I'm not like a car that you can fix up.

So, I've watched New Moon.

I know it's been frustrating to many viewers so I'm not here to judge anything bad on the film.

Just like Harry Potter movies, New Moon fails to attract viewers who don't read the book, they claimed it was dull and lame and boring. And it fails to entertain all the Twilight Saga readers.

But I think it's normal. One can never satisfy everything.

I noticed that all of my friends who complained on the movie are guys. I'm not judging on anyone or anything but it's not a surprise to me when they are complaining. Yet, I feel a little upset cause they cannot accept the fact that it's not really their kind of movies yet they're blaming the movie for not meeting up to their expectation.

Again, just like Harry Potter.

Lie to me not, but really how many of the guys really read this type of romance + fantasy fiction stories?

Frankly speaking, New Moon movie satisfies me. I read the book, I accept the flaws and some points they missed out but hey, I'm fine with it. I don't criticize because I think they didn't miss most of the important plots.

Before you go out to watch the movie, you must first put aside all your expectations on the movie for it to serve you with brilliant heart-pounding scenes or ear-splitting sound effects because they don't have one.

This is not an action movie, you guys. This is not 2012. What do you expect to be frank (with the fact that you don't read the book)?

And when girls say they like the movie, do you know what my guy friends would say?

Ah.. no matter how bad the movie is, as long as there's Robert Pattinson in, the movie is always a blast.

That's just SO wrong.

Robert never turns me on.

Or perhaps the real excuse for New Moon haters is because there's no hot chick for them to drool on?

Pathetic.

The dance.

Work has been really depressing lately and fun at the same time.

Despite of having to deal with some silly retarded pathetic douchebags, every working day is fun for me and my other ten colleagues as we are having dance practice every lunch hour and after working hours. Our annual dinner and dance is coming soon so we are to perform a dance performance called the Dance Revolution. Basically we make a medley out from six songs.. starting from the 50s till the new era. The songs consists of a twist song (Let's Twist Again by Chubby Checker), a rock n roll song (Great Balls of Fire by Jerry Lewis), a disco song (Saturday Night Fever by the Bee Gees), YMCA by Village People (it's a gay song, I know.. lol), an MJ's song (Thriller!! Definitely my favourite.) and the closing song is Single Ladies by Beyonce. Yea, it sounds pretty jaw-dropping. Never in my life I thought I would be dancing Single Ladies, not even a step.

Agak gila lah sebenarnya. The idea started with Poco-poco je actually.. sebab patutnya sebagai last performance time dinner nanti, nak suruh la audience menari sekali. Turned out the committee re-arranged the tentative and our dance will be the first performance. So Poco-poco would be totally boring and dull. One of us showed a clip titled Revolution of Dance and found that everyone seemed to be interested with the idea and decided to try.

Luckily our head of Infrastructure Dept is a professional dancer (he won MJ Malaysia's title when he was just 18 and he used to dance for Datin Seri Tiara Jacquelina) so we asked for his favor to train us and everything became so exciting!

So hmm.. it's pretty crazy for us. Tengok lah nanti macamana. Muehehehe.

The theme for the dinner is Blast From The Past which means we have to dress like the old days and each department will dress according to the draw which the area leaders have picked up. I am the area leader for my department and my team will be dressing up as the 40s!!

Gilee.. Until now I cannot decide what to wear!! Susah laa..

I wish I could just wear a normal dress and ignore the theme but what would my team say?

Hmm.. we'll see. Memang buntu dah ni. My mom suggested a kebaya pendek and batik but how the hell am I supposed to dance Thriller and Single Ladies with kebaya? Koyak kanggg.

I want to go to a costume shop, see what I can find but God, the dinner is just around the corner. Lagi dua minggu je. I think it's too late already.

Anyway, since I'm very kind-hearted today.. here's a sneak peek of our dance rehearsal for Thriller last two weeks. We were just getting the full steps at that time. So don't judge. Haha.







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This entry was written earlier before I went out looking for the dress with my mother and finally found one. :)

Yeay!

Happy Eid Adha

The slow growing pain.

Sorry for the lack of updates. Lately I don't really know what to blog anymore.

Not just one or two of my friends started to think that something is going on with me cause it seems that I go back to my hometown quite frequently nowadays. I do have a few personal reasons why I go back to Ipoh but one of the reasons I can't really share with you guys and I'm truly sorry. Not yet.

I know what you're thinking. And no, it's not what you think it is.

I'm not tying the knot. I'm not getting engaged. I'm not planning towards those kinds of things. Pfftt~~

But just let me share one of the reasons why I love spending my weekends at my hometown rather than my own place.

My hometown calms me down. I can forget about work and problems when I'm home. Even it's just temporary but it helps. Like, a lot. I've been under a lot of pressure lately with my work and personal issues, sometimes I feel like my chest is exploding. Thus I do not like spending my weekend here. I want to escape, I need to breath. Leaving Seri Kembangan is like the best treatment I could find. And I'm even thinking of leaving it forever and going back to where I belong.

And I know my parents are lonely. I don't have many siblings and we are all grown ups. Sometimes it breaks my heart thinking that I have not yet given them grandchildren for them to cheer up and play with. It breaks my heart whenever I see how bad they want one and yet I'm not even getting close to it. In fact, I can't even see the path that leads to a happy ending.

I feel like I'm in the wrong place. I'm going nowhere and I'm wasting my time. There's nothing left for me here and it's about time for me to leave. But how sure I am with what I feel?

Escaping from our problems does not solve the problems. But what if escaping is the only solution?

Marriage is like a never ending story for me. I had never been this straight forward, but frankly speaking I am worried with my ownself not to be able to love someone. I have tried so much and I couldn't even say yes and it's just so pathetic. I had done my best to give myself a chance but it's really really hard. My heart is like an icy cold river. I truly have no idea how long it's going to be like this.. and I already forget how it feels to love and be loved.

Oh perhaps I haven't found my Mr Right? I am fucking tired with this retarded excuse. So no, don't tell me that.

Video bangang.

Enjoy.

There is a piece of me that no longer exists because of you.

Just a short update. Boring pulak malam ni.. Nak tido tapi rasa belum nak tido. Tapi dah dekat kul 11 malam.

I expected today would be a very bad day at my office but turned out it was much better than last Friday where I almost got into a quarrel with my colleague. Biasalah bila dah banyak kerja, dan tensyen, dan menyampah.

Tapi Alhamdulillah dedua cool. Dan Allah permudahkan kerja aku hari ni, kerja yang aku rasa aku tak mampu nak buat langsung, boleh siap pulak in one day!!

Magik siot.

Syukurrr~~

Esok buat task baru. Harap-harap takde masalah. Lepas ni diorang nak hand over satu system tu untuk aku manage sorang-sorang. Bagus. Lepas ni, kalau aku dengki, tukar sikit setup aku akan jahanamkan satu projek dan company rugi ribuan ringgit. Mwahahaha.

Tensyen. Semua nak pass kat aku. Ingat aku taiko agaknya.

Right now I am hoping for something new. Something I need. Something I've been searching for so long. I want to move on and go back to where I belong.

Mudah-mudahan pintu rezeki untuk ku terbuka dan segalanya dipermudahkan. Amin.