Unsettled business.

Exciting weekend I had. My family had a small celebration for Mother’s Day as well as for my brother and sister’s birthday. Buat sekali harung je. Senang.

Alhamdulillah dikurniakan family yang sempurna. Eventhough kadang-kadang aku mengharapkan aku mempunyai ramai adik-beradik tapi Allah itu lebih Mengetahui apa yang terbaik untuk hamba-hambaNya. Betul tak?

Dulu pernah memasang angan-angan. Nanti dah kahwin, nak lima anak. Tapi, sekarang umur dah 26. Tak sempat dah kot? HAHA.

Finally I broke the shocking news to my close friends. Aih… tak sangka la pulak sampai ada yang menangis. I really didn’t mean to make them sad. To be frank, I did not feel sad until they cried. There was one day, I was sms-ing my friend while driving (I know the law forbids that) and suddenly I felt sad with what I said and I really cried in my car when I was stuck in the jam.

They are like the closest persons besides my family so I could feel their sadness.

Some of my friends still have no idea about it so I am not ready to share the news in my blog yet. Soon, I promise.

Anyway, finally confirmed on the date with my immunologist to be admitted to the hospital again. He is super busy but I totally understand because there are not many specialists like him in Malaysia. Plus, he’s also a pediatrician and that tells another story. I swear to God, when I finally find at least one painkiller that I’m not allergic to, I won’t bother troubling myself into this stupid test anymore. I SO HATE IT! Why, you, IgE, are so high?!! EEEEEEE!!

Been neglecting my blood disorder for quite some time cause I need to focus on my allergy issue first. To be frank, I almost did not care about it anymore until I had a really bad chest pain last Friday. But at first I was not really worried. I still could talk but when I put a little more pressure to my chest, for instance, laughing, it hurt like hell. I suffered for like three hours and finally made a decision to go to the clinic because the pain came from my left chest (read: heart). But by the time I went to the clinic, the pain was already slowly gone. Hahaha.

Doctor could not tell what was wrong so I told her about my medical history. So she urged for a blood test. I asked her just for confirmation, “That’s for my platelet count, right? And my white blood as well?” She nodded and said, “This is for your heart.” I remained silent, wow that sounds scary. She continued, “If it’s too high, we will contact you and you need to rush to the hospital.”

Can we like, ban the word “hospital” from now on?

Then I went out from the room and went to the counter, “Berapa lama baru dapat result?”

‘Tiga hari.”

Terus aku pecah perut ketawa. Three days! By that time, I would have collapsed if my heart really has a problem.

So yeah, three days passed and nothing. They did not call me back. This is like my 50th blood test so I know regardless the result is good or bad, you still have to inform the patient. Maybe tomorrow I’ll drop by at the clinic to collect my blood test report.