Slot Membebel.

Dah banyak kali aku pesan, jaga-jaga. Akai ada, pakai. Ini semua nak ikut hati. Sikit-sikit, hati. Naluri kunun, berangan je lebih sebenarnya. Mat Jenin tu kalau tengok pun tepok dahi empat puluh empat kali, tak sangka ade orang lagi tengin* dari dia.

Bukan tak boleh berangan, takde sapa larang nak cipta impian. Tapi berpada-pada. Kenapa mesti nak letak perasaan kat depan? Bukan tak boleh fikir habis-habis tapi sebab perasaan punya pasal, nak redah jugak, tak kira. Last-last, sendiri tersungkur, sendiri yang sakit.

Kadang-kadang kita bukan tak boleh dengar nasihat. Kita dengar, kita pun duk cakap, kita memang jenis boleh mendengar. Tapi cakap je.. bila orang bagi nasihat, angguk-angguk. Mata melilau, konon dengar lah ni. Tapi tak lekat pun. Ada sesuatu dalam fikiran dia yang cakap, "Jangan dengar. Orang lain tak faham." Tapi duk angguk lagi ni.. ye lah, tengah mendengar. Dia ingat kita buta?

Yang bos aku ni pun mangkuk jugak sikit-sikit. Aku duk terangkan apa masalah, dia duk ulang soalan lagi. Kalau aku boleh cakap Cina, lama dah. Hokkien, Mandarin, Kanto, semua aku campur. Tapi aku boleh cakap dua bahasa rosak je. Satu Melayu, Satu Bahasa Inggeris, tapi dedua memang rosak. Manada orang Melayu cakap bahasa Melayu dengan betul dah. Kecuali Dato' A. Samad Said. Sungguh ni, bukan aku main taip je nama dia. Bila dia keluar TV, memang aku perati ayat dia satu-satu. Kagum, aku tak mampu cakap Bahasa Melayu dengan betul.

Kat mana tadi? Susah jugak bebel-bebel ni, cepat lari topik. Ok pasal bos. Dia kat Temasek sekarang ni. Nanti Isnin depan aku join dia kat sana. Akhirnya ke Singapura jugak aku. Sorang-sorang. Takpe, aku nak lalui sendiri. Semua orang ade first time. Tak, aku bukan nak cerita pasal ni, aku nak cerita pasal bos. Halaa.. susahnya.

Dia ni kadang-kadang ok, kadang-kadang lemau lah. Kalau ada team meeting (guna conference la pasal dia kat Temasek), kitorang kat sini nak tertidur dengar dia bebel. Kadang-kadang lost gila.. ape term lah mamat ni guna sampai aku rasa bodoh sangat ni. Merepek-repek. Pastu kalau tak lebih sejam, memang bukan dia la tu. Aku siap boleh lukis-lukis kat whiteboard sambil dengar dia bebel. Tu lah, multi-purpose aku ni sebenarnya.

Pastu al-kisah semalam aku jahat sangat aku rasa. Semalam aku merajuk dengan ibu bapa ku. Adalah kisahnya, malas la aku nak cerita pulak kan. Pastu konon-konon tak mau balas SMS, tak mau jawab call lah ni. Pagi-pagi buta dah merajuk ni, tak senonoh betul. Cakap terus terang, aku susah nak merajuk. Letih! Tapi semalam aku nekad nak merajuk. Gila, nak merajuk pun kena nekad betul-betul. Untung lah sapa kahwin dengan aku, tak yah sibuk-sibuk nak pujuk. Kalau aku terasa ke, aku cakap je. Hahaha.

Pastu, aku balas SMS abah ku, then aku off handphone. Tiba-tiba terpikir, eh eh tak pernah off handphone ni. First time ni. Kasik dia rileks sikit. Tarik napas, tarik napas, hembus. Sambil-sambil buat kerja (tak berapa nak fokus sebenarnya, maklum lah tengah merajuk), mata duk tengok jam digital kat PC ni. Ish.. baru tige puloh minit. Lama betul. Seksanya merajuk ni.

Otak duk ligat la fikir, agak-agak abah ada try call ke.. reply sms ke. Sejam berlalu punyalah seksa, akhirnya on handphone. Eceh konon-konon nak cek sms orang lain. Maklum lah tengah sms dengan kekawan. Alasan je tu. Dengan diri sendiri pun nak cover-cover, susah tul jadi manusia.

Sekali sms masuk. Eh eh, lah.. orang lain. Cis cis.. hati yang tengah kecik, makin kecik pulak. Takde missed calls lah. Memang betul lelaki lah ayah aku ni. Off handphone balik. Nekad tunggu sampai nak lunch. Tapi 11.59 dah on handphone. Eh ada sms, ibu.

