Control, Concentration and Conquest.

A few changes happened to me recently.

I transferred to a new department and a new project. Only God knows how glad I was to be the chosen one. My previous team insisted me to stay since they are short of resources but yea, decision had been made and I prefer not to stay. Seriyes aku tak sampai hati tinggalkan team aku but aku dah tak larat kerja macam nak gila.. pukul 2,3 pagi kena bangun tengok server.. pastu bangun lagi kul 4,5 pagi.. penah aku tak tidur langsung sampai pinggang pun sakit sebab mengadap laptop je. I thanked God cause I had very kind-hearted bosses. During this severe time, I had to report to four bosses since I was doing tasks for two teams. Memang exhausted gila.

Pernah satu hari, IEP buat hal.. masa tu lebih kurang pukul 4 pagi.. Tak pernah2 dia buat problem macam tu sekali. Because of the error, aku terlepas timeline for poldoc generation. It was behind schedule about 3 hours. I called my ex-vendor since he was the one who developed the whole system. Dia cam dah pening, tak pernah encountered such issue.

Him : Cannot be what... (his favourite phrase)
Me : Erm..
Him : It never happened before.. Why ah...
Me : Oh my God.. I feel like crying. (I was so damn exhausted)
Him : No.. no.. Not yet. Don't.

Nak tergelak aku bila dia try nak calm down aku but macam kelakar sebab aku boleh sense kepanikan dia.

This project I just joined uses the same applications as I used before, plus it is more simplified. Yeah well, Streamserve is not widely used in Malaysia. Aku pun tak tahu kenapa. Dah banyak staff cuba diserap masuk team aku, tapi semua macam tak boleh cope and they just couldn't stop complaining because the system is so complicated. Ikutkan Streamserve bukan satu application yang complicated tapi sebab whole structure of our project is the most complicated one in Malaysia (using Streamserve).

The structure they use in my new team is a bit funny. I don't know why they use such method tapi as long as boleh jalan, lantaklah. Plus, this project has gone live for more than 2 years. It's more stable compared to my previous project (launched early 2009).

But they still haven't assigned me tasks yet so I really can't say. Bila tengok Functional Spec diorang, banyak benda aku nak tanya sebab method yang berbeza, aku tak paham, tapi this one guy yang selama ni handle Streamserve kat projek ni cakap, "You're expert than me." Terus aku nak pengsan.

Ikutkan programming bukan bidang aku sangat. I don't like to write. Aku suka baca. Macam baca buku cerita, kita follow every code apa code tu buat. So at least takdelah aku tension sangat kerja ni. Bila part write tu, aku menyampah betul.

Anyway besides my work, aku akan pindah rumah baru. Rumah sekarang ni okay. Aku duduk single room so memang privacy. Tapi aku paling tak boleh lah orang yang tak independant langsung ni. Semua harap aku buat. Dah lah aku kerja tunggang langgang. Apa alasan kau yang sampai kau langsung tak reti buat apa-apa? Aku tak sampai hati nak fire, tapi hari tu aku mengamuk jugak lah dalam SMS. Tapi aku pun hairan dengan diri sendiri. Dalam pada marah-marah tu, tolong jugak. Tak sampai hati.

Tak kira kita duduk dekat dengan famili atau tidak, kenalah tau sikit-sikit macamana nak survive on your own. When you're too dependant, orang rimas. Nak buat ini tak tahu, nak buat itu tak tahu. Sebab tu laki kondem perempuan. "Perempuan apa pun tak reti!" Padahal banyak je orang perempuan yang boleh berdikari. Tapi rata-rata?

I'm not saying I'm good in everything. Seriously no. Aku bukan lah seorang yang boleh hidup sorang-sorang. Tapi aku cuba. Itu yang gi Singapore sesorang, bila sakit gi hospital sesorang, gi baik kete sesorang. Mak aku pun dah bising. Aku rasa sebenarnya bila hidup single ni, kita lebih jadi berdikari. Tapi ada officemate aku sorang ni, dia dah ada tunang tapi dia lagi independant. Gi bercuti oversea selamba je redah sesorang. Dah banyak negara dia pergi pulak tu. Memang terbaik lah. Aku tak berani.

I don't know how long I'll be staying at my new home. Aku rasa macam tak lama. I've my own plans. Aku dah discuss elok-elok dengan parents aku, diorang pun dah bagi restu dan sokongan. Alhamdulillah. Ada rezeki, tak ke mana. Aku berharap apa yang aku plan ni dipermudahkan Allah. Amin.

