Creeping in the doubt.

I need to breath.

Just give me a moment so that I can breath.

Life has been really depressing lately.

Aku pun tak tahu samada aku masih cukup kuat atau tidak.

Dengan kerja yang makin teruk dan menimbun (since our vendors will end their contract this week)..

Dah kena buat kerja untuk dua team gara-gara tak cukup orang yang ada skill set untuk CT. Bos sampai empat orang kena report. Dua daripadanya memang sampah. Sukati main borrow-borrow aku. Ingat aku pensel?

Nak balik kampung pun tak senang. Ada je orang call pasal kerja. Sampai operator kat Singapore dah lalok termakan ubat gegat agaknya.

"Hello, Ayu."

"Yes..."

I heard someone else's voice in the phone, "Hey, don't call Ayu."

"Err.. I'm not supposed to call you..." he said, I could feel he was blushing as I could hear some other people were laughing in the phone.

"It's ok. No problem," I dropped the call.

Dengan kesihatan yang dah tak menentu.. Mana nak buat blood test.. Mana nak follow up kat spital.. Silap-silap blood test result tak bagus, kena buat biopsy pulak..

Kete pulak dah kemik.. Mamat chilake keluar parking tak tengok belakang, main keluar je. Bodoh. Lelaki sampah. Kalau aku tak pecut, memang terbaik bontot keta dia cium kete aku. Konon men drivers are fucking better than women drivers. Taik! Go fuck yourself.

Ada terfikir cuba nak lari dari masalah. Tapi tak reti. I'm not a quitter. But everyone has its own limit. I don't know.. I've to start seeking opportunities out there. Hoping something good will come.

Please come.