own stuff with my own design so when Bern introduced me such a great offer, I couldn't resist it and ordered 3 units straight away. Haha.. tamak betul.

One is for me (the black one with Deco at the center), the white one is ordered by my sister and the brown one with my family pictures is for my father.

Muchos gracias, Bern!

By the way, congrats to my ex-housemate, Yana for her new born baby boy!! I received a msg from her (but I think her husband sent it) this morning telling their friends she has just delivered her baby. I am so happy for them!! Can't wait to visit them one day.

Friday, October 31, 2008

The indignity behind the pride.

This is not the kind of entry that I wanted to write as soon as I got back from Singapore. This is certainly not the kind of entry that I’m eager to write just to spoil the bright mood of my blog.

It was totally a perfect time for me to fly to Singapore on last Monday. Running away from my problems and hatred, as if I intentionally left it behind when I flew to Changi. People told me, you can never run from your problems. Somehow I felt I did.

I was completely devastated and heart-broken by my friends or people who I thought were my friends. I believed when I gave them the best comfort I could, being there whenever they needed me and cheering them up whenever they ought to enjoy the fun, I could hand over my trust towards them. I thought they would respect my dignity and my feelings.

It broke my heart when I was betrayed by friends that I thought I could trust. I failed to think what was rational and what was not by the minute I realized their promises were broken by themselves.

I’m sorry but I am that kind of person who hold abundant secrets that I keep tight and safely in my heart until at one time, I would not be able to even recall them anymore. Their secrets are safe with me but why couldn’t they do the same for me?

Is it that hard just to shut it up and hold that one tiny bit of trust unharmed?

Or do you own that kind of believe that secrets are meant to be broken?

This is not secrets you’re fooling with, this is our friendship for God’s sake.

I had to pay the price because of the damage that was done by others, by my so-called friends. How much I treasured the friendship is how much the price is.

Even if you’re younger than me, you should have known how to think the right way. Or do you need me to knock some sensibility into your blunt head?

You have caused me so many things and I don’t feel like being his friend anymore. I had endured so much pain and sufferings just to ensure our friendship remains strong but you ruined it by the tip of your darn mouth.

Would you like me to acknowledge you for shattering one of my most valuable things into pieces?

I have nothing to give, nothing to offer anymore. I do not have any solution on how things should be fixed. My brain refused to solve the crisis and my heart was so much into dejection. I do not even have the slighest feeling to mend this wrecked friendship that caused by you.

Forgive me if I’m not able to talk to you, to even look at your face because it is just going to break my heart and spoil our good memories. This is what you have to pay.

Sunday, October 26, 2008

...and so the lion fell in love with the lamb.

There's a theory I've been making. Let's see if you can see what it is.

But first, let me share with you who my celebrity crushes are.

1. Anderson Luis de Souza aka Deco

Born on August 27, 1977 (mine is on Aug 26th!!!!)in São Bernardo do Campo, Brazil, he is my number one favourite football player since 2006 World Cup. I fell in love with the way he played looking so calm during WC06 Best Match between Portugal and Netherlands. Eventhough he earned a red card during the game and the atmosphere was super duper tensed, he still grinned while walking off the pitch. And yes, he is among the best midfielders I have ever known.

2. Brian Littrell

He is also known as B-rok among the Backstreet Boys fans and I have been his loyal fan since 1998. I am still his fan and I am so in love with his golden voice. He was born on February 20, 1975 in Lexington, Kentucky. I like his bright personality and how kind-hearted he really is and it really broke my heart on the day I knew he had a girlfriend named LeighAnne (they are now happily married with two kids). I was like so broken-hearted and it was funny anyway.

3. Steve Carell

I fell in love with this American comedian after watching his last movie, Get Smart. After realizing how hilarious he is, I decided to borrow The Office series from padfoot and I believe I have made the right decision as I'm falling in love with him more than ever. He was born on the same month as mine, August 16, 1962.

4. Mark Ruffalo

Mark Ruffalo is officially my favourite actor after I watched his movie titled 'Just Like Heaven'. At the very first, he reminded me of someone who I used to love but hurm.. I prefer not to think that way anymore, it's just not the right feeling. Ruffalo has the perfect look of my taste on guys and yes, he is not that handsome, I know. The way he talks is what driving me mad. He is now 41 years old, born on November 22, 1967 in Kenosha, Wisconsin.

5. Adrian Pasdar

He is half-American and half-Iranian and he has been well-known by his role in Heroes series as Nathan Petrelli who has the ability to fly. I fell in love with him after watching season 2 and I am still figuring out the reasons. He is married to Natalie Maines of the Dixie Chicks (who I used to loath a few years back) and I really like the way they first met when Natalie became a bridesmaid to her bandmate, Emily and Adrian as a groomsman and how they ended up being a partner as Adrian was late to the wedding reception. He is 43 years old, born on April 30, 1965 in Massachusetts.

6. Ralph Fiennes

He played the role as Voldermort in Harry Potter and when everyone was busy concerntrating on the main roles, I got attracted by his excellent acting as the Dark Lord. At first, I didn't know Voldermort was played by someone who is as famous as him (in case you don't know, he played the main role in Maid in Manhattan beside J.Lo). And I had no idea Voldermort could be that good-looking. He is now 46 years old, born on December 22, 1962 in Suffolk, England. But yeah, he is my favourite because he acts well.