Aku happy gila hari ni pasal semalam Barcelona beat Manure in Champions League final. HAHAHA. Freaking happy like Speedy Gonzalez! Yaribaaa yaribaaaa~~!! Bila teringat je, aku takleh tahan gelak.. Kuang kuang kuang!

Mase on the way gi ofis, dengar news pasal ni, then the DJ mentioned about the two goals by Eto'o and Messi.. Pastu dia cakap, "And for Manchester? They've got... nothing."

TAKE THAT!!!!!!!


Puas hati aku.

Didn't anyone tell you you're supposed to break my heart?

Oh please tell me what I really want in my life..

Oh no, it's not even three decades yet, I feel so bored.

Please tell me what I really need..

Besides breathing.. and yelling.. and yawning.. and sleeping.. and working.. and praying.. and hoping... and crying..

I NEED TO KNOW WHAT I NEED TO HAVE.

Give me clues. At least.



Feeling sick to people who are too dependant.

Make it wet.

Hi y'all!

Sini nak promote sikit.

Barangsiapa yang tengah mencari hobi baru, atau tengah takde life, atau terasa dah boring pergi gym, atau teringin nak main air, atau dahaga lantas ingin menelan air satu kolam, atau terasa nak cuci mata atau sememangnya berminat nak belajar swimming, boleh lah contact nombor di atas.

Beliau adalah swimming coach aku sendiri.. tapi aku dah tamat kelas la. Kira sungai Amazon tu ibarat longkang depan umah makcik sedara kita-kita je. Haha.. takde lah. Tipu sangat tu.

Anyway dia ni swimming coach yang best.. yang salu kena buli dengan aku. Hehe. No seriously, he's a good coach. Tak garang, very friendly, boleh buat member.. Dia baru pas belanja dinner ni so cucuk lebih sikit. Hehe.

Ragu-ragu kerana anda memang hampeh dalam swimming? No worries. I started from zero. Float pun tak reti. Tapi sekarang aku siap terjun junam masuk pool paling dalam kat Pullman tu hehe.

How soon you can swim once you take the classes? Ramai orang tanya soalan ni. Eager sangat. Atau dalam erti kata yang bombastik sikit, very enthusiastic. Eycehh. But to be frank, it depends on the individual. Coach aku cakap, average kelas ke-5 mesti dah boleh breast stroke. Aku kelas ke-2. Kelas ke-5 aku dah terjun tempat dalam. Hehe. (Saje kasik panas)

How about the fees? Kalau nak compare kelas-kelas renang yang lain, biasanya RM250-280 untuk lapan kelas. Tapi dengan coach aku ni, RM230 sahaja untuk sepuluh kelas.

Eh, kalau pas sepuluh kelas, tak stroke-stroke lg breast ni, camne? Dia akan extend lagi satu dua kelas.. tiada bayaran tambahan. Tapi seriously by kelas kelima korang dah boleh punya.

Apa qualification coach ni? Entah-entah jaguh renang kampung je? Aku pun tak ingat detail dia sangat pasal term2 kejadah dia guna untuk certification dia tu aku tak leh nak ingat pulak. Tapi dia ada international life saving punya cert ok. Itu life saving, belum campur cert renang dia.. cert diving dia.. cert nikah dia.. err.. Yang best nya, coach ni tak lokek ilmu. Kalau korang tanya apa-apa skill yang takde dalam syllabus, dia akan ajar gak. Contoh: nak buat turn bila sambung lap, nak dive, etc. Tapi jangan tanya camna nak buat synchronized swimming. Kang pengsan tengok coach tu demo. Hahaa. (Cikgu, saya harap blog ni cikgu tak bace..hihi..)

Kat celah mana pulakk nak belajar swimming ni? Celah semak. Hehe. Dekat Pullman Putrajaya Lake Side, Precinct 6. Dekat-dekat PICC tu. Yang ada taman air rekreasi.. taman rekreasi air.. rekreasi taman air.... Pasni dah tau nak skodeng aku kat mana. *tepuk dahi*

Ok lah, kalau rasa ada lagi nak clarify, boleh telefon nombor di atas. Kalau segan, telefon aku je. 012-2359397.

You now have number 2 at the front!

Happy 20th Birthday, sis.

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Yeah, she finally got her most wanted jersey.