I think my soul loves your soul.. Kind of a lot.

Ellie: Can I hold your hand?

Carl: No.

Ellie: But why?

Carl: Because it’ll hurt when you let go.

Boring lah kan asyik cerita pasal Along je berturut-turut.

Ok mari cerita kisah saya menikah pulak.

SANGAT MENTERTIPUAN.

Dunia ni kan kecik je. Lepas tu, fokus pulak kat negara Malaysia je. Lagi lah ciput kan. Kalau tengok dalam globe tu, maybe pusing lapan belas kali baru jumpa negara kita. Kalau tekap buat peta atas bantal pun mungkin kita sangka air liur basi kucing kita.

Selalu kita kenal-kenal orang.. Rupa-rupanya kawan dia tu kawan kepada kawan kita. Dan mungkin jugak kawan kita ni dulu pernah berkasihan dengan adik angkat makcik kita. Begitu lah adanya corak hidup ni kan. Macam roda. Kadang-kadang pancit, kadang-kadang bulat, kadang-kadang haus.

Ada orang kawan dia ramai. Ada orang memilih kawan. Ada orang tak suka berkawan. Aku ramai kawan, tapi mungkin tak seramai orang lain. I love my friends because they were there when I was lonely and needed help. I have good friends that I adore so much.

Ada orang punya kawan baik berlainan jantina. Gadis ni ada bestfriend lelaki itu. Lelaki itu ada girl bestfriend ini. Bestfriends forever?

Tu lah susahnya bila kita declare as bestfriends forever. Dari segi jelasnya, tiada perasaan cinta, hanya sayang dan kasih sebagai kawan. Or shall we say, a platonic friendship?

Tapi mesti kita nak eksploitasi penggunaan 'forever' di situ kan?

Bayangkan anda adalah perempuan. Anda punya kawan baik lelaki.

Dan akhirnya dia berkahwin. Dan anda masih single. Tiada kekasih hati, tiada tunang, tiada suami.

Anda redha, anda kata. Happy walaupun dalam hati rasa sedikit remuk. He used to be all yours. Now he has someone else to take care of his heart. It's not your responsibility anymore.

That's life.

Sebagai perempuan dan sebagai kawan yang baik, kau seharusnya tau batas pergaulan. Dia ada isteri. Ada keluarga sendiri. Lebih tinggi darjatnya dari kamu sendiri. Sekarang dah tak sama macam dulu.

But you refuse to move on. Kenapa?

Cause you're scared of being lonely. Cause you knew him first. Cause he is your bestfriend and forever will. The world gets it.

Tak apa lah nak berkawan. Tapi kena faham lah dia ada isteri. Tak salah kot kalau kau jarakkan sikit perhubungan tu? Oh, sayang ek nak lepaskan? Kenapa sayang? Ye lah dah kata bestfriend forever..

Am I not talking from my experience?

Saya ada kawan baik lelaki. Dari sekolah lagi saya memang ada kawan baik lelaki. Susah kadang-kadang. Saya pernah difitnah. Dituduh bertepuk sebelah tangan. Dituduh menjadi penghalang, tak dapat terima hakikat. Disuruh back off. Dikatakan takde sebab kenapa lelaki ni nak berkawan dengan saya. Macam-macam tau. Tapi biasalah tu..anasir-anasir cemburu. Tak hadap pun. Kesudahannya diorang pun tak ke mana. Perasan je lebih.

Friendship is something I value so much. I love my bestfriends regardless whether they're male or female. Banyak jasa diorang pada saya. Memang saya sayang kawan-kawan baik lelaki saya. Tapi takde lah saya nak berkepit jugak dengan diorang once they got married. Tak baik kan tu? Nak jadi macam Fasha Sendat?

Lepaskanlah kawan mu itu sebab dia dah pilih jalan dia. Kenapa mesti nak kacau rumahtangga orang? Kasihan lah pada si isteri. Berkawan biasa tak salah. Tapi apa pun jaga lah batas pergaulan itu. Dia kini suami orang. Tak manis kalau masih nak texting/calling/meeting macam masa dia bujang. Hormat lah perasaan orang rumah dia. Tak susah pun nak buat. Jangan selfish sangat. Banyak cara nak tunjuk kita sayang dia. Lebih baik doa kan dia sejahtera dunia akhirat. Jadi khalifah yang boleh memimpin keluagra. Dapat zuriat yang soleh dan solehah. Dimurahkan rezeki. Baru boleh sampai ke tahap sahabat kot?

Ada pulak yang taknak lepas kawan dia, sanggup bersayang-sayang dengan kawan baik lelaki dia tu tanpa fikir perasaan si isteri. Lelaki tu pun best melayan. Then kata kawan baik je. Yang perempuan ni syok agaknye, dia maki si isteri kaw kaw. Cakap si suami dah tak enjoy his sex life. Patut ke, kawan-kawan? To that extend kau nak kacau marriage kawan kau? Bangga ke? Tak fikir ke dari mana datangnya perasaan bangga tu?