Dah set dah awal-awal, nak merajuk, so tak boleh lah reply atau kasik respon pape kan? Macam tu ke rules and regulations untuk merajuk? Tapi aku balas. Pendek jer. Tiga ayat, tapi enam patah perkataan je. Kira boleh buat slogan pertandingan kat surat khabar tu. Pastu off balik.

Macam budak-budak ye bila merajuk ni. Baru tau..

Dipendekkan cerita, akhirnya sepanjang hari tu aku off handphone, sekali sekala terpaksa on sebab duk sms orang lain. Biasalah, i'm a busy woman. Bila on je dapat notification dari Maxis, ada missed calls. Banyak jugak. Tega betul lah hati aku semalam.

Mood aku pun tak berapa nak baik. Eee.. seksa merajuk ni. Elok pulak bila aku on handphone je, call ibu masuk. Dua kali. Haishh.. macam tau je kan bila aku on. Tapi masih kekal jahat, aku off. Pastu balik rumah lewat sikit, biasalah bos aku ni kurang memahami hati wanita, kesian bini dia. Sampai rumah, housemate cakap ibu call cari aku. Puh, mujur tak balik lagi. Mujur??

Bila malam, aku dah exhausted dah. Pastu bila pikir takot ibu call lagi, aku cabut wayar tepon rumah tu. Gila, aku tak pernah bertindak sedemikian sebelum ini. Maha kejam dah aku rasa masa tu. Tapi kejap je, pas mandi, basuh baju apa semua, aku pasang balik.

Tak sampai sejam pun, aku tengah layan cerita "Definitely, Maybe" (pergh.. Ryan Reynolds ni bikin hormon gwa gegar lah), housemate aku panggil, "Ayu! Tepon! Mak Ayu kot!"

Aku cabut headphone, terpinga-pinga. Bila masa pulak ada bunyi tepon ni? Tak dengar pun. Aku pun pause cerita tu, bangunlah pergi ke tepon. Bismillahirramanirrahim..

"Hello," tegurku ala-ala sayu. Tak tau la menjadi ke tak nada merajuk aku.

"Helloo~" jawab ibu, dengan nada penuh ceria.

Padan muka aku. Merajuk konon! Ibu rileks, selambak rock je. Aku je macam nak cirit menempuh detik-detik rajukan.

"Kenapa ibu call tak jawab?" ibu tanya ala-ala manja seperti biasa.

"Saje.." balas ku lemah, ingin bertindak sedikit kejam tapi menyesalinya sesaat kemudian.

Tapi lepas dengar suara ibu, aku surrender. Ibu je pandai lembutkan hati aku. Harap-harap dapat suami macam tu. Takyah nak argue-argue, sebut nama aku, terus cair. Ini tak, orang laki kalau nak tegur, main redah je. Nada nak macho aje, ayat nak pedas je. Dia je lah betul, dia eksplen berapi-api, kite pompuan kena telan. Suka tak suka, itu problem kita. Itu yang makin teruk bergaduh tu. Dua-dua nak menang je.

Tak payah macam tu. Tak caya try taktik ni kat pompuan. Bila dia tengah marah-marah, membebel-bebel macam aku buat sekarang ni, seru je nama dia pelan-pelan, dengan penuh tenang. Insyaallah stop la dia tiba-tiba. Paling teruk pun, korang dapat penampar je.

Ok sekian slot membebel aku kali ni. Letih siot. Merajuk dan membebel adalah dua perkara yang menggunakan banyak kalori, itu hasil penemuan aku hari ni. Boleh kurus macam ni.



*Tengin = loghat perak, membawa maksud 'budow'.

A total chaos.

My convo was held last year. I did miss a few things I wished I did because I spent my whole special weekend with my beloved family, so I missed the celebration with all my good friends. I never thought I would have the same opportunities for this year's convocation. Yea, of course things were a little bit different because I was not the one who was being celebrated but I did have a great time spending the precious moments with my buddies.

One of the things that I missed the most is certainly taking those kinds of silly photos. But I'm willing to share only two of them. :P

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Glad I had the chance to do it this year eventho it doesn't mean anything special to me personally.

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Thanks to all my friends especially padfoot and shinizzle for all the priceless moments.

And of course, how would I forget about the incident happened on last Friday evening?

I was working in front of my PC and was busy completing my crucial tasks when suddenly I received a message from shinizzle, "Dude, rumah jiran ko berasap do. Fuck, sekuriti datang." At first I really thought I read it wrongly. I glanced thru it again and that's it, I'm calling Azwa (shinizzle's phone couldn't receive calls and I had no time to type sms).