7. Gerard Butler

He's a Spartan. Ok, well that's probably only in the movie, but this Scottish actor can really kill with a single stare. He totally blew me away with his dying words in 300, "My Queen! My wife! My love.." This guy was born on November 13, 1969 in Glasgow, Scotland. I heard he is currently single, but it's like, that tells something...

So can you guess what my theory is?


Any wild guess?

Still no?


I like old men.

*double sigh*

Thursday, October 23, 2008

Weee.. I see stars.

What a busy month.

Not because of work.. but because of open houses! Since Raya, I never had my weekends at home. I already went more than ten houses, and always went back home exhausted.

Tapi best la.. dapat rasa macam-macam menu yang lazat sekali. Hehe.

As everyone aware, Malaysia is currently experiencing the raining season. As I expected, I fell sick. I normally fell sick during this season because I'm an asthmatic. To be frank, I haven't experienced a serious asthma attack for like a year or more, I was utterly believed I was cured.

Somehow I was wrong. I was like fighting it (ignoring it to be precise) for two days, so I just took a couple of doses from my inhaler, and at the same time I had flu, a very bad cough and a fever. But on the third day, I gave up and went to the clinic (dapat MC yeyeh) and after a few head-shaking from the doctor (I'm so used to those lectures and negative gestures by the doctors), I had to use nebulizer and had to come back again that night for the second round. Duh~ Never in my entire life, I had to use it twice. And after my second treatment, the doctor happily said, "Tomorrow you've to come again for another round." I was like, "What?" and she made that you-heard-me face expression while saying, "At least for three days."

I jumped off from the bed and muttered, "Ok. Can I get something for flu?" while making a you're-a-doctor-how-come-you're-not-aware-i'm-having-a-flu face expression.

So now I have a new buddy. It's a purple inhaler (now I have two inhalers). I always frown when I look at my medicines but this little cute purplish thingy somehow made me smiled. It looks cute and I feel happy to use it eventhough I have to take like 8 doses per day for at least two weeks.

And yesterday morning, as I thought I was recovering, my nose and mouth were bleeding for a few minutes. Yuck, yuck, yuck! I did not feel any pain though so I decided not to see the doctor. Yet somehow I was curious, and asked for a few of my friends' opinions and they were like, "Oh my God." And lastly, I asked my mom whether I should see the doctor.

It was totally a bad decision.

She called me right after I sent her the sms and asked me to straightly go to the hospital. Haha. She sounded so worried and her voice become croaky and I was like, "Ow-oh."

Sooo, for the sake of my mother, I went to the clinic and found that it was nothing serious. The doctor advised me to see the speciallist though, but nah, thanks.

Next week I'll be going to Singapore again right after Deepavali. The apartment this time is nearer.. yeay! So I can go back during lunch and take a nap! Haha.

My bestfriend, Faizal aka PGup is tying the knot this Saturday. I'm so happy for him that now he's finally settled down and preparing for a whole new chapter of his life. Yes, I know I told you I am sad that you're getting married. I am indeed.. I can't deny the fact that I'll be losing you. :(

But it's okay, though.. this is life, this is how it's supposed to be. People come and go. I am totally fine with it. My prayer is always with you, Fezal. May you get the best in life.

I'm currently spending my time watching all The Office series (oh please, i know how far I'm left behind), and the boss named Michael Scott is played by one of my favourite actors, Steve Carell. Somehow, Michael reminds me a lot of my own team lead. He's like a clumsy clown.

Just now during LA training, he interrupted LA trainer, Cynthia like, a lot. We felt so distracted by him. And sometimes there were people giggling at the back while watching his stupid clumsy behaviour. He was like so bossy and tried to interrupt Cynthia by adding his own explanation, it was just plain rude. And while he was like jumping and walking in front of the board, he tripped on LCD projector plug and everything shut down. I was like burst into laughter like mad, along with other people (but I can assure you I was the loudest, but hell, I don't care). He should know how stupid he looked like.

Anyway, I've to go back to the meeting room. Lunch time's over. Daa.

Thursday, October 16, 2008

She's mine. Back off.

Selamat Hari Lahir, Ibu!

p/s:a proper update will be done later. i'm out to watch a movie.

Wednesday, October 08, 2008

Reaching out for the rainbow.

When US is busy making their choices for their new President, Malaysians are busy clapping hands, celebrating our PM's decision to finally step down.

The shocking news about Pak Lah stepping down in five months time might be a good news to most Malaysians especially to those who only know to yell and shout as loud as they want as everyone believes he did almost nothing to the country.

Don't get me wrong as I am neither his supporter nor hater. I have only human feelings towards this one guy who deserves our respect, regardless whether you are against him or not, he is still our Prime Minister.

I never felt he did nothing to our beloved country yet I never thought everything he did was right. After all, he is just a human; a grandfather to his grandchildren. He is a man with a good heart.

At times we are being cruel to certain people we hate. It's not wrong to hate someone when you have a reasonable reason but we tend to refuse to think wisely over our decisions. We refused to listen to opinions againsts ours especially when we think we can never be wrong.