Bila isteri marah dia, cakap isteri tu gila sebab lepas bersalin, ada urat putus. Tergamak ke?

Takkan kita nak jadi tahap macam tu kan? Jadi berhati-hati lah ye. Jaga peradaban kita ni. Kita kan ada agama?

Perkahwinan bukan sesuatu yang kita bina guna Lego dan kemudian dihancurkan. Ingat tu.

Ok lah sekian bebelan mungkin membina dari saya ini. Harap sesiapa yang mengalami atau melalukan jenayah hati sebegini dapat fikir-fikirkan bersama.

Ok jangan tensyen tensyen. Sorry la entry kali ini ada stress sikit. Saya dah lama tak buat teguran terbuka macam ni. Tapi fikir saya ni perempuan, mungkin ada baiknya saya tegur sikap segelintir kaum saya yang boleh mengundang kecelakaan jalanraya ni.

Di bawah ni meme saya jumpa dari blog OhTheAida chan (letak chan sebab dia suka sangat address besties dia chan chan ala-ala jepang la ni ye.)

The only rule applies : Sila BOLD mana yang berkenaan dengan diri kita. Ah kacang kuda je ni.

My personality:

I’m loud. (when I'm with close friends and family)

I’m obnoxious.

I’m sarcastic. (with annoying and rude people)

I’m cocky.

I cry easily.

I have bad temper.

For the most part I don’t like people.

I’m easy to get along with.

I have more enemies than friends.

I’ve smoked.

I’ve smoked weed.

I drink coffee.

I clean my room daily. <-- if I bold this one, pompuan ni will puke blood instantly. But I clean my bathroom daily. (saye tak suka share bathroom tapi bathroom saye sering dilanyak oleh mereka)



My appearance:

I wear makeup.

I wear a piece of jewellery at all times.

I wear contacts.  (sometimes)

I wear glasses.

I have braces.

I change my hair colour often.

I straighten my hair often.

I have a piercing.

I have small feet.



Relationships:

I’m in a relationship now. (kawan2, sila jangan terbeliak sangat)

I’m single.

I’m crushin’.

I’ve missed an ex before.

An ex has physically abused me at least once.

I’ve told someone I loved them when I didn’t. <-- I could never do this!

I’ve told someone I didn’t love them when I did.

I’ve been in love more than two times.

I believe in love at first sight.

I believe lust is more important than love.



Friendships:

I have a best friend.

I have at least ten friends.

I’ve gotten a phone call in the last 48 hours from a friend.

I’ve beaten up a friend. (masa kecik2, budak laki sebelah rumah ajak gusti. gwa tumbuk la. patah gigi beliau.)

I’ve been in a serious fight with a friend.

I can trust at least five people with my life. (Trust is something people have to gain from me. It's not that easy.)


Experiences:

I’ve been on a plane.

I’ve been on a train

Someone close to me has died.

I’ve taken a taxi.

I’ve taken a city bus.  (tapi kat Singapore je. Haha. Sorang-sorang lak tu. Tiap kali pergi shopping pas kerja.)

I’ve taken a school bus.

I’ve gone bungee jumping.

I’ve made a speech.

I’ve been in some sort of club.

I’ve won an award.

I’ve spent 24 hours on the computer straight.

I’ve been in a physical fight. (tapi martial arts training / demo lah. hahaha)



Music:

I listen to R&B.

I listen to country.

I listen to pop.

I listen to techno.

I listen to rock.

I’m one of those people who play songs repeatedly until I hate it.

I hate the radio.

I download music.

I buy CD’s.


Television:

I spend at least six hours a day watching television.

I watch soap operas daily.

I’m in love with Days Of Our Lives.

I’ve seen and liked the O.C.

I’ve seen and liked One Tree Hill.

I’ve seen and liked Popular.

I’ve seen and liked 24.

I’ve seen and liked CSI.

I’ve seen and liked Everwood.



Hair:

I’ve been brown.

I’ve had streaks.

I’ve cut my hair in the past year.

I’ve dyed my hair in the past year.

I’ve been blonde.

I’ve had black.

I’ve been red.

I’ve been light brown. (tersembul bijik mata bapa ku.)

I’ve been medium brown.

I’ve been blue/green.

I’ve had my hair thinned.

I use conditioner.

I’ve used silk therapy.

I’ve used hot oil treatments.

I’ve curled my hair. (twice)

I’ve straightened my hair (twice, after I got bored having permed hair)

I’ve braided my hair.



School:

I’ve yelled at a teacher.

I’ve been suspended.

I’ve had an in-school suspension.

I’ve been sent to the principal’s office. (the whole class has and unlucky me had to be the class monitor)

I’ve walked out of class.

I’ve skipped an entire day of school.

I’ve skipped a whole month of one certain class.

I’ve failed Art.

I’ve failed P.E.

I’ve failed math.

I’ve failed science.

I’ve failed another class.

A teacher has called my parents.