When money flows like river..

Hari tu berjalan ke Jalan TAR sorang-sorang. Memang plan nak shopping bersendirian hari tu so tak lah ajak sesiapa. Akibat tiada kekangan dari mana-mana pihak, terhabiskan duit hampir RM400 di situ.. memborong tudung sebanyak 40 helai dan sepasang baju kurung berharga RM100 lebih.

Aduss~~~

Berjalan tanpa henti. Letih siot. Tapi best. Lepas tu jumpa kawan-kawan pergi Pavillion.. Jalan lagi.. Tapi dah takde benda nak beli. One thing about me, I don't like being in a shop for too long where there's nothing for me to look for. So sedar tak sedar, dah berjalan sesorang masuk Parkson la hape lah.. dah malas nak patah balik.

Then we went to watch err.. cite ape ar.. ish tak ingat pulak. Haha. Ohhh hah.. cite hantu.. err.. haa Nightmare on Elm Street. Kah kah. Gila struggle nak ingat. I have a problem with horror movies. Especially those from Hollywood. They do not scare me at all. Sekadar efek bunyi terkejut-kejut tu..alahai~ I am used to friends saying I have no emotion when watching that kind of movies.

Nightmare on Elm St was first released in 1984, the year I was born. I grew up with the films which if I am not mistaken there are 6 installments in total. The final installment came out when I was 7 years old. They were my favourites when I was a kid. Ada satu lagi horror movie.. tak ingat lah tajuk dia.. I think my brother remembers the title. Itu pun best. Jap jap google.. kot-kot jumpe.. Ish tak jumpa pulak. There's some more, Poltergeist series. Tu pun best. The Exorcist pun not bad but tak minat sangat la.

Yes yes..dah jumpa. The Evil Dead! Fuh best. Sila tengok. Scenes hantu-hantu meratap sayu dari bawah tanah sangat horror.

So growing up with horror movies as my junk food, I think that's the reason why horror films now are almost nothing to me. Seeing Nightmare on Elm St 2010 as a remake of the movie, I personally think the effects are better yet somehow I wished the plots are fresh instead of a remake. Sebab masa tengok movie tu, aku dah tau apa nak jadi.

Anyway semalam pergi hospital jap.. amik surat from my immunologist. Dia cakap datang amik je.. if dia takde, suruh amik kat nurse dia. Tapi masa sampai, dia ada lagi.. and he asked to come and see him. Cis.. kena bebel pulak. But it was good for me. He advised me not to have too much stress as it can trigger my disorder but his explanation did give me a pressure. He was not so keen with my idea to move to Ipoh and at the same time having to come to Shah Alam every weekend for my Master and plus I am working. All these things cause me stress. Mane laa saye tau, encik doktor..and stop saying "I'm not trying to scare you."!

But that's not the bad news for me. It's something else about my risks, my future and how I need to live with it for the rest of my life. I think I'll just keep the saddest part to myself. :)

Therefore friends, please pray for me for this coming Saturday. I just need one good result. Just this one.

"You sound like it's my last resort.." I said slowly.

"I'm sorry. You're right. It is," he answered. Susah nak decribe apa aku rasa masa tu.

Anyway since the hospital is in Bangsar, I went straight to Midvalley right after that. To be frank, I hate Midvalley. It's too crowded for me. I did not plan to buy anything yet I purchased a C&K wallet! And a few Body Shop products! God damn you Evil of Lust!

The worst thing is today I went to Body Shop twice at JJ Equine and again I bought a few more. I bought BS stuff three fucking times in a row.

I need help.

I was not supposed to be their member. Period.



p/s: I was right. Did not manage to buy anything for a gift at Midvalley.