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Hold on.

When you feel like you can’t go on...

I’m sorry that you’re hurting so desperately right now. I know how painful the seconds, and minutes, and days can be, how long the nights are. I understand how very hard hanging on is, and how much courage it takes.

I ask though that you hold onto one day at a time. Just one day, and slowly this despair will pass. The feelings you fear you’re trapped in will serve their purpose, and then fade away. Difficult to imagine isn’t it? Almost impossible to believe when every cell in your body it seems cries out in agony, desperately in need of comfort. When it feels like the only thing in the whole world that can touch your pain and banish it is beyond your grasp. And after all this time, the assurance that you will heal has become an empty, broken promise.

Hold on because it’s worth the terrible waiting. Hold on because you are worthy. Hold on because the wisdom that will follow you out of this darkness will be a tremendous gift. Hold on because you have so much love and joy waiting to be experienced. Hold on because life is precious, even though it can bring terrible losses. Hold on because there is so much that you can’t now imagine waiting ahead on your journey - a destiny that only you can fulfill. Hold on although your exhausted and your grasp is shaky, and you want more than anything to let go sometimes, hold on even though. Please hold on.

And the light, the light at the end of the dark tunnel for so long cannot be seen, although eventually you’ll begin to feel its’ warmth as you move forward. And forward you must move in order to get through the hell of remembering, of despair, of rage, of grief. Keep looking forward please. Rest if you must, doubt your ability to survive the journey if you have to, but never let go of the guide ropes, although when you close your fingers around them, your hands feel empty, they are there. Please trust me, they are there.

When you’re exhausted, when all you have to count on is a weakened, weary faith, hold on. When you think you want to die, hold on until you recognize that it’s not death you seek, but for the pain to go away. Hold on, because this darkness will surely fade away. Hold on. Please hold on. - Tammie Byram Fowles, LISW, Ph.D

Don't give up, just hope.

 

7 in the morning.

It's 7 in the morning
And I can't sleep..
Keep rewinding all the crazy things we did..
Those that put smiles on our faces..
Those that caused the tears leaking from our eyes.

It's 7 in the morning
How long has it been?
How long more you want me to wait?
Above all the things you said and promised..
None of them seems true to me.

It's 7 in the morning
What should I do? What should I think?
This cold morning feels so chilly
I don't want to get up but I can't go back to sleep
And I can't even tell which one is scarier to me
The nightmare or my real life on how it has been.

It's 7 in the morning
Dear God, I have this one thing to ask from You
Please bring me the ending
Whether it's good, or bad
Somehow someday it must come to an end.

Look familiar?

 

Magnetism by Ahmed Mater
“The idea is simple, like its central element, forcefully attractive. Mater gives a twist to a magnet and sets in motion tens of thousands of particles of iron…”