But, Pak Lah listens.

This is what you do not have, the ability to listen.

I believe almost everyone is satisfied with his decision to step down sooner than we thought he would (eventhough later than Tun M thinks he should).

I don't really care when he wants to raise the white flag, because I see what is waiting behind this.

The thing is, I have doubts with his replacement, DS Najib. I don't think he would make any major different when he becomes the Prime Minister. But yes, I do hope I am wrong.

My concern is always about my own race.


Because of this fella called 'politics', Malays hate and accuse each other.

Even if PKR or PAS takes over the government, I dare say Malaysia would never be a better country if we, Malays keep behaving so selfishly and being so narrow minded.

As I always said, take the fact and swallow it hard.

Insignificant Random Things Happened Today.

1. CEO of PACS, Mr Phillip Seah which means CEO of our mega project that my company currently doing came to visit our office this morning. He was scheduled to give a short briefing but when everyone was standing in front of him, he advised us to sit down on the carpet as it was not going to be only five minutes. Most of us kindly refused and unfortunately I was wearing 2 inches heels and had to bare the consequences as he was damn right.

2. Another road accident happened at Persiaran Bestari junction near Cyberia and I was driving passby and saw a car hit the signboard (lost count how many times they replaced with a new one). It was a female driver and seemed to be having head and neck injuries (hope she's okay). I think it is about time for the junction to have new friends called 'traffic lights'.

3. Funnily I could reach my favourite radio station, pretty easily from my office desk which previously I never succeeded to get through it. (In case you don't know, I only listen to Mix and Sinar.)

4. There was a light refreshment being served after Mr Seah's briefing. The tuna sandwiches with cheese were amazingly delicious but the fried beehoon was a disaster.

5. Someone who willingly served the drinks to us who are sitting nearby the pantry accidentally spilled the cold drinks onto my colleague's computer desk causing everyone nearby his cubical to jump off from their seats waving up their tissues. What a great team they can make.

6. I received 3 mails today which two of them are Raya cards.

7. My office is full of food because of various visitors including a whole bunch of INTI college students thus I didn't get the chance to eat my own sandwiches and fried spaghetti I cooked last night for today's lunch.

8. All Business Analysts wore red attire today and gone before lunch. Wondered where they went to until my colleague told me they might have Team Building. When I first saw them, I could only relate the red shirts with Chinese New Year and Liverpool. Now you know how far I could go..

9. Someone who I used to have a crush on sent me a message early in the morning but I felt nothing.

10. A long lost friend which I haven't met for fifteen years called me by surprise which I nearly thought it was a prank call like 'Panggilan Hangit'.

11. PM has decided not to defend his Umno president post.

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Something that made me smiled today. Quoted from Che Det's blog.

1. I have a problem. I cannot remember the date I was married. As a result I always get into trouble with my wife.

2. She has a remarkable memory for dates, not just her own or our special dates but she can remember the dates of birth of all her children, the dates of their marriage, the birthdays of all 17 of my grandchildren and even of her sisters and brothers and late parents.

3. So I can rely on her and sign the birthday cards she passed on to me. Unfortunately she cannot remember much of what she read when studying medicine. So I used to coach her. Thus we complement each other.

4. God has endowed Man (and Woman) with the ability to remember. That is the basic difference between us and the animals.

10. So please try to memorise everything you do every day. Don't forget the details. It can be fatal for you.

One question, if men are so good with technical stuff, why are they so clumsy at remembering numbers or dates to be precise?

There's not even one guy in this world that I know of that remembers well on birthdates.

Tuesday, October 07, 2008

Losing sanity

I need...

- A new green-brown bedsheet.
- A cup of hot black coffee.
- A towel to dry off my damp jeans.
- A new pair of jeans.
- To wash my muddy car.
- A new toner.
- A good massage on the shoulders.
- A couple more pillows for my bed.
- A new luggage for my next trip to Singapore.
- One day reserved specially to check all the unread e-mails (private and company).
- More sandals..
- A new scent of shower cream.
- Another brain for multi-tasking.
- To bake something to spoil my mood.
- A warm jacuzzi.
- Someone named Anderson Luis de Souza to comfort me..

The worst way to miss someone is to be sitting right beside them knowing you can't have them...

Monday, October 06, 2008

Raya Entry : Celoteh Raya.

Ahh.. one week full of exhilarating moments and blessings has passed.

Now I'm back at my office, continuing my oh-so-boring life.. Hiyarkh.. busan, busan.

I'm still in the mood of Raya. Yesterday I was still in my hometown and now..

Ok, mari stop mengarut.

My Raya was pretty exciting and... tiring. I didn't go out that much though but everything seemed wonderful. Seronok rasanya dapat jumpa sepupu sepapat yang riuh macam aku.. hehe.. Bergurau senda dengan mak dan bapak sedara yang tak habis-habis menyakat aku dengan alasan aku yang sakat diorang dulu (sabar je la).

Walaupun isu kahwin semakin hangat diungkitkan, tapi aku berjaya menepis dan bertindak seperti hilang punca bagai kapal tanpa layarnya.

Ni Raya kedua aku bagi duit raya but luckily anak buah tak ramai. Hehe..