I was a little panicked because I live in apartment, at level 9 for God's sake. If my neighbour's house got burned down, do you think I would be able to get home and have a good sleep?

Before I put down the phone, Azwa said to me clearly and carefully, "Ayu, yang berasap rumah jiran kau tau, bukan rumah kau."

I know I had the panic attack, but I tried my best to remain calm. I left my pc on, hastily grabbed my handbag from the drawer and said to my officemates, "I have to go home. My neighbour's house could be on fire."

And so, they laughed.

Yes, they did.

"I'm not joking. Do you think I'm-? Can't you see I'm scared right now?"

They giggled. Ok this is what you have to pay when you do stupid jokes all the time.

"I've to go," I finally gave up. No time to make things clear.

"Bye, bye!" they responded cheerfully like they always do when I'm leaving the office.

Crap! By the minute I reached home, I looked up to see if there was any smoke but I saw nothing. Yeah okay, the house is facing the pool, how am I supposed to see? There were two boys at the ground floor in front of the lifts, looking anxiously upstairs, and I stupidly joined them. They exchanged strange looks with me and oh okay, that was stupid.

I hit the lift button and went to level 9. The lift was already crammed with unknown people that came from Lower Ground floor and I hated to hear them talking about something I was afraid of -- the fire.

Level 9 was like somewhere located in the seventh layer of the sky. But still, as the lift reached it, I walked out calmly and saw a few more people were already there. They were securities and staffs. Shinizzle called out my name and I found her, Azwa and padfoot were sitting on the stairs nearby.

The smoke was not there anymore and the kitchen's windows were widely opened. Shinizzle told me she called the firemen and I was like, "You did??" And later, I heard the sirens.

Ok, she did.

Five minutes later, four to five firemen came out from the lift (I don't know why I felt funny to see them coming out from the lift instead of climbing their incredibly long flight of stairs from outside.).

They broke the grill (nobody's home), and went into the kitchen to find that somebody forgot to turn off the stove and the cooking pot had turned all black. Oh well, if nobody noticed, the house would certainly burned down.

Then we went outside to see it for ourselves and I was more stunned by the condition of the house. It was so ridiculously dirty and messy and looked like a total disaster. Just like a place where the kidnappers hide their victims. Eeeuww! I went in for a few seconds and couldn't stand it. My throat was tingling, I felt like throwing up.

Bloody hell, I have no idea how those foreigners could be living in that kind of crappy place! Erghh.. I even feel like vomitting now.

After everything seemed okay, I went back to office and found out the firemen came with two fire engines. Cool, heh?

We spent our night talking about all the funny stuffs happened that day especially the part where shinizzle called the fireman and asked, "Hello, ni bomba ke?"

Finally it's time to celebrate.

To all MMU 2008 graduates,

Happy Graduation Day!!

Can I just come over and lend my shoulder?

Weee.. I'm so happy today cause I just received three books of Twilight series which I ordered last week from E-Bay. Bought it only RM27 each. MPH price is RM35.50 for Book 1, RM39.50 for Book 2 and RM41.90 for Book 3. Would you mind calculating for me how much I saved? RM 35.90. MPH sells the books online and you'll get 20% discount. But I would still save RM12.52. Told you, buying at E-Bay is worth it. (^_^)v

Anyway, I've been tagged by padfoot to do the following meme. So here it goes!

13 random things you love: (in no particular order)
[1] you. wtf. ok hurm.. my pillows... (yea, u're right, i'm currently sleepy)
[2] rain. it makes me feel relieved because it washes away the pollution.
[3] anderson luis de souza. delicious~ finger lickin' guwd? haha. (ya, u're right again. i'm on drugs.)
[4] fireworks. make me feel light-hearted, like y'know, flying into the blue sky~ (damn right. i hit my head on the wall)
[5] my mom. i love ibu.. muah muah muah muah muahhh~
[6] nescafe. uuhh la la la~
[7] english novels. i love reading and writing.
[8] kinokuniya. i miss that place so much.. i can spend hoursss in there.
[9] my car. eventho i wished really bad it's an autobot, waiting to emerge and say, "hi, i'm technically a car but i'm actually a robot. tadaa~"
[10] mom's cooking. yummy.
[11] mails! i love receiving mails.
[12] theme parks. i love rollercoasters.
[13] guys with a good sense of humour.