Aku notice kali ni tak banyak pelita dipasang menjelang malam tujuh likur.. Mulanya wonder jugak kenapa.. but I guess kenaikan harga gasoline yang mendadak menjadi sebab utama. Abang aku dulu beli satu botol gasoline dengan harga RM3, sekarang dah jadi RM7. Terus malas nak pasang banyak-banyak hari.

Sabtu lepas ada majlis Aqiqah untuk anak sepupu aku yang baru dua bulan lahir. Lauk pauk kenduri semua dimasak sendiri.. ada kambing, ayam, sayur, ulam, ikan keli.. bla bla..sedapnye. Kek birthday pun ade.. kek Barbie pulak tu. Tercongok patung Barbie di tengah2 kek harijadi kakak si baby yang baru menyambut hari lahir ke 5.

Tak banyak gambar Raya nak di-share sebab asyik lupa nak amik gambar.. biasa lah kecoh sana sini. Pastu ada pulak gambar yang posing beriya-iya sebelum keluar beraya.. then bila cek balik, bole pulak "No Picture" disebabkan battery low. Tidak kah lebih user-friendly jika di-warning awal-awal mengatakan betri sudah nyawa-nyawa ikan?

My personal thanks to Fezal, Edy and Shidah yang susah-susah datang dari Teluk Intan (jauh tuu) semata-mata nak beraya di rumahku. Plan nak pergi sekali kenduri abang si Faiz.. sampai-sampai rumah dia, tengok lengang je. Ah sudah.. salah tarikh atau salah rumah?

Tiba-tiba terasa kendurinya diadakan di dewan. Bila tepon, betul pulak dugaan membabi-buta ku ini.

Dewan tu di Medan Gopeng.. Kalau ikut style orang muda mudi bawak kereta, boleh sampai dalam dua puluh lima minit. Tapi tempat tu dah on the way jalan balik Teluk Intan. Kenduri pulak sampai pukul 3.30pm je.. maklumlah buat di dewan. Ye tak ye, cancel lah plan makan nasik minyak. Maka makan lah nasik lemak di rumahku.. Ngehehe.

Sebelum diorang datang, berkejar lah jugak aku dari Tanjung Rambutan sebab hari yang sama ada kenduri Aqiqah tu.. Sempat pulak ada orang mintak no phone tu.. hua hua. Then, time diorang nak balik, kena lah tunjuk jalan keluar. Dah sedia maklum, orang luar yang tak biasa dengan Manjoi memang cerah peluang untuk sesat. Lepas dah tunjuk ke jalan yang benar, aku dan sepupu singgah beraya rumah saudara.. maklum lah, dah vogue2 pakai, takkan tak menyimpang ke mana-mana.

Apa yang boleh disimpul-matikan, memang raya ni hanya untuk makan, makan dan makan. Letih sebab banyak makan. Ada sekali masa beraya di Parit, pergi satu rumah sedara, diorang hidang bakso.. wah kat kelantan ke aku ni? Ini lah bestnya kampung.. semua bahan2 sendiri buat.. tak main lah fishball dan meatball kilang ok. Eee.. puas sangat. Bertambah-tambah lah aku makan.. maklum lah bakso is one of my favourites sebab aku suka sup.

Banyak betul aku makan Raya kali ni.. bile dah balik Cyber ni, memang mogok tanak makan.. Kesian perut aku kena dera. Takpe kasik rest.

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Aha begitulah serba sedikit sambutan Raya aku tahun ni... tak dapek la nak cite detail sangat pasalnya nanti berjela takde sapa sudi membacanye kan. Pendek kata, memang penat jugak lah aku beraya menziarahi sanak saudara.. Tengok tu.. sampai tertidur kat umah mak sedara (sementara menunggu makanan siap dihidang), diorang amek gambar pun aku tak prasan..

Saturday, October 04, 2008

Raya Entry : 1 Syawal 1429H

I'm too lazy and too full to write a proper entry. So let the photos tell the story.

Happy interpreting.

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Saturday, September 27, 2008

Raya Entry : Salam lebaran.

InsyaAllah dengan izinNya, lagi tiga hari, 1 Syawal bakal tiba.

Persiapan raya? Hurmm... so far I've only one pair of baju kurung, one pair of new heels and one piece of new tudung.

Tak banyak.

I went shopping several times to find new clothes for Raya but unfortunately I believe I was being too fussy.

Anyway, insyaAllah esok pegi cari lagi.. I'm already at my hometown. Last night my parents picked me up, broke fast at Bangi and went back straight away to Ipoh. I was supposed to join my friends loitering around Jalan TAR that night as I was thinking my father could be tired to drive back to Ipoh and we would stay overnight at our second house in Ampang, yet I was wrong. He was determined to go back on the same night.

So sadly I missed the chance to join them but it's okay.

Here in Ipoh, I get a lot of free time to spend on, so tonight I decided to try on digital scrapping which I planned to give it a try like months ago. I heard it from Temi and found myself getting excited playing with the graphic materials. Maybe you should give it a try. It's much more exciting than brushes.

So anyway, aku nak ucapkan selamat menyambut hari raya yang bakal tiba.. dan semoga raya kali ni memberikan kenangan manis yang tersendiri.. semoga segala yang tidak elok tu tak menimpa kalian. InsyaAllah..

Maaf zahir batin kepada semua.. kalau aku pernah mengguris perasaan sesiapa, mohon ampun sangat-sangat.

Akhir kata, beringat-ingat ketika raya, ok? Yet still, have an exciting Raya!

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Monday, September 22, 2008

Raya Entry : Roll Date Cookies.

I'd like to share with you one of my favourite Raya cookies. I'm not much into dates, so I found these cookies have been a good reason for me to eat them. I had a few experiences making these cookies, but please be reminded I am never good at baking. LOL. Anyway, roll date cookies are easy to make. Trust me. :)

50g cornflour
100g Nestle Corn Flakes, finely ground
200g butter or margarine
100g caster sugar
1 tsp vanilla essence
1 egg
30 seedless dates, cut in halves
1 egg for glazing

1. Sift together plain flour and cornflour. Stir in Nestle Corn Flakes. Mix well and set aside.

2. Cream butter, sugar and vanilla essence until fluffy. Add egg and beat well.

3. Fold in flour mixture and mix well until soft dough forms. Roll dough into one cm thickness and cut into 3cm x 1.5cm rectangles. Place half a date on dough and roll.

4. Place dough on lightly greased baking trays, allow room for spreading and glaze with egg yolk.

5. Bake in preheated oven at 180ºC for 15-20 minutes or until golden brown. Remove from oven and let it stand for 20 minutes.

Credit to NST

Climb up the stairs if you're not willing to stand on the ground.

It's always a wonder when someone you know that well stop talking to you and start acting awkwardly.

Even though you didn’t say to me directly, your mind is readable to me. I know what you’ve been thinking, what you’ve been judging towards my outlandish behaviour.

I know it’s intolerable, impractical and utterly petulant. I know you are aware I’ve been throwing such a cold treatment to you particularly, not to anyone else even though we’ve been friends since the year we were not even eligible to vote yet.

I am not being judgemental but I think you are missing something valuable that I’ve been treasured for long since the day we declared ourselves as friends, the true you.

You know I never like a person who knows-it-all except Hermione Granger. I really appreciate things you are willing to share. I do value every single help you offered to me and I perfectly know that you’ve been meaning to help without foreseeing anything in return.

Yet, I don’t like how things are expressed to our friends. You always left out one simple course of action before you speak out, that is to think wisely. How much you hurt them is how much I feel tortured by just listening to it. The closer a friend is to you, the more things you take for granted.

It’s never wrong to make jokes to cheer people up. But how bad the joke is that matters. You’ve been cracking jokes and denounced other people as if you are the only creature who is utterly perfect.

No, you are not even close to perfection – this is why I am still your friend.

The more things you know, the more flaws you’re building up in you.

Until when you want to rely on me rectifying wrong things that you’ve been doing?

I never cared so much when you said things that I refused to listen because I know you so well and I know why you’ve been saying those things, whether you really meant it or didn’t. I’m prone to hurting by you. I’m prone to your style of talking sweet things that never came out from your heart earnestly. I’m prone to your habit of making me your medium of teasing just to see how far I could take it, whether in the end I would finally give it up and you get the chance to scream, “Yes! I did it!”

Maybe you don’t see what I see. Maybe you never thought how hard it is to just be your damn friend. Maybe you think I appreciate our relationship so much I wouldn’t even dare to think how wonderful it is not to be called your companion anymore.

You are right.

I can never say I want our friendship to end. It would be one of the hardest things to say. What am I without you? Without your laughter and company?

This is the plain reason why I’ve been so mean to you. Ignoring and pretending like I have nothing to say to you as if I don’t realize you are looking at me, waiting for me to share stupid jokes or make fun of myself just like I always did. Instead, I simply walked off without a word.

I know it hurt you, so much it hurt I spoiled your day. But I am not willing to allow this feeling of hatred towards you begins to pile up from day to day especially when we meet.

I don’t have the courage anymore to be telling you what went wrong. I am tired of being so outspoken and harsh to you eventhough you always prefer that way. Thus, I’m leaving this for you to figure out yourself.

Just... stop hurting my friends.

Sunday, September 21, 2008

And the sun shall rise again..

I was busy doing my work in front of my office PC when suddenly my phone vibrated. My fingers froze for a moment and I glanced towards my mobile screen. It was a friend of mine calling.

I quickly picked it up and answered the call. It was an unexpected call from my bestfriend.

After a few 'how are you doing' questions, she suddenly asked me with a serious tone in her voice.

“Are you in love?”

I was choked. “Sorry?”

“No, tell me. Are you in love?”

“No, I guess not,” I answered hesitantly because it was totally out of the blue.

“But your YM status! It brought meaning like you’re in that kind of state, y’know.”

I chuckled. “Don’t get me wrong. My YM status doesn’t always mean something to me personally. It’s really up to the people to judge.”

And, to my astonishment, she burst out. “My God. What happened to you?!!”

I was utterly confused by her reaction. “What? What happened to me?”

I heard a sigh from her. I sensed a feeling of disappointment. I was thinking hard, my eyes went unfocused. What did I do wrong? What’s with the YM status?