12 movies you like: (in no particular order)
[1] Just Like Heaven. -- sometimes you have no idea that you are in love..
[2] A.I. -- the only science fiction movie that made me cry.
[3] Step Up 2.
[4] Bring It On 3 (All Or Nothing)
[5] Transformers!! Best movie ever.
[6] Ironman.
[7] Tentang Bulan. Suka budak-budak dalam citer ni.
[8] Monsters Inc.
[9] Finding Nemo. Paling suka part Dory cakap bahse dolphin!
[10] Deco. Eh.. ok, it's not a movie. Erm.. White Chick is cool too.
[11] Get Smart. Nice one. I didn't expect it's a comedy movie. I watched it alone and laughed the loudest.
[12] The Dark Knight. Good one, definitely.

11 Band/Artists: (in no particular order)
[1] I am still a fan of Backstreet Boys.
[2] Christina Aguilera. She may look 'dirrty-er' than Britney, but she has a better family than her now. She ain't faking it.
[3] Natasha Bedingfield. I love her husky voice and her songs have beautiful lyrics.
[4] Cranberries. I was their big fan when I was in secondary school. Animal Instinct is still one of my favourite songs.
[5] Leona Lewis. I'm not really her fan but I love her songs.
[6] Same thing goes to Jordin Sparks.
[7] David Archuleta. He's adorable and innocent. :)
[8] Carrie Underwood. Maybe you're not aware, but I'm into country music.
[9] Celine Dion. I truly admire her powerful voice.
[10] Brian Littrell. Ok he's a Backtreet Boy, he has a solo album and that tells differently.
[11] Ahh.. who to put in.. no idea. Ok, I always like Amy Mastura. ^_^

I don't really favor bands. So that's why you find most of my faves are solo artists.

10 things about you physically and personality wise:
[1] I voice out when I believe I'm at the right side.
[2] I love my friends so much, I tend to forgive and forget when they do mistakes eventhough it hurts me like hell.
[3] When people complain, I don't listen to their sides only.
[4] Compared to other girls, I think I'm always braver.
[5] I can cook but not that great, but still, acceptable. :P
[6] I'm a fast learner.
[7] I choose things to buy based on my interest, not others.
[8] My nails are always short.
[9] I just cut my hair and within two weeks, I can already tie it up. Magic, huh?
[10] I believe I am a very open-minded person. I can talk about almost everything.

9 songs for your wedding: (in no particular order)
[1] My Valentine - Martina McBride.
[2] Destiny - Misha Omar.
[3] I'll Be There - Mariah Carey and Trey Lorenz.
[4] I Finally Found Someone - Barbra Streisand and Bryan Adams.
[5] Save Me From Myself - Christina Aguilera.
[6] Your Faith In Me - Jessica Simpson.
[7] I'll Still Be Me - Martina McBride.
[8] Could I Have This Kiss Forever - Whitney Houston and Enrique Iglesias.
[9] Stupid Cupid - Mandy Moore.

8 fav drinks/food: (in no particular order)
[1] Iced Milo.
[2] Fruit juices.
[3] Bubur Lambuk.
[4] Mom's cooking.
[5] Mashed potato.
[6] Banana split.
[7] Nescafe and coffee.
[8] McD's fried chicken (original).

7 things you always wear:
[1] Lenses.
[2] Wrist watch.
[3] Moisturizer.
[4] Deodorant.
[5] Blusher.
[6] Lip gloss.
[7] Foundation.

6 pet peeves : (in no particular order)
[1] Hypocrites! One minute they say things like this, and when they meet other people, they claim they said differently. Fuckers.
[2] Snobbish people. When they think they deserve only the best in the world, and that they can be picky even in choosing who can be their friends.
[3] Selfish drivers. Erghh.. I hate it when I meet this type of drivers, who don't use their signals, who can't decide which lane to use and end up using both at the same time and who don't tolerate at all to other drivers.
[4] Late people that show up without looking guilty and pretending like they do nothing wrong.
[5] people who sneer a lot.
[6] close-minded people. these people can never change! fucking losers.

5 things you touch everyday: (in no particular order)
[1] my personal computer.
[2] my handphone.
[3] my pillows.
[4] my car.
[5] my personal stuffs.

4 shows you watch: (in no particular order)
[1] Grey's Anatomy (all seasons).
[2] American Idol (season 7).
[3] Ellen Degeneres Show.
[4] Heroes (both seasons).

3 celebrities:
[1] William Moseley.
[2] Sandra Bullock.
[3] Rupert Grint.

2 current wishes:
[1] I wanna go home..
[2] Full-recovery from all the sickness I'm currently having.

1 person you could spend the rest of your life with:
[1] He who must not be named. HAHAHAA..