“How long d’you want to be like this, Ayu? Till when are you gonna open up your heart and accept someone?”

Duh~ Come on, is this for real? I mean, is it the right time? I mumbled in my heart. I was so not ready for this kind of issue. I did not answer straight away. In fact, I didn’t have any answer. I stared around my workplace, I felt totally lost. I should be doing my work right now, that was the only thing seemed logical to me.

“I don’t know,” I replied weakly.

“Of all the people I know, your heart has the least feelings. Icy cold, you know that? Come on, Ayu. This time for real. How long are you gonna be like this? It’s about time for you to change and get serious.”

I went blank again. I had no guts to reply her words. Finally, I said something. Just because I knew she wanted me to say something.

“I’ll… think about it.”

“For God’s sake, don’t you have someone you like right now?”

This time I was thinking pretty seriously. Maybe there’s someone… maybe I didn’t notice.. Maybe.. Could be..

“Err.. no.”

Not only her, I felt disappointed with myself. I was not lying. Why should I lie?

“I can’t believe this..” she sighed.

“Trust me, I’m not in love with anyone.”

“And that is the problem..”

Why is she worried that much? It’s not like my life is over.. Love is not something you can bump into and say “Hey, want a ride?”

The next day, I had this great activity playing fire crackers with my Silat buddies when she called again. She recently told me that I barely had time spent for her so I decided to miss the fun and spent my time with her via the phone.

She called me usually when she had stories to share. So again, I was not prepared for her lecture on the same issue.

This time I had to shut up and listen. I was glad though, cause I really had nothing to say. But I can’t deny the fact that she made me realized on one thing, I had no life.

I changed or at least my life has changed. It’s true though, I’m working now. Okay eventhough my second job is far much better than the first, but it changed me.

“You’ve no life, you’re not a person who I knew for years anymore. You’re so workaholic.. and and.. Deco-holic..” she tortured me with her words, and she ended up saying the most bitter confession I could ever hear from a bestfriend, “You’re heartless.”

My lips were sealed, my throat went dry. I gulped silently while staring blankly at my friends who were cheerfully playing with the firecrackers. The loud cracks burst up above the dark sky failed to distract my empty feeling even a bit.

“You’re right,” I pled guilty.

She was, because I nearly cancelled my plan to join them playing those firecrackers as I thought I preferred to spend my night alone at home. But someone blurted out, “Come on, Ayu. You’ve no life if you don’t join us.”

And so, I changed my mind and joined them. Who said I have no life? Okay fine, I know who.

During weekdays, I have to make sure I go to bed before 10.30pm. If later than that, I would feel I have wasted my precious time since I’ve to wake up early to go to work. As if, my office is 50 kilometres from my house (it’s actually 5-7 minutes journey). I barely had my dinner as I’m worried if I take dinner, I will have a hard time waking up in the morning when I’m full.

I don’t socialize anymore, I haven’t made new friends for quite a long time already. I rejected a few people who wanted to get to know me just because I feel getting-to-know-each-other session is tiring (I don’t sms a lot and I don’t like receiving unnecessary calls). I still spend my weekends with my friends but old ones. I still go out regularly but never during weekdays. It’s like, hell no.

But I do have my own excuses. I don’t socialize because my weekend activities are always full with my friends. I rejected those guys not because I’m snobbish but because I knew I would upset them when I hardly have time to reply their messages and they couldn’t understand. I go to bed early during weekdays because waking up early in the morning is a real challenge to me.

After my bestfriend ended up her lecture, I made her a promise that I would try to change myself. But still I argued at first by saying “I did try, you know. Ok maybe I didn’t try hard enough. Fine, I didn’t try at all.”

Maybe.. Mayyybe I can try to learn giving some space to myself or to other people..

Perhaps, next year.

Monday, September 15, 2008

Those years we had our chances.


To be frank, I prefer not to recall any of my school memories because I felt I was not being myself, I was influenced and the thing that I regretted the most is I was not able to stand up for myself. I was hard, I was clumsy, I hated school boys, and I had bestfriends who turned out to be successful backstabbers.

But somehow, I insisted a meme from padfoot because I wanted to do something non-work related when I'm tired doing all the works in the office. She promised me one, and there you go, a meme about 'Zaman Sekolah'. Not to blame her though (no worries, padfoot hihi), doing this survey won't do any harm. Besides, I'd love to share my photos during my school years. I'm not sure I still have them in my PC or not but let's worry about that later.

5 tabiat buruk time sekolah:
1- I came late to school almost everyday when I was in form 2-3 eventhough my school is only a walking distance from my home. There was a few times where I purposedly went home for a while (during school session of course), and went back to school as if I did nothing illegal.
2- I skipped assembly whenever I got the chance. Very risky, though but I never got caught.
3- I used to play 'Spirit of the Coin'. Reluctant to tell you this, but it's true. Taubat dah wei.
4- Everyday it's a must to go to the toilet. Tabiat buruk semua budak pompuan!
5- Suka curi tulang time PJK. Berborak jer.. cikgu suka lepas tangan.

Ada satu kisah jahat, tapi ini bukan tabiat. I only did it once. I broke into prefect's room to get back all my illegal stuff when no one was around. With a little help from my bestfriend, though. She was a prefect.

3 favourite subjek anda... kenapa?
1- English. To all the schools I went to, I liked all my English teachers and I used to be their favourite too. :P
2- Muzik. I only had this class when I studied at SRK (1) Kuala Ampang. Bes lah.. enjoy je blaja muzik ni. I learned playing instruments, dancing, and singing.
3- Maths. This was the class that I had the best concerntration on because I knew I would get into trouble if I didn't listen carefully. But I totally hated Add Maths because of the racist teacher.

Can I add one more? Pendidikan Seni! Rileks jer.. main lukis-lukis. I was pretty good at drawing.. I won contests too. But I can assure you, I don't have that talent anymore. Tak ingat bila last melukis.. longggggggggg time ago.

Oouu.. I loved Biology class too.. boleh main benda-benda yang disgusting. Damn right you are, padfoot.. bedah katak! Hehe besss.. dan bedah tikus. I even got addicted with the blood-type test. I tested on myself more than 5 times. And there was one science exhibition, I volunteered to take part in blood-type test, and I tested on God-knows-how-many students.

3 subjek anda tak suka... kenapa?
1- Add Maths. Reason mentioned above. Plus, this was the only subject that made me cried.
2- Geography. Benci subjek ni sebab banyak sangat tempat nak ingat. I didn't mind learning all the stupid polars, but the need of mesmerizing where coffee is most planted, and what are those institutes involved was really getting on my nerves.
3- History. I loved form 4 syllabus, but not form 5. Reading the text book was really tiring!

Anyway, since I'm in the office, photos will be inserted later.

SRK (1) Kuala Ampang (standard 2)

SMK Kuala Kubu Bharu (form 4)

Sunday, September 07, 2008

I say a little prayer for you.

Forgive me if my blog tends to be difficult to view due to all the photos uploaded in my recent entries including this one.

This time I'd like to share what happened during my birthday on last 26th August.

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We are 'geng kotak hijau'! hehehe. One way of releasing stress, karaoke sampai pengsan.

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Thanks to all my friends especially Shidi.. sesusah je kan beli tepung dengan telur tu.. ish.. mati sekor anak ayam kerana ku..

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Then I spent one night for a dinner with my darlings, shinizzle and padfoot at The Coast, Alamanda. Thanks, girls!!

Last but certainly not least,

Thursday, September 04, 2008

Over the bridge.

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Trust me, I've another longgggg entry about my one week in Singapore, but I am pretty sure I won't be able to finish it. So thinking that I would never get the chance to complete it, I decided to share with you my stories through some of the photos I took. I have hundreds but of course it seems impossible to share them all.

So shall we proceed?

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I walked to the office (Starhub Centre at Cuppage Road) every morning eventhough I had other options by taking bus or taxi, but I went home by bus because it's not a wise decision to be walking alone along the road (ya, I went home alone.).

This is where I stayed for the whole week, Somerset Liang Court Apartment. Pretty convenient, though. But I spent time at the apartment only to sleep and have my light dinner.

Why, you wonder I barely spent my time at the apartment? This was what I did everyday after work. Touring all around Orchard Road and window shopping. All alone. I had the worst blisters all over my feet and they hurt like hell when I walked on my bare feet.

Took the MRT with a colleague who was kind enough to get me familiar with the public transportations.

My second day in Singapore. It was a rainy day. We had to take a cab to the office.

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Right: Me at the balcony. Left : Me just went back home from shopping.

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I flew to Singapore, accompanied by a colleague and went back from Changi to KLIA all by myself.

No matter how great other country is, I still love my own.

Sunday, August 31, 2008

A blessing.

Happy birthday, abah!

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Thanks for being such a great father.
May God bless you always.

Kami sayang abah. ^_^


Kepada semua umat Islam,
Selamat menyambut bulan penuh keberkatan, bulan Ramadhan.

Wednesday, August 27, 2008

To where I belong.

I'm back. Back from Singapore. I have stories to tell but I give an update on that later on when I have more time.

The moment I reached KLIA on last Saturday's night, I already had plans waiting for me. My parents, my sis and my cousin fetched me and then we went straight to Ampang. I had the chance to spend my weekend with my family before going back to Cyber. My boss allowed me to take a leave on Monday but I decided not to since I wanted to apply a leave on 2nd Sept.

Anyway yesterday was my 2-'s birthday. I'd like to thank everyone who wished me, verbally or non-verbally, who gave such lovely gifts and even to those who remembered it was my special day yet didn't have the chance to wish me directly.

I had a great time with my juniors (Sahli, Naema and Cma) and my dearie friend, kak Raina on Monday night (as well as last night). We went for karaoke for four hours until 1.50am and I am truly glad to see each and everyone of them enjoyed themselves. We even won RM100 voucher, thanks to Sahli for being such a lucky boy.

I think this week I won't be able to get a good long sleep since I already have plans throughout the week.

Fasting month is coming soon!! I'm going back to my hometown this weekend to celebrate the first day of the holy month as well as my father's birthday which falls on 31st August. Tak, dia tak mengaku dia anak Merdeka. Dia claimed cakap Merdeka yang ikut dia, bukan dia ikut Merdeka sebab dia lahir dulu. OK, I have no judgement on anything. You win, Abah.

Anyway I would love to share with you some silly pics we took last Monday night but I'm currently at my office (oops) so photos will be inserted later when I get home (hopefully).

Last but not least,
Mine was yesterday and today is his. Aren't we so meant to be together?

Below is a meme tagged by padfoot. I did my best to answer some of the questions truthfully. :P

1. Do you want to grow old with someone or be single?
-- Ah..lame question. Haha.

2. What were you doing at 8:00 this morning?
-- Taking shower.

3. What were you doing 30 minutes ago?
-- Doing my work as usual. Fixing stupid defects.

4. What was something that happened to you in 1992?
-- I got my first love letter.

5. If you were stranded on an island with the person you hated and without food what would you do?
-- If I were stranded on an island without food, and with someone I hated who happened to be in the same condition as mine, I don't think I would have time to hate that person anymore.

6. When someone catches your eye, do you try to make eye contact or avoid it?
-- I don't deal with eye-contacts. I usually try to avoid it. I just don't want people to misinterpret me.

7. What color is your hairbrush?
-- It's a brown wooden hairbrush.

8. What was the last thing you bought?
-- Some cream and lotion.

9. How do you know when you're in love?
-- I have no idea. Maybe in four years I might be able to answer that. Only God knows.

10. Have you been to China?
-- Nope, never thought of going there until I met my coders who are from Guangzhou. Maybe one day..

11. Where do you keep your money?
-- Under my armpits... What?

12. Have you traveled outside the country?
-- Yeah. Just went back from Singapore.

13.Do you wish you were back together with any of your exes?
-- Permenantly deleted. There's no way of retrieving back the old trashes.

14. Do you like peanut butter and jelly?
-- Yup.. I love peanut butter!

15. What is your motto in love?
-- Aaa.. nape la ko tag aku meme ni, padfoot? I don't have any motto. Don't be such a love sick fool, be rational instead. Ok, that's one. Pfft~

16. The thing you love about relationships?
-- When we realize we complete each other? Thanks to Wall-E. And The Dark Knight. Ok fine, you too, Jerry Mcguire.

17. The thing you love about being single?
-- Less money flies, less hurt. Enough said.

18. Would you give up a dream for someone you love?
-- If it comes to my parents and family, it might be a yes.

19. Do you want to cut your hair?
-- Just cut it last month, and I'm thinking of cutting it again soon. My hair grow pretty fast.

20. Are you over the age of 25?
-- I can still sleep for one whole year, and by the time I wake up, I can still answer this question as no.

21. Do you talk a lot?
-- I believe, yes.

22. Do you watch The O.C.?
-- I did. For the first season. And then I hvn't got time and missed it. Don't feel like watching it anymore.

23. Does your MSN name have an 'x' in it?
-- No, I don't have any MSN name so I don't have any character in it.

24. Anybody you know with a unique name?
-- How about Siti Mas Indah? Fakhrati? Taksiyah? They are all once-my-friends. How about Zuma? Gwen Stefani's newborn baby. Duh.

25. Favorite ice cream?
-- Aiskrim doposen, perisa asam boi. Slurrp~!

26. Could you date someone who has been only your friend for a long time?
-- Gawwwddd.. thanks again, padfoot. It seems hard. It's not impossible though, but it's a bit awkward for me personally.

27. Are you typically a jealous person?
-- Not really. If I feel jealous, I tend to fight it.

28. Is there such thing as a perfect relationship?
-- I don't believe there is.

29. Name a friend whose name starts with the letter 'I'.
-- Igor Karkaroff.. ok that's Harry Potter's name. Eee.. sape ek. Intan, my cousin.

30. Who's the last person to call you?
-- Sahli, my clown.

31. Last magazine you bought?
-- Football Weekly kot namanye. Lupe dah.

32. Do you chew on your straws?
-- Nope, it's a bad habit.

33. Do you have curly hair?
-- No. But I love to perm my hair.

34. Can you dance like a chicken?
-- Can chicken really dance?

35. Last concert?
-- No idea. I've never been to a concert I think. Except those gigs and battle of the bands. Not into it, though.

36. What is something you say a lot?
-- Shit.

37. Favorite color(s)?
-- Apple green.

38.Believe in karma?
-- Hurmmm.. I have my own way of believing.

39. Do you know what a plectrum is for?
-- I know after I read shinizzle's answer. I don't play guitars.

40. Who was the last person you said I love you to?
-- A friend of mine who wished my birthday.

41. What should you be doing right now?
-- Fixing defects on the programs. Too lazy. No mood to do work cause it's soon going to rain and rain makes me lazy.

42. Do you have a nickname?
-- Besides the ones from my full name, yes. But let me keep it personal. :)

43.Are you a heavy sleeper?
-- I used to be a heavy sleeper. But now, I can't.

44. Do you watch tv?
-- Not really. Except to watch football matches.

45. Is there anyone you like right now?
-- Apart from Deco, no.

46.When was the last time you fell in love?
-- I am not able to answer that.

47.If you were stuck in a situation and could call someone for help,who would it be?
-- Depends, though. Probably my bestfriends.

48. What was your last craving/want?
-- Gulai tempoyak ikan patin. I'm a true Perakian, there you